I rewatched rocky last night. I really liked it! I think the theme was simple, the focus was very monotonous. But it flashed out with substance and emotion. Compare to Creed, I felt I can empathize with Rocky than Creed. I felt I can understand Rocky and his people around him better.
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Stardust
I remembered I watched it once. But somehow, it was not impressive at the time. I remembered that I had other things in my mind. Or, I was doing something at the same time. So I was not impressed.
But man, oh, man, it's such a good fantasy movie. Very classic story line, awesome chemistry between characters, and most importantly, there's humor, which did not take you out of the movies! I felt I was taken out the movie by some of the humor in the Princess bride.
I like Stardust! The story was a boy trying to charm his first love by getting a falling meteorite. But by crossing a wall by his village, he entered a magical realm, thus his adventure began. The image captured here, landscape, daily life, I can feel the weight and wear, grandeur and color in almost every shot. The characters are likable as well! The magic in the movie felt realistic and fun.
A truly great movie!
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Friday, January 08, 2016
Still alice's endings.
I don't know why, but I thought the movie's ending was bad. I liked the book's ending better. But I could be wrong, no?
One ended with families still together, the other ended with one left for its career.
Really don't like the career pursuing one. But again, would it be regretted if not pursuing career?
One ended with families still together, the other ended with one left for its career.
Really don't like the career pursuing one. But again, would it be regretted if not pursuing career?
somet thoughts
I kept wondering about one thing. How come I work so hard at work place, but when I come home, I changed to something else? Whatever I worked on at work place was not mine. When it came to what is really mine, I slack off! Outrageous!!
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I told Vic that I was going to watch ant-man at the end of work, 2 days ago. He said he hasn't watched it yet. Like usual, I expressed my surprise. He must have thought it funny. So he said he will watch it that night after work and we will have something to talk about. I thought it was a funny idea.
He did not mention the movie yesterday. I thought it must've been a joke. I said something in the end of day. Yeah, he must've been joking. And yet, I carried for two days.
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I told Vic that I was going to watch ant-man at the end of work, 2 days ago. He said he hasn't watched it yet. Like usual, I expressed my surprise. He must have thought it funny. So he said he will watch it that night after work and we will have something to talk about. I thought it was a funny idea.
He did not mention the movie yesterday. I thought it must've been a joke. I said something in the end of day. Yeah, he must've been joking. And yet, I carried for two days.
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Still Alice Impression
I read Still Alice a couple months ago. It was a good book to read, really. The author has an easy and crisp style. I felt like whatever author wanted to convey, I could easily grasp them. The characters are well defined, they all have a distinct feels.
There are many things impressed me in that book. But there's one thing I kept going back. The distance the husband showed when he found out that it's true and irreversible fact. He seemed to want to try to stay as before, like nothing had happened. He even want to change the environment and career with his wife! It seemed so inconsiderate to the sick.
I felt like I've seen it somewhere. Getting distance does not necessarily mean to be far away. My silence could also meant that. My ignorance of life could mean the same thing as well. This drives me nuts. I wish I could be more passionate, more filled with joy. Above all, I wish I could feel compassionate towards my mother. I felt I must be aloof and distance towards her. For, I am silent around her, and ignoring life at the same time. It must make her felt insecure deeply.
Uncle once said something, it seems to me that he meant there are a lot of stuff, he wanted to accomplish, but could not. It could be due to time, or slacking off, or something else. I felt that too. I always have some ideas popped into my mind, but after a while, I'd forget what it was. Then there would be times when I felt I got nothing to do and lonely, I would be scratching my head, pulling my hair, heart and belly all boiling, without knowing what to do! I need to make a to do list. So when those times come, I could held my list and at least, knowing that I had options!
By doing the above thing, what I wished to accomplish was, by doing those things, I could felt a bit useful, strengthening my psychological fortitude, by not forgetting what I meant to do. Not the things, the company requires of me, not the things my family requires me, or friends, for that matter. But something I wish to do! I hope I could find out it, are them worth it, or not. If it's worth it, keep it; if it's not, kick it.
The passion for life, must be deep within. Through action, by completing them, I hope a visualization would keep the inner fire burning.
There are many things impressed me in that book. But there's one thing I kept going back. The distance the husband showed when he found out that it's true and irreversible fact. He seemed to want to try to stay as before, like nothing had happened. He even want to change the environment and career with his wife! It seemed so inconsiderate to the sick.
I felt like I've seen it somewhere. Getting distance does not necessarily mean to be far away. My silence could also meant that. My ignorance of life could mean the same thing as well. This drives me nuts. I wish I could be more passionate, more filled with joy. Above all, I wish I could feel compassionate towards my mother. I felt I must be aloof and distance towards her. For, I am silent around her, and ignoring life at the same time. It must make her felt insecure deeply.
Uncle once said something, it seems to me that he meant there are a lot of stuff, he wanted to accomplish, but could not. It could be due to time, or slacking off, or something else. I felt that too. I always have some ideas popped into my mind, but after a while, I'd forget what it was. Then there would be times when I felt I got nothing to do and lonely, I would be scratching my head, pulling my hair, heart and belly all boiling, without knowing what to do! I need to make a to do list. So when those times come, I could held my list and at least, knowing that I had options!
By doing the above thing, what I wished to accomplish was, by doing those things, I could felt a bit useful, strengthening my psychological fortitude, by not forgetting what I meant to do. Not the things, the company requires of me, not the things my family requires me, or friends, for that matter. But something I wish to do! I hope I could find out it, are them worth it, or not. If it's worth it, keep it; if it's not, kick it.
The passion for life, must be deep within. Through action, by completing them, I hope a visualization would keep the inner fire burning.
Monday, January 04, 2016
Sunday, January 03, 2016
Some thoughts
Mr. Wang is my grandfather's helper during the week day. My mom kept asking him if he want to go to congregation. He said yes on Friday. So mom called April to schedule a ride. However, it turned out that my sis cannot go today. April wanted to arrange a bother to take Mr. Wang. But Mom immediately said no. She said, Jack will do it. Her exact wording was: "如果我叫小杰去, 小杰就會做..." This bugged me. And I immediately told her after she ended her call with my sis.
The result was she could not sleep last night. I was still bugged and disgusted with myself about revealing this to her. I do want to please her, and like I told her, I will do it almost no matter what anyway. Why would I reveal that to her? This caused 2 things, she can't sleep, I felt disgusted about myself.
However, that line really bugged me. I still think that I am constantly looking for comfort. Anything that could comfort me. Just about anything. This low self esteem thing really needs to go! I kept trying to find out what I want. I am still trying! Because I thought if I know that, I would make myself a better person. I could stand tall with other people, psychologically.
I felt really short when compared to whoever! I tried to comfort myself with stories I created. But it failed again and again. Because a dream is a dream, I am still here, could not go and do anything! I dreamed of having a girl like CJ or Nono. But when I see myself. that disgust would not go away. I am not a complicated guy. I am not that deep. I thought if I could figure what I want to do, and go for it. Dedicated myself to it. I would be more complete. I'd be happy, my mom would happy. And I could maybe try to find a girl like CJ or Nono. I don't know what I want to do! 16 years ago, I sat on the mud room's step, back to my mom, and said to her, I don't know what I want to do. Today, I still am. If anything, I'd wish for a hug and a kiss from CJ right now. But by golly, that thoughts was horrible! I keep shaken my head sometimes, trying to shake it off. The more I look at her, the more I am more obsessed. That cannot be the only thing I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel I could do more. But maybe I can't. I record some thoughts here, and yet, when I reflected back, those thoughts are shallow at best, utterly not understandable at worst!
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Anyway, I gotta learn to filter what to say! Before I even said it! That report said that I used a lot of energy to suppress feelings. But how to let those feeling out, without hurting anybody?! I know I did try hard not to touch sadness and anger, but it seems the more I tried, the more I failed! The emotion for withholding sadness and anger must be fear. So the only thing I could display is smile, or utter reclusive.
The result was she could not sleep last night. I was still bugged and disgusted with myself about revealing this to her. I do want to please her, and like I told her, I will do it almost no matter what anyway. Why would I reveal that to her? This caused 2 things, she can't sleep, I felt disgusted about myself.
However, that line really bugged me. I still think that I am constantly looking for comfort. Anything that could comfort me. Just about anything. This low self esteem thing really needs to go! I kept trying to find out what I want. I am still trying! Because I thought if I know that, I would make myself a better person. I could stand tall with other people, psychologically.
I felt really short when compared to whoever! I tried to comfort myself with stories I created. But it failed again and again. Because a dream is a dream, I am still here, could not go and do anything! I dreamed of having a girl like CJ or Nono. But when I see myself. that disgust would not go away. I am not a complicated guy. I am not that deep. I thought if I could figure what I want to do, and go for it. Dedicated myself to it. I would be more complete. I'd be happy, my mom would happy. And I could maybe try to find a girl like CJ or Nono. I don't know what I want to do! 16 years ago, I sat on the mud room's step, back to my mom, and said to her, I don't know what I want to do. Today, I still am. If anything, I'd wish for a hug and a kiss from CJ right now. But by golly, that thoughts was horrible! I keep shaken my head sometimes, trying to shake it off. The more I look at her, the more I am more obsessed. That cannot be the only thing I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel I could do more. But maybe I can't. I record some thoughts here, and yet, when I reflected back, those thoughts are shallow at best, utterly not understandable at worst!
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Anyway, I gotta learn to filter what to say! Before I even said it! That report said that I used a lot of energy to suppress feelings. But how to let those feeling out, without hurting anybody?! I know I did try hard not to touch sadness and anger, but it seems the more I tried, the more I failed! The emotion for withholding sadness and anger must be fear. So the only thing I could display is smile, or utter reclusive.
JediAcademy impression
I just finished the game first time since I bought it long ago. I think the game was really well designed. In terms of combat, I did not like it though. I had a hard time controlling the movements. I cannot see which swing I used to kill my opponents! But different kind of forces was fun to play.
The platforming part of the game was alright. It had some kind of design, but not whole lot. The game designers used this mechanic for finding secret areas. But there's no design for flow or rhythm in them. I don't really like the jumping mechanics either. It has a flowing through air feel to it. But it was much better designed than Oni. Oni has only flipping, but here, in Jedi Academy, you could do vertical wall run, in theory... Because I still cannot control it, not sure if it's text sensitive. JA have better level design, so you could really use force jump sometimes, unlike Oni... All that sliding and flipping, were wasted.
Overall, it's a more complete package, compared to Oni. But the combat really bugs me. It's too fast and flashy for my taste. If I do more practice, maybe I could get a feel for it. But I don't really have incentive to do so though.
The platforming part of the game was alright. It had some kind of design, but not whole lot. The game designers used this mechanic for finding secret areas. But there's no design for flow or rhythm in them. I don't really like the jumping mechanics either. It has a flowing through air feel to it. But it was much better designed than Oni. Oni has only flipping, but here, in Jedi Academy, you could do vertical wall run, in theory... Because I still cannot control it, not sure if it's text sensitive. JA have better level design, so you could really use force jump sometimes, unlike Oni... All that sliding and flipping, were wasted.
Overall, it's a more complete package, compared to Oni. But the combat really bugs me. It's too fast and flashy for my taste. If I do more practice, maybe I could get a feel for it. But I don't really have incentive to do so though.
Saturday, January 02, 2016
Yesterday we karaoke
My sis and her husband came for karaoke yesterday. we first used ps2, it was really fun. Then we used youtube and roku combo for chinese song. It was really good too. I've been wanting to do that for sometimes now. It was great.
南掌
Review for Southpaw
自從看了 trailer 後, 我就想看這部電影. 但是, 當光碟出來時, 我又猶豫了. 因為我滿確定這多半很老套. 幾個月前, Vic 早上的時候突然問我, 有無看過 Southpaw? 我說還沒有, 他說你應該會喜歡喔. 於是, 我去圖書館預定了.
在這期間, 我也去看了 Creed. 所以在看這部電影時, 我似乎有意無意的在比較這兩部電影給我的感覺.
我很喜歡 Southpaw. 非常喜歡. 我覺得這部電影給我的感覺比 Creed 更實在. Southpaw 在講一個拳擊冠軍的故事. 他從冠軍因為一個意外事件, 再加上他個性上的問題, 他失去了他所珍重的一切. 在最谷底的時候, 他得到了一個人幫住, 他再次站上拳壇.
這是多麼俗套的劇情?! 可是, 從電影開始到結束, 我幾乎沒有離開螢幕. 演員的努力是不可不提的. Jake 的演技真是一流. 他上一部電影是 Nightcrawler. 他在電影裡把整個人改變形象. 他所改變得不是化妝, 而是行為態度. 這一改變實在令我大吃一驚. 在部電影裡, 他在一次的嘗試改變行為方式. 我覺得仍是很成功的. 也很令我佩服. Jake 和 Forest 的搭配, 我覺得更是令人激賞的地方. Forest 始終都是很棒的演員. 他有他的味道. 在幾個過場裡, 他和 Jake 的對話, 是整部電影裡點睛之處! 要讓電影重俗套中活化, 就得有配得上的對白.
不斷提到俗套劇情是因為, 這種電影幾乎在開始時就是已經知道結果了. 甚至幾番的波折之處, 在影迷的腦海裡也早就釐出了套路. 電影一開始的成功, 主角開始墮落, 主角在谷底得到精神上的激發, 又從此成功. 還要加上愛情的套路等等. 這部電影裡都出現了. 但是我並不被這些俗套影響, 這關鍵就在對白上, 道出了某種與我內心所有的共鳴. 譬如說, 主角在意外發生後, 因為自己個性上的缺失, 造成了失去一切生活上的種種, 甚至造成父女分離. Forest 的角色在關鍵的過場裡, 提出了我也有的想法. 在那個蒼老疲累的聲音裡, 這問題不斷痛刺主角的內心, 從而激活他的自我意識! 另外, 就父女分離的劇情部分, 無論是那位演女兒的女角, 還是 Jake, 還是 Forest, 每個過場都有其目的. 在我眼裡, 我似乎也都可以感受到每一個鏡頭的重量. 俗套與否, 已經被真實有物的對話內容充淡.
我也上 youtube 看看相關的訊息. 才知道 Southpaw 的主角一開始是 Eminem! 我也才了解為啥 Jake 在詮釋這個角色上和 Nightcrawler 相比有點拘束. 但是這是很有趣的訊息.
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和 Creed 相比, 我更喜歡 Southpaw. Creed 的故事是不錯的題材. 可是我總覺得好像少了甚麼. 我無法在感情上得到立足點吧. 我並不覺得主角讓我感動. 史特龍在我認為更是這部戲的亮點.
自從看了 trailer 後, 我就想看這部電影. 但是, 當光碟出來時, 我又猶豫了. 因為我滿確定這多半很老套. 幾個月前, Vic 早上的時候突然問我, 有無看過 Southpaw? 我說還沒有, 他說你應該會喜歡喔. 於是, 我去圖書館預定了.
在這期間, 我也去看了 Creed. 所以在看這部電影時, 我似乎有意無意的在比較這兩部電影給我的感覺.
我很喜歡 Southpaw. 非常喜歡. 我覺得這部電影給我的感覺比 Creed 更實在. Southpaw 在講一個拳擊冠軍的故事. 他從冠軍因為一個意外事件, 再加上他個性上的問題, 他失去了他所珍重的一切. 在最谷底的時候, 他得到了一個人幫住, 他再次站上拳壇.
這是多麼俗套的劇情?! 可是, 從電影開始到結束, 我幾乎沒有離開螢幕. 演員的努力是不可不提的. Jake 的演技真是一流. 他上一部電影是 Nightcrawler. 他在電影裡把整個人改變形象. 他所改變得不是化妝, 而是行為態度. 這一改變實在令我大吃一驚. 在部電影裡, 他在一次的嘗試改變行為方式. 我覺得仍是很成功的. 也很令我佩服. Jake 和 Forest 的搭配, 我覺得更是令人激賞的地方. Forest 始終都是很棒的演員. 他有他的味道. 在幾個過場裡, 他和 Jake 的對話, 是整部電影裡點睛之處! 要讓電影重俗套中活化, 就得有配得上的對白.
不斷提到俗套劇情是因為, 這種電影幾乎在開始時就是已經知道結果了. 甚至幾番的波折之處, 在影迷的腦海裡也早就釐出了套路. 電影一開始的成功, 主角開始墮落, 主角在谷底得到精神上的激發, 又從此成功. 還要加上愛情的套路等等. 這部電影裡都出現了. 但是我並不被這些俗套影響, 這關鍵就在對白上, 道出了某種與我內心所有的共鳴. 譬如說, 主角在意外發生後, 因為自己個性上的缺失, 造成了失去一切生活上的種種, 甚至造成父女分離. Forest 的角色在關鍵的過場裡, 提出了我也有的想法. 在那個蒼老疲累的聲音裡, 這問題不斷痛刺主角的內心, 從而激活他的自我意識! 另外, 就父女分離的劇情部分, 無論是那位演女兒的女角, 還是 Jake, 還是 Forest, 每個過場都有其目的. 在我眼裡, 我似乎也都可以感受到每一個鏡頭的重量. 俗套與否, 已經被真實有物的對話內容充淡.
我也上 youtube 看看相關的訊息. 才知道 Southpaw 的主角一開始是 Eminem! 我也才了解為啥 Jake 在詮釋這個角色上和 Nightcrawler 相比有點拘束. 但是這是很有趣的訊息.
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和 Creed 相比, 我更喜歡 Southpaw. Creed 的故事是不錯的題材. 可是我總覺得好像少了甚麼. 我無法在感情上得到立足點吧. 我並不覺得主角讓我感動. 史特龍在我認為更是這部戲的亮點.
搞錯了一輩子了...
芥末與山葵
一般人在吃生魚片時，免不了要沾一下醬油及芥末。這種一般台灣人稱之為「芥末」的綠色泥狀的調味料日文叫作「わさび」(wasabi)，日文漢字表記為「山葵」。
在吃納豆的時候，納豆的盒子中經常會附有一包類似醬油的「つゆ」的液體調味料以及一包黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的日文叫作「わがらし」(wagarashi) ，日文漢字表記為「和辛子」或「和芥子」。
又，吃熱狗的時候，除了蕃茄醬以外，經常還有一種黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的英文是「mustard」，日文叫作「マスタード」，也有人稱為「ようがらし」(yougarashi)，日文漢字表記為「洋辛子」或「洋芥子」。
不論是「わがらし」或是「ようがらし」，都是由芥菜的種子磨成粉後所製成的調味料。國語辭典中對「芥末」的解釋就是「用芥菜子研細的粉末，味辛辣， 常用作調味料」。因此，嚴格地來說，吃生魚片時所沾的綠色的調味料並不是「芥末」，而是一種用「山葵」這種植物的根磨成泥的調味料 (感覺起來就像是把蘿蔔磨成泥的樣子)。真正的「芥末」應該是吃納豆、吃熱狗時所附的黃色調味料。
至於「わがらし」和「ようがらし」的差別只是一個是日本的調味料，一個是歐美的調味料。只是正好兩種調味料都是用同芥菜的種子製成的。同一種植物在 不同的地方的生長狀態多少會有所不同，而每個人在製作調味料時的手法也可能會有一點不一樣，所以「わがらし」和「ようがらし」多少會有一些微妙的不同。但 是兩種調味料幾乎可以說是同一種東西。
(錄自: http://umesakura.jp/20050524183105.html)
在吃納豆的時候，納豆的盒子中經常會附有一包類似醬油的「つゆ」的液體調味料以及一包黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的日文叫作「わがらし」(wagarashi) ，日文漢字表記為「和辛子」或「和芥子」。
又，吃熱狗的時候，除了蕃茄醬以外，經常還有一種黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的英文是「mustard」，日文叫作「マスタード」，也有人稱為「ようがらし」(yougarashi)，日文漢字表記為「洋辛子」或「洋芥子」。
不論是「わがらし」或是「ようがらし」，都是由芥菜的種子磨成粉後所製成的調味料。國語辭典中對「芥末」的解釋就是「用芥菜子研細的粉末，味辛辣， 常用作調味料」。因此，嚴格地來說，吃生魚片時所沾的綠色的調味料並不是「芥末」，而是一種用「山葵」這種植物的根磨成泥的調味料 (感覺起來就像是把蘿蔔磨成泥的樣子)。真正的「芥末」應該是吃納豆、吃熱狗時所附的黃色調味料。
至於「わがらし」和「ようがらし」的差別只是一個是日本的調味料，一個是歐美的調味料。只是正好兩種調味料都是用同芥菜的種子製成的。同一種植物在 不同的地方的生長狀態多少會有所不同，而每個人在製作調味料時的手法也可能會有一點不一樣，所以「わがらし」和「ようがらし」多少會有一些微妙的不同。但 是兩種調味料幾乎可以說是同一種東西。
(錄自: http://umesakura.jp/20050524183105.html)
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Vic and door
There is a 2 panel door between warehouse and engineers' office. It's been dysfunction-ed lately which cannot stay closed. I noticed the problem a while ago. I even fancied myself to find the solution for it. But I merely just looked at the latch bolt, strike, and lip. The latch bolt was very far away from both strike and lip. I kept looking at latch, strike, and lip without noticing other places. With that rate, I gave up easily. I can't think of a way to pull both doors closer so latch would touch strike.
Sofya asked me to ask Vic to fix the door a few weeks ago. I must have forgotten to tell Vic. Sofya asked me today again. So I bring Vic's attention to it since it's pretty light today. When Sofya was telling me about the door, she had an interesting observation, that the crack between two door panels were not even. It's closer on the top and further apart towards the bottom. Immediately I thought that must be because when I park the pallets along the wall, it's easy to push into the wall sometimes. And the door frame that attached to that side of the wall must moved by the impact. However, Sofya doubted it. Right now, I doubted it too. Because Vic and I dead bolted big wooden log along the wall to prevent the impact.
Anyway, Vic went and took a look as I was telling him Sofya's observation about the crack. He agreed with the observation. At the same time, kept looking at the door frame, and soon noticed a strike mark under one of the door panel. Something must have clicked in his head. He asked for the small piece of metal, which he found at a nearby table. Once he made sure it's a defected parts, he used that metal piece and put between one of the door panel near the bottom hinge against the frame, and jammed the door panel on the metal piece a few times. It's not a fast movement, more like a squeeze. After about three times, the doors latched on with each other. That was quite amazing to me. I even told Anne later.
A few things I noticed, one is that when I tried to find the problem, I did not notice the uneven crack. I merely looked at the most obvious problem, latch and strike. The other thing was that I also made a conclusion on why things what happened. Even now, I still don't know how this happened. But the problem was solved!
Most interesting. What can I learn from this? I like to gather a lot of data before I make a choice, especially when I buy things. But when facing a problem, I don't spend enough time to observe, or I just narrowed my attention to the most obvious problem, or the most shallow one. Then, finding a reason seemed to somehow satisfied me. It seemed that once I had a reason, I could ignore the problem?! lol!
Most interesting!
Sofya asked me to ask Vic to fix the door a few weeks ago. I must have forgotten to tell Vic. Sofya asked me today again. So I bring Vic's attention to it since it's pretty light today. When Sofya was telling me about the door, she had an interesting observation, that the crack between two door panels were not even. It's closer on the top and further apart towards the bottom. Immediately I thought that must be because when I park the pallets along the wall, it's easy to push into the wall sometimes. And the door frame that attached to that side of the wall must moved by the impact. However, Sofya doubted it. Right now, I doubted it too. Because Vic and I dead bolted big wooden log along the wall to prevent the impact.
Anyway, Vic went and took a look as I was telling him Sofya's observation about the crack. He agreed with the observation. At the same time, kept looking at the door frame, and soon noticed a strike mark under one of the door panel. Something must have clicked in his head. He asked for the small piece of metal, which he found at a nearby table. Once he made sure it's a defected parts, he used that metal piece and put between one of the door panel near the bottom hinge against the frame, and jammed the door panel on the metal piece a few times. It's not a fast movement, more like a squeeze. After about three times, the doors latched on with each other. That was quite amazing to me. I even told Anne later.
A few things I noticed, one is that when I tried to find the problem, I did not notice the uneven crack. I merely looked at the most obvious problem, latch and strike. The other thing was that I also made a conclusion on why things what happened. Even now, I still don't know how this happened. But the problem was solved!
Most interesting. What can I learn from this? I like to gather a lot of data before I make a choice, especially when I buy things. But when facing a problem, I don't spend enough time to observe, or I just narrowed my attention to the most obvious problem, or the most shallow one. Then, finding a reason seemed to somehow satisfied me. It seemed that once I had a reason, I could ignore the problem?! lol!
Most interesting!
Saturday, December 12, 2015
The Song of Wandering Aengus
The
Song of Wandering Aengus
William Butler Yeats
I went out to the hazel wood,
Because a fire was in my head,
And cut and peeled a hazel wand,
And hooked a berry to a thread;
And when white moths were on the wing,
And moth-like stars were flickering out,
I dropped the berry in a stream
And caught a little silver trout.
When I had laid it on the floor
I went to blow the fire a-flame,
But something rustled on the floor,
And some one called me by my name:
It had become a glimmering girl
With apple blossom in her hair
Who called me by my name and ran
And faded through the brightening air.
Though I am old with wandering
Through hollow lands and hilly lands,
I will find out where she has gone,
And kiss her lips and take her hands;
And walk among long dappled grass,
And pluck till time and times are done
The silver apples of the moon,
The golden apples of the sun.
William Butler Yeats
I went out to the hazel wood,
Because a fire was in my head,
And cut and peeled a hazel wand,
And hooked a berry to a thread;
And when white moths were on the wing,
And moth-like stars were flickering out,
I dropped the berry in a stream
And caught a little silver trout.
When I had laid it on the floor
I went to blow the fire a-flame,
But something rustled on the floor,
And some one called me by my name:
It had become a glimmering girl
With apple blossom in her hair
Who called me by my name and ran
And faded through the brightening air.
Though I am old with wandering
Through hollow lands and hilly lands,
I will find out where she has gone,
And kiss her lips and take her hands;
And walk among long dappled grass,
And pluck till time and times are done
The silver apples of the moon,
The golden apples of the sun.
Tuesday, December 01, 2015
CasinoRoyale
I rewatched Casino Royal.
I did not remember anything from that movie, until I saw a trailer showing the parkour chasing scene. I remembered that I liked it. So I decided to watched it again.
The chasing scene was still the best part of the movie. However, the dialogue was quite good too. But I really need to concentrate on it to get something out of it. Not only because of the accent, I think it's also because they way they speak. They seemed to always skip a step in the conversation. That's how smart people talk. That's how smart the screen writer was . Not a good thing to say, really, kind of reflected on me... lol
The story arch was kind too easy. I mean whenever the movies used secret organization story line, I felt cheated. That reminded me of 孫悟空和金角銀角的故事... Now, that story was funny as hell. But I thought 007 was quite serious, but by using that kind of scenario, and the series kept going on and on. It's just cheap.
As a stand alone movie though, Casino Royal was awesome. I like this actor better. I loved the scene where the agent woke up from the disaster, and was talking to the girl. When girl said something, the agent replied. Immediately, I could see him armored himself up with a smile. The girl pointed it out immediately. Then, the agent truly opened himself up. That was such a true moment. I think everything before was culminating towards that moment. Although the ending was messed up with secret society thing. That scene cannot be reduced by the ending.
I did not remember anything from that movie, until I saw a trailer showing the parkour chasing scene. I remembered that I liked it. So I decided to watched it again.
The chasing scene was still the best part of the movie. However, the dialogue was quite good too. But I really need to concentrate on it to get something out of it. Not only because of the accent, I think it's also because they way they speak. They seemed to always skip a step in the conversation. That's how smart people talk. That's how smart the screen writer was . Not a good thing to say, really, kind of reflected on me... lol
The story arch was kind too easy. I mean whenever the movies used secret organization story line, I felt cheated. That reminded me of 孫悟空和金角銀角的故事... Now, that story was funny as hell. But I thought 007 was quite serious, but by using that kind of scenario, and the series kept going on and on. It's just cheap.
As a stand alone movie though, Casino Royal was awesome. I like this actor better. I loved the scene where the agent woke up from the disaster, and was talking to the girl. When girl said something, the agent replied. Immediately, I could see him armored himself up with a smile. The girl pointed it out immediately. Then, the agent truly opened himself up. That was such a true moment. I think everything before was culminating towards that moment. Although the ending was messed up with secret society thing. That scene cannot be reduced by the ending.
Monday, November 30, 2015
random
You must think that this thing passed. But it did not. I know.
There's nothing to do to boast ourselves. Who's we?
This morning, Mom was very angry at me. For I said she's always said something inconsiderate. The scenario was like this. Mom cooked noodle for breakfast this morning. I filled my bowl myself and added a chicken dish on top of the noodle. She was right besides me when this happened. She asked if I put chicken in my first bowl when I was getting my second bowl of noodle. She quickly concluded herself that I must have not taken the chicken dish the first time. I was annoyed by that saying. For I did, and she was right besides me! So I talked back, how come she said I didn't take the chicken the first time? She needn't saying that at all. The wording was really bad. Further, I added, she's always like this.
She's pissed off immediately. She said: her intention was for me to have a full stomach. She shouldn't say anything at all! She is the most inconsiderate when it came to other people's feeling?! You are a sensitive young man, you think that by saying that I did not trust you...? It's your own problem, if you think that way!
I was upset. Very upset. Why did I use the word, always? I got more upset, because it is partially true that I don't think she trust me. And yet, she won't admit it. When this trust issue, I know I have problem, for I really felt guilty about her situation. I really am. I know at least half of the fault was mine. I mean, she being unhappy and all. But of course, this is a problem I need to deal with. For she is a simpler human being than me. She can let things go. Or on the surface.
But there are other things. I felt that she's right besides me when I took the chicken the first time. How could she forget about that??? I felt ignored. Of course, it probably is normal on her part. She might not really see the action. She could be distracted. Or she simply just blurted out something. Ok, that last one was my imagination again.
I just wish I could shut my mouth and smile and nod, and eat my noodle. Thanks her for the such a wonderful meal. Now, I felt I am a little sarcastic. What about my feeling? MY feeling is my own problem. I need to learn how to deal with it. I will need to learn let it go. I will learn how to speak correctly, rather than just blurt out anything. This was all my fault. Just think about it, as long as I kept my mouth shut and compliment on her, she'd be happy. Or at least not pissed.
This must be my pride. My pride, which I do not see how could I have any pride?! I don't have time to thank enough, but pride?
Now I am angry and tired. What about my feeling? Apologize! Apologize to you mother!!!!!!! She's always right. She's always right.
NO, I don't want to just shut my fucking mouth! I don't want to be uncle! I want to say my piece. I still felt ignored. But of course, mom have the right to ignore me. She can bring me to this life, she can also ignore me. IT is I who needs to find an audience.
I know I am angry still. I know she's still angry. No, this is only in my mind.
There's nothing to do to boast ourselves. Who's we?
This morning, Mom was very angry at me. For I said she's always said something inconsiderate. The scenario was like this. Mom cooked noodle for breakfast this morning. I filled my bowl myself and added a chicken dish on top of the noodle. She was right besides me when this happened. She asked if I put chicken in my first bowl when I was getting my second bowl of noodle. She quickly concluded herself that I must have not taken the chicken dish the first time. I was annoyed by that saying. For I did, and she was right besides me! So I talked back, how come she said I didn't take the chicken the first time? She needn't saying that at all. The wording was really bad. Further, I added, she's always like this.
She's pissed off immediately. She said: her intention was for me to have a full stomach. She shouldn't say anything at all! She is the most inconsiderate when it came to other people's feeling?! You are a sensitive young man, you think that by saying that I did not trust you...? It's your own problem, if you think that way!
I was upset. Very upset. Why did I use the word, always? I got more upset, because it is partially true that I don't think she trust me. And yet, she won't admit it. When this trust issue, I know I have problem, for I really felt guilty about her situation. I really am. I know at least half of the fault was mine. I mean, she being unhappy and all. But of course, this is a problem I need to deal with. For she is a simpler human being than me. She can let things go. Or on the surface.
But there are other things. I felt that she's right besides me when I took the chicken the first time. How could she forget about that??? I felt ignored. Of course, it probably is normal on her part. She might not really see the action. She could be distracted. Or she simply just blurted out something. Ok, that last one was my imagination again.
I just wish I could shut my mouth and smile and nod, and eat my noodle. Thanks her for the such a wonderful meal. Now, I felt I am a little sarcastic. What about my feeling? MY feeling is my own problem. I need to learn how to deal with it. I will need to learn let it go. I will learn how to speak correctly, rather than just blurt out anything. This was all my fault. Just think about it, as long as I kept my mouth shut and compliment on her, she'd be happy. Or at least not pissed.
This must be my pride. My pride, which I do not see how could I have any pride?! I don't have time to thank enough, but pride?
Now I am angry and tired. What about my feeling? Apologize! Apologize to you mother!!!!!!! She's always right. She's always right.
NO, I don't want to just shut my fucking mouth! I don't want to be uncle! I want to say my piece. I still felt ignored. But of course, mom have the right to ignore me. She can bring me to this life, she can also ignore me. IT is I who needs to find an audience.
I know I am angry still. I know she's still angry. No, this is only in my mind.
Sunday, November 29, 2015
insist
the problem is not new.
always forget about what i want.
not just forget, most of time, confused as well.
we need to judge. but judgement did not favor
that moment's passion.
fail seemed inevitable.
sometimes slow is the problem
sometimes no decision was made at all.
but the other half of the time, forgetful
is the problem, really.
how to not forget the good one
i have to judge, no?
to judge, it takes time, no?
so many options, how to choose?
sweat is beading on my nose.
i wish it's an 8 ball.
just give me the choice
i need to make once and for all.
oh, wait, what was on my mind
after all....
always forget about what i want.
not just forget, most of time, confused as well.
we need to judge. but judgement did not favor
that moment's passion.
fail seemed inevitable.
sometimes slow is the problem
sometimes no decision was made at all.
but the other half of the time, forgetful
is the problem, really.
how to not forget the good one
i have to judge, no?
to judge, it takes time, no?
so many options, how to choose?
sweat is beading on my nose.
i wish it's an 8 ball.
just give me the choice
i need to make once and for all.
oh, wait, what was on my mind
after all....
Saturday, November 28, 2015
park and world
I watched Jurassic World a couple weeks ago. I enjoyed quite a bit. I like Chris Pratt, he's naturally funny. The other actor who has similar charisma is Nathan Fillion. I liked the final fight in the movie as well. While watching it, I kept thinking that I liked the first one better though. I wondered why.
I watched the first one again last night. I like the first one better. I think the first one was simpler in terms of scale and complexity. The dino in the park was more animal like. They were more raw. I was simply awed, even for raptors. But in the world, I felt a sense of guidance, an artificial intention. The link between Pratt's character and raptor was a source of emotion, I felt moved, especially towards the end. But it also create something more domesticated. It's probably not avoidable since raptors has been in contact with human for so long. The new Dino was not a dino anymore. It's a monster. In the park, SS, the director wanted to bring audience to see real dinos as real animals, he did not want to show Godzilla or King Kong. But it's kind reversed in the World. Human created a monster instead of dino. Thus, huge chasm between the Park and the World.
It could also be viewed as a hero movie. To me, personally, a story of how a man becomes a hero seemed always more interesting than a story about a Hero who was already a Hero, or even a fall of a Hero. The rise of a hero brought hope and unknown future. That future was exciting. I guess the park has the same effect. The World is not. But it brought great nostalgia when the T-rex went on the roof and claimed his throne. The world is a still very good story nonetheless.
It's interesting to note that in the Park, I saw some local life. But in the World, Dino was the main focus. The other thing to be noted was that Carnivore battle is really the meat of the World. It's also differed from the Park. Of course, any huge dino fight was exciting, especially this well done, but still a huge piece of artificial direction. I kept mentioning about Artificial intention, I think it's unfair. I can' shake it off though. It is clear that every frame was created by a human intention. Its purpose is to hit audience, hoping they would resonant. But, if I could feel that guidance, that means I, as an audience was not in the moment, instead, I was outside, looking in, and I could even see the hands controlling those puppet.
I could even link this feeling with "the Tiger: a true story of Vengeance and Survival". I still couldn't really express my awe from that book. But the impression from the Park and the World did stir something in me that reminded of that book.
I watched the first one again last night. I like the first one better. I think the first one was simpler in terms of scale and complexity. The dino in the park was more animal like. They were more raw. I was simply awed, even for raptors. But in the world, I felt a sense of guidance, an artificial intention. The link between Pratt's character and raptor was a source of emotion, I felt moved, especially towards the end. But it also create something more domesticated. It's probably not avoidable since raptors has been in contact with human for so long. The new Dino was not a dino anymore. It's a monster. In the park, SS, the director wanted to bring audience to see real dinos as real animals, he did not want to show Godzilla or King Kong. But it's kind reversed in the World. Human created a monster instead of dino. Thus, huge chasm between the Park and the World.
It could also be viewed as a hero movie. To me, personally, a story of how a man becomes a hero seemed always more interesting than a story about a Hero who was already a Hero, or even a fall of a Hero. The rise of a hero brought hope and unknown future. That future was exciting. I guess the park has the same effect. The World is not. But it brought great nostalgia when the T-rex went on the roof and claimed his throne. The world is a still very good story nonetheless.
It's interesting to note that in the Park, I saw some local life. But in the World, Dino was the main focus. The other thing to be noted was that Carnivore battle is really the meat of the World. It's also differed from the Park. Of course, any huge dino fight was exciting, especially this well done, but still a huge piece of artificial direction. I kept mentioning about Artificial intention, I think it's unfair. I can' shake it off though. It is clear that every frame was created by a human intention. Its purpose is to hit audience, hoping they would resonant. But, if I could feel that guidance, that means I, as an audience was not in the moment, instead, I was outside, looking in, and I could even see the hands controlling those puppet.
I could even link this feeling with "the Tiger: a true story of Vengeance and Survival". I still couldn't really express my awe from that book. But the impression from the Park and the World did stir something in me that reminded of that book.
Saturday, November 21, 2015
看出事情的真相
我常常覺得, 我看事情都是看事情的真相. 時間一久, 卻感覺愈來愈憤世忌俗. 期實自己哪裡能看到事情的真相呢? 大多都是把這一事和另一事, 或者這一人和那一人比比, 量量, 然後歸納出一個表格. 把以後看到的人事物, 通通往那個表格一放, 就說, 真相就是這樣.
真相嘛,那還不簡單, 每個人都穿衣服, 那不是真相. 把衣服脫了吧. 每個人都有五官四肢, 那不是真相, 把皮相去掉, 剩下的白骨, 那總是真相了吧?!
可憐的人, 自己的歷練有多少? 所經歷的人事物有多少? 不應該那麼早就把評斷是非的標準畫在白紙黑字上... 只要消化在心裡, 然後忘掉吧. 要讓心靈長大, 那張紙, 撕了吧...
真相嘛,那還不簡單, 每個人都穿衣服, 那不是真相. 把衣服脫了吧. 每個人都有五官四肢, 那不是真相, 把皮相去掉, 剩下的白骨, 那總是真相了吧?!
可憐的人, 自己的歷練有多少? 所經歷的人事物有多少? 不應該那麼早就把評斷是非的標準畫在白紙黑字上... 只要消化在心裡, 然後忘掉吧. 要讓心靈長大, 那張紙, 撕了吧...
unmovalbe object
Do you ever wonder, wondering how were you falling into sleep? I did. I wondered about it a lot. I wondered what was I doing right before sleep happened. I wonder if I was imagining something. For it seemed that I could fall into sleep quite easily, if I cooked up a story first. But I always wondered, how come I never really dreamed of those stories. In fact, I never really remembered my dream during my sleep. But right after I opened my eyes, the imagination I cooked up before I sleep, I could still remembered them.
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What's the point of the above paragraph? What is the theme that I want to explore? I feel I lost the topics. I usually went blank if I wanted to start something. I thought if I scrambled on, I could find it. For one moment, I know it was there. But then, I could not stop scrambling. Or, I thought if was on the train of thoughts then. So if I kept scrambling, it would appear automatically. No. It's not the case. How sad...
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What's the point of the above paragraph? What is the theme that I want to explore? I feel I lost the topics. I usually went blank if I wanted to start something. I thought if I scrambled on, I could find it. For one moment, I know it was there. But then, I could not stop scrambling. Or, I thought if was on the train of thoughts then. So if I kept scrambling, it would appear automatically. No. It's not the case. How sad...
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Sunday, November 15, 2015
Fall came
I went to Texas last week, from Tues to Fri. It's a very short trip. We went to my aunt's new home, which is really middle of nowhere. We went to Houston and Austin, both 5 hour round trip. But it is unique. The ranch was big, and there are cows free ranging 6 feet off our front door. I was hoping to pet a cow. But they were extremely shy. It was a curious sight when all of sudden, all cow raised their head to look at you. You know it's true that they noticed you although I don't want to anthropomorphize the cow. At that moment, it felt funny like I was being discovered by a group people I was trying to sneak around. I was wearing red the first day so I was also wonder if they'd charge because of that. lol That range is beautiful. It has at least 2 ponds, a wooded area, the landscape was interesting enough. But it needs a lot of work. I wonder if my aunt and her husband could really handle it.
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Like I said that place was far from big city. We went to Austin to meet my cousin, that was a 5 hour trip, wait, cross that, with some stops along the way, it was a whole day trip. And we only meet my cousin for a 40 minutes Ramen... The soup itself was decent enough, but portion was small...
Then on Thursday, we went to Wendy's house in Houston for dinner. It was only a meal, not even a tea time. Then, whew, we were leaving. PQ driving home this time. It was really dark the closer we get to the destination. To me, it's amazing to drive 5 hours round trip just to have a meal. But my gosh, when I looked back it was like a dream. Short, weird, but vivid. It was in a hurry, many details were missing. It felt awkward. That awkward may make the trip memorable? lol
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On the last night in Texas, I had a dream. I dreamt of CJ dressed in a black dress, with a bit shoulders showing. She walked to my left side, then maybe we exchanged a few words. I thought she was going to sit by my side. But no, she sat on my left thigh. I could not help but exploded to hug her, put my head on her shoulder. Then I was pulled from it, in a state of shock.
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We went to rock climbing on 10-18-2015 morning with george, george's wife, CJ, CJ's brother. I was surprised that all of us could accomplishing a lot for that day. I thought george was doing great, so was his wife, tian zhou yiao. CJ's brother did not surprise me. I already knew her will, but I was surprised at CJ's ability to climb. CJ's brother seemed really interested, he even asked the staff there about the transportation. It surprised me that the rcok gym provide service to pick people up at subway station!
After two and half hours of climbing, we went to Brooklyn to eat. On the way back, I missed a turn, then I have to pay the toll booth... :p
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Like I said that place was far from big city. We went to Austin to meet my cousin, that was a 5 hour trip, wait, cross that, with some stops along the way, it was a whole day trip. And we only meet my cousin for a 40 minutes Ramen... The soup itself was decent enough, but portion was small...
Then on Thursday, we went to Wendy's house in Houston for dinner. It was only a meal, not even a tea time. Then, whew, we were leaving. PQ driving home this time. It was really dark the closer we get to the destination. To me, it's amazing to drive 5 hours round trip just to have a meal. But my gosh, when I looked back it was like a dream. Short, weird, but vivid. It was in a hurry, many details were missing. It felt awkward. That awkward may make the trip memorable? lol
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On the last night in Texas, I had a dream. I dreamt of CJ dressed in a black dress, with a bit shoulders showing. She walked to my left side, then maybe we exchanged a few words. I thought she was going to sit by my side. But no, she sat on my left thigh. I could not help but exploded to hug her, put my head on her shoulder. Then I was pulled from it, in a state of shock.
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We went to rock climbing on 10-18-2015 morning with george, george's wife, CJ, CJ's brother. I was surprised that all of us could accomplishing a lot for that day. I thought george was doing great, so was his wife, tian zhou yiao. CJ's brother did not surprise me. I already knew her will, but I was surprised at CJ's ability to climb. CJ's brother seemed really interested, he even asked the staff there about the transportation. It surprised me that the rcok gym provide service to pick people up at subway station!
After two and half hours of climbing, we went to Brooklyn to eat. On the way back, I missed a turn, then I have to pay the toll booth... :p
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Saturday, October 24, 2015
movies, pictures, expression
Since life of pi, the movie, I was stunned by the graphical power of movie. I never felt such incredible visual feat other than disney's anime and 宮崎駿 的 cartoons. I watched another movie, mad max fury road, that gave me the same impression this year. The difference is that life of pi used a lot of CGI, Mad max the fury road did not. In face, it's a total contrast, the campaign boasted that instead of CGI, they used traditional, real physical stunts! It was truly fast and furious. The third movie gave me the same feeling was the secret life of walter mitty. It used some CGI to create imaginary sequences in the early stage. But it did not abandon the real physical beauty of the surroundings. As the story progressed, the real world took the front role. It eventually bring the audience to see majestic scenery.
However, I find one thing very interesting. The story arch of these three movies are extremely simple. The dialogue used in the movies is elegant maybe, but simple as well. The mad max fury road brought the dialogue down on the dirt surface. Life of pi used exclamation and monologue most of the time. The secret life of walter mitty was consisted of awkward silence and awkward conversation. This is interesting. Because I would usually consider dialogue as king in movies. That's what drives movie in terms of story, character, and mood usually. But here, pictures delivered impact beyond words.
However, I find one thing very interesting. The story arch of these three movies are extremely simple. The dialogue used in the movies is elegant maybe, but simple as well. The mad max fury road brought the dialogue down on the dirt surface. Life of pi used exclamation and monologue most of the time. The secret life of walter mitty was consisted of awkward silence and awkward conversation. This is interesting. Because I would usually consider dialogue as king in movies. That's what drives movie in terms of story, character, and mood usually. But here, pictures delivered impact beyond words.
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