Sunday, April 05, 2015

movies in hindsight

the rover

it was a very good movie.  it kept reminding me of mad max.  I guess it was s version of mad max in more realistic light.  But the rover was a much more complete experience.  The story spun out of the two main characters was really cool.  the background with vast wilderness was both exhilarating and empty somehow. 

The acting in the film was top notch.  It was a really good movie. 

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Two brothers

It's a tiger's tale.  It was amazing to see those tiger actors act.  I was really fascinated by them.  The story and other actors were enough to hold the film, but it is the animals that hold the attention.

I stumbled this movie because the French director filmed another animal movie with wolf in China.  Two brothers were really not bad.

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the raid 2

It was a better film than the first one.    It cranked up everything that was awesome in the first one to another level.  The last fight was truly amazing! 


Saturday, April 04, 2015

impressing movies

revenge of the dragon  greeene

It was a pretty ordinary movie.  Ordinary in the sense that it is a very much what I expected what it should be, a gangster movie, where a group of young people doing gang things...  fighting, drugging, sex...  The movie did success on making the protagonist more  human. I was unhappy with rape scene towards the end.  It was horrible.  The twist at the ending was also a big let down.  For it really reminded me of wu jian dao...   The movie was based on real events, so the rape probably was unavoidable.  but the ending was superfluous.
It was interesting to watch this movie purely just because the  background was not about AA or italian, there were something uniquely asian. 


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lucy

The bad guys in the movie could already be dealt with.  And yet, they stayed, and tried to act as something that could matter the outcome...  Johansson's performance was tight, so was the taipei sequence.  The ending was not really well thought out.  It was an barely okay movie, simply because only the half was decent, the ending was spoiled, and bad guys were stupid.

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the drop

It was a really good movie.  I don't remember tomhady much besides bane, but he did not showed his face, so I would count much into that.  So this is the movie I truly learned who tomhardy is, an amazing actor.  The story was really good as well.  As I looked back now, there were few subtle setups to tie the film from the beginning.  That was cool.  The movie was also surrounded with very strong actors, including noomirapace, and jamesgandolfini.  the conversation between tomhardy and jamesgandolfini towards the end was awesome, the subtle change of tomhardy in the major showdown was so creepy and yet powerful.  i can't say enough how much fun it was. 

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rudderless

it's an okay movie.  the performace of billycrudrup was as always excellent.  but i was as touched by the music.  the story was however, worth knowing.

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the judge

a friend of mine compared this movie the August: Osage County.  I think it was because both movies had weird parents.  my friend think the judge was better.  But to me, it's different.  the judge was however warmer in many ways.  the mother in august was not at all!

I felt the judge was a movie with too many complicated story lines, and could not really settle on one of the story lines.  The grand daughter scenes did not seemed necessary at all.  The only purpose it served was so the audience won't be too disgusted by the old man.

The court room drama could also be tweaked and concentrated, but it was my personal preference.

The relationship between father and son was not bad in the movie at all. I liked it very much.  Both actors were equally capable to bring strong and complicated emotion out which was why the movie was decent.

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nightcrawler

a very scary movie.  some scary movies use ghost, killers, spirit, myth, monster, weird dude.  This one used a weird dude.  The acting was incredible, not just the main actor, but all the supporting actors.    This is one scary movie. 

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beyond the lights

it's an okay movie.  some of the scenes were pretty good.  I like the scene in mexico where the female protagonist sang. 






 

Monday, March 02, 2015

movie impression

mad max series:

I felt that i must be desensitized throughout these years.  for I felt that this series was not that bloody.  Some of them were savagery, yes, but the violent act was done very differently than nowadays.  They were not more reserved, but more realistic.  What I meant to say was that watching a staged fight would be more glorious, but a real street fight, that would be slow and sluggish.  I consider this is what happened here. 

It created an otherly world place quite successfully.   I almost felt like a child's dream being realized.  I do not know why.  I guess bad people being bad, good people looked good as well.  It's all on the surface.  It's not shallow though.  As the series went on, the movie got further away from the reality.  The last installment of the series was so weird compared to the other movies!  It really is a children's story disguised in wild and rugged appearances! 

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jon wik

I had high anticipation for this one.  I thought it was a good action flick.  Some of the scenes in the movie were really slick, especially the gun play. 

But I felt the ending was weak which felt a bit dragged.  The movie created a mysterious world of assassins successfully.  But jon as a character was eventually weak in many ways.  I don't like him much.  And this mysterious world of assassin somehow weakened joh even futher.  because now it took the tension of him being hunted. 

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the raid redemption

I kept find ways to delay watching this movie.  I felt it's just going to be a movie of bunch of actions sequence without much meaning.  But it was alright.  The plot line was of course, still thin.  The movie itself was not weakened by it though.  It's enough to sustain the whole movie, since some of the action sequences were really good! 

This movie reminded  me the dredd movie.  But that's beside the point.  I felt I haven't seen such great action scenes since HK movies long ago.  And with the modern technology, it felt even better. 

It's not to say that all the action were good.  I felt the last fight was boring.  It's really disappointing to end the movie this way.  It dragged too long, and most of the movements in that scene became moo points.  Let me put this way, it's like god of war, with all the flashy light, and bone cracking sound, but nothing really happened.

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the homesman

I thought the title was the horseman...  My goodness, I realized the title after I finished the movie...  lol

It was a very solid movie.  I liked it quite a bit.  The performance was really good.  Tomli Jones sure can act in many ways.  And HilarySwank was beautiful in the movie.  One of the best shocking twist I've seen in a movie for a long time.

It's 2nd movie for Tomly Jones.  This one has a similar air, an atmosphere, which it seemed that only He can give.  And I think western was a great place for that air to appear, since they kind of both forgotten somehow.

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Monday, January 19, 2015

some thoughts

review on brick the film

I liked the film the first time.  I do not know why.  so I watched it the second time yesterday.  i still don't know the reason.  I find it comical throughout, since the content is usually performed by older guys in societal setting.  It was all performed by high school students...  it's kind ridiculous.  But at the same time, the characters were interesting, the plot engaging, and the performance was really good.  The mystery was kind lost in the middle, for i already watched it before.  But the atmosphere surrounds the circumstance was still thrilling. 

One thing though.  The words spoken here, was kind hard to follow.  They were so fast, and many might be slang, that I needed to rewind a few times just to read the captions. 

I still could not find out the reason why I liked it.

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a coffee in berlin

i did not care too much about the film.  it's a day in berlin, the young protagonist could find a coffee through out the day.  It's a sad day for him, maybe.  Or maybe his day was like this for quite a while now.  I'd compare this film to nebraska.  but it did not give me a wonder at the end like nebraska.  I could not get something out of it without that last note. 


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Am I looking for something superior in my writing?  No, not really.  But it is true that whenever I want to write something I'd call real, I'd stop writing.  There is hesitation, which is enough for me to stop all the thoughts and words.  Sometimes I felt childish.  Sometimes I felt embarrassed, even no one is reading it.  My dad used to say he'll do what he liked to do, rather than following other people's path.  I don't know why that sentence cut into my thought.  But there's another thing that came in my mind as well.  I chose to write down my father's words, but no my mom's.  I asked my mom once, not once, but many times.  why did she not write down something about the past.  She replied, why?  The past is past.  I felt that she voiced many complaints about the past.  She could not put those things into words simply.  There must be good, there must be  bad.  The words is hard to do justice to those things.  When my mom complained past, my uncle would always argue her point.  It was weird to see these two argue about the same objective thing. 

If I felt something injured me, I'd cry afoul.  If I want something, my mind went blank.  Like it's something to be embarrassed about.  I felt disgusted at something, or someone, What if I felt disgusted about my dislike at earlier moment?  Man, that's too  bad.  I felt that way, feeling can't be changed.  no?  Or maybe we could hide it?  Yes, hide it.  What if I confront it?  What kind of standard should I use to judge it?   Should I consider all the subjective and objective, inside and outside influence?  Or am I to make that call? 

I want.  Such indecisive phrase. 

Saturday, January 17, 2015

我的影評

剛剛看完 bride and prejudice. 我滿失望的.  看過不少傲慢與偏見的影片.  這部在劇情上並沒有太多的驚奇.  早已知道會有跳舞唱歌的場面, 這些過場也無讓我感覺很突出.  我感覺劇組很想拍出印度風味.  但是, 不知怎的, 我卻覺得這是我看過西化的印度電影. 

我覺得原著裡, 描寫了很多特別的人物.  這部電影裡, 似乎無法盡原著的原汁原味來做同樣的人物描寫.  特別是反面的 Wickham, 而做為丑角的 mr. kohli 又太過著墨.  我覺得 mr. kohli 還算了, 因為和其他影視相比, 還不失原著的味道.  但是, 一旦反角失去力道, 正面的 Darcy 也同時失去魅力. 

這是我第一次看 ashwarya 演戲.  他還滿稱職的.  聰明, 可愛, 性格突出.  大部分的影視也都照這個模式演.  但是我還是喜歡 BJD 裡的角色.  這是一個 使這電影 make it or break it 的最重要元素.  BJD 之所以令我喜歡還有一個 "憨"的原因.  太聰明使的這角色, 太剛硬.  因為這女孩性格之強, 又聰明, 又漂亮...  已經使人產生崇高的畏懼感.  還需要一個憨才能拉近觀眾的距離.  但是, 這和 Ashwarya 無關.  這是劇組的問題.

還有, 我看的電影對白都是英文.  讓我有點不適應.  之前看的我都堅持聽原文看英文字幕.  這部電影讓我感覺看到上層的印度菁英.  或許這也是所有其他文化也有的現象.  就是, 其他文化的菁英都開始大量用英文吧. 

Sunday, January 11, 2015

海克力斯和其他

just saw hercules with the rock.  this movie was quite entertaining.  I mean it did not pretend to be serious.  And I know exactly what i was getting.  The created an wonderful experience for viewing this movie. 

The movie surrounds the rock with all the role actors.  And it pushed those role  actors to their full capability.  especially worthy of mentioning was ian mcshane.  He not only delivered one of the most hilarious line in the movie, he also accommodated one of my favorite scenes in all my years of watching movies!

the rock was perfect for this job.  By watching the trailer, I thought his voice was a big weak, not manly enough.  But I was wrong.  During the most intense scene, the rock crying out his own name was really not bad.  And with his physique, the look, he's an awesome hercules. 

many of these kind movies using real history as background, but eventually, I felt they were all like Conan the Barbarian!  All telling a story from far far away, long long ago.  It was fun.  The history really doesn't matter.

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brick mansion:

another movie, but besides the opening sequence, there's nothing to see.  Nothing.  very sad.  The source material was not good to begin with.  It's a waste of talents when there's no story at all...  just pathetic.  

Friday, January 02, 2015

今年工作經驗

在麥斯康已經工作兩年半. 去年是正式員工一年, 前兩年是非正式兩年. 去年這一年事情非常之多. 並不是說倉庫本身的事情很多,而是其中人事和與其相關的事情不少. 

在麥之前我做了三年 ups 聖誕期間的司機助手.  這讓我稍稍對裝箱送貨的流程有點認識.  去年前的兩三個月, 我開始在倉庫作.  那時候, 麥的倉庫主要的人手走了.  我和馬力歐算是全職倉庫.  維克是半職.  Aaron (張玉) 兼職倉庫經理.  那時我剛進去, Alex 跟我說, 那時候最重要的事情是 恩(enidine) 出貨不能有錯, 至少要減到最低錯誤的程度.  為了這個目標, Aaron 決定整頓恩貨物的排列, 並且用力的把倉庫大力整頓, 該丟的丟, 該收拾的收拾.  於是, 恩區的空間增大許多, 貨物的排放更集中, 出貨下架和收貨歸架也更為經濟.  另外, 還有許多倉庫的工作流程系統化, 也就是說, 使的許多步驟裡, 出貨和收貨時有更多的憑據, 加責於經手人.  另如, 收貨時的電郵格式, 出貨時, 在盒子上的標籤格式.  也都出自 Aaron 的設計.  在幾個月的調整和適應下, 這些流程逐漸成形, 到現在成為部門之間很重要的溝通橋樑.   六月份, 新的倉庫經理上任.  一切步驟沿用 Aaron 的設計.  新的經理, 把一些貨物直接請港口的貨運公司直接堆在木墊上.  省了倉庫很多很多力.  幾個月後, Alex 兼任倉庫經理直到現在. 

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本來是我和馬全職, 維克半職.  四月份的時候, 馬離職, 維克成為全職.  馬的離職應該可以避免的.  事情是馬在外找到某鎮上的公職, 但是, 藥品測試還沒正式拿到, 其他面試已經過關.  馬以為一定過, 於是他對於張就開始有散漫的態度.  本來這幾個月來, 他倆一直有摩擦, 這下子, 更緊張起來.  我這個人有毛病, 無論是同學還是同事, 還是親人, 有人爭執, 我就受不了.  就在他準備離職的四天前一個下午, 馬竟然接到通知說他的測試不過.  他整個人都不大對勁了.  我一看, 生怕張會惹他不高興, 我看到張, 偷偷說了情況, 希望他下午不要太和馬紀較.  也告訴他不要和任何人提起這件事.  工程部門的人和馬早有意見.  我這樣做實在是太天真.  第二天, 馬就問我, 我是否和誰提起測試過?  我馬上否認, 他說他做總經理的乾媽和他說, 少東和他提起這件事!   Alex 後來還把我找去, 和張跟我說明這件事.  因為那一天我很不高興張和Alex (工頭) 說.  那個星期的星期五, 老闆娘給馬一封辭職信.  於是馬就走了.  這對我是很好教訓.  在人事上我太天真.  馬是太年輕, 他有百般不對, 老闆娘也應該不會這樣在得知他工作沒有的情況下讓他走人.  畢竟他也在這公司陸陸續續做了七年(他今年廿歲).  如此的絕情, 實是因為聽到他有藥品的問題.  而且, 這事還要少東和總經理提起, 總經理在這一著上已經輸給工頭.  並不是我真的很喜歡和馬同工.  但此事上我難辭其咎. 

維克在全職前, 我跟他不很熟悉.  在全職之後, 我還滿喜歡這個人的.  很有頭腦的一個人.  尤其是在工作上, 在人事上他也老練.  他其實是倉庫的工友.  現在任全職後, 他把整個倉庫翻了一翻, 從今年暑假開始, 我們拆了一個房間, 也就是清出一個空地可以放更多架子.  ATW 警報器得到整個徹地的翻新排列.  最近兩三個月更大肆把恩的貨物整個挪出, 準備要排在更多的新架上.  他非常仔細徹底.  而且, 因為手藝很好, 他常常能夠化腐朽為神奇.  相對於馬, 他好相處多了.  他很喜歡車子, 還主動把我的車子生鏽的地方上了漆.  另外, 承他照顧, 我在恩的發貨上出過錯誤, 他和 Anne 都幫我掩蓋過去.  而且在如何堆放貨物, 如何開起重機, 他都指導我多次.  跟他合作事很愉快的經驗. 



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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

movie impression

enterstelar:

I have no idea about the movie.  But I was not impressed by nolan's batman series and inception.  Because, his batman was not shining.  The character did not stand out, even a little bit cliche.  Inception, i thought was too complicated for it's own good.  the performance of the actors in there did not impress me as well.  While I was indecisive, I found that almost everyone went and watched the movie at Hu Yin Ah Yi's thanksgiving party. I also found out that Nolan made prestige, that one pushed me. 

Before I go, I had some vague idea what this movie was about.  I thought it would be a lot of space travel, and a lot of grandeur to beheld.  I thought plot would be minimal.  It proved to have some truth in there.  However, even so, there were quite few twists in the plot, enough to hold me for all 2 and 50 minutes without turning my eyes.  It was a sign of great movie already.  The CGI pictures was good enough to give me a sense of wonder, except in the end.  However, one of the most impressed thing were really the performance from each actors, and director's pacing.  MM was the one threading the main plot line.  It was really captivating.  He never lost sight of his purpose, as a father, as a pilot.  All the other actors, ah, jc, , mc, ca, all done the same as well.  Usually, for the big name actors like this bunch, I'd think that they gave us some old vibe from their previous movie, but not here.  Each grasped their character well.  I consider this to be part of director's success as well.  For he not only has to cast well, he only has to put them in a believable situation for each actors to sip into their characters without much of cliche. 

I am not a movie tech guy so I don't normally talk about technical jargans.  But when I was reading other people's reviews, one of them mentioned something about the pacing.  I thought it was really a good point.  For I sat there for almost 3 hours, I don't feel my butt at all.  There were many twists, but they were placed in right spots with good timing.  I think that's want pacing meant.  My butt will be the testament. 

But the movie was not without flaws.  It was towards the end.  It kept bothering me that towards the end, the fifth dimension was an easy way to link with the movie together.  I understand the concept, but I can't get the cheapness out of my mind.  The other thing was that after MM's daughter told him to go, he immediately left without too much emotion expressed.  That gave me a feeling of hollow.  I refer this moment to the Captain America, when he came back from the crash.  CA could not really let go the past and I felt he kept sulking on it.  But here, it's the total opposite, there's nothing to be sulked about.  The haste departure even made me felt a bit scare.  Granted, the only who can share the feeling was ah's character in the other planet.  And it is true that MM's character really lost all the connection with his daughter, and her relatives.  The hollow emptiness left from that departure was almost unbearable to me personally.  I just felt somehow there's an emotional void, sucked in all the rest of the previous effort.  The rest thing to do then was really like the message from the movie, look forward, don't look back? 

It was really a very good movie.  I really quite like it. 
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Into the wuds"

I watched that movie last Thursday with my sis and brother in law.  Or maybe it's a Friday.  Yeah, it's a Friday. 

I saw the trailer of this movie, I said it's interesting.  But my butts hurt while I was watching the movie.  It's actually was a comic alternative soup of many fairy tale.  It was a stage musical before.  There're some funny scenes, but I consider it sub par.  the music score did not really impress me somehow.   However, I do find that MS could really sing.  I don't remember seeing her sang before.  There's one music score that's extremely hilarious.  But beside these two things, nothing really stands out.  I felt shrek was way better overall. 

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SweeneyTodd>

I watched it at last.  Not particularly fond of it.  Not my cup of tea.  Jp can sing though.  the first attempt to kill the judge, the song there was marvelously done.  just marvelous.

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True detective,

it's not a movie.  But it might as well be.  hbo series with heavy narration and brilliant performance from MM and WH were incredible duo.  the ending was a bit weak.  but the 3/4 of heavy narration was just awesome.  

Friday, December 19, 2014

bed late

it's late now.  I woke up this morning at 3.  I am tired.  Yet, I felt hard to go to bed.  For I felt the day is not yet finished.  I wish I could go to bed with an exalted thought. 

Work has been hard lately.  For the past two days, company wanted to push most of the gun parts out before the end of the year.  We had wrapped 48 of those skids, all by hands.  That's not counting the other company's skids.  A week before, we started to raise new racks in the expanded area for warehouse.  My coworker is the main guy, but it's still hard for me as a helper. 

I came home feeling lonely.  My mom is here, welcoming me with kind words food.  But I seemed to want more.  Something I felt empty inside.  It might be holiday depression, it usually happens. 

I wish I could play well in baseball in warehouse.  But I could not hit the ball somehow.  On the other hand, all the other people can hit the ball quite well.  I hate it, especially when michele is around.  It's a dilemma, really.  For only she wants to play baseball as bad as I do. 

Even now, I felt restless.  Something is unfinished.  And yet, go to bed I must.  I am tired. 

Saturday, November 29, 2014

good recipe

carnita, from food wishes, chef john

port butt, cubed, or just small 2 inch pieces. 

kosher salt, black pepper, cinnamon, cumin, orange peels, orange juices, orange pieces, bay  leaves

garlic cloves, peeled, and unpeeled. 

mixed all well,

put heavy duty aluminum foil. 

275F 3 hours. 

after that, drain the juices.

put the pork back to the pan, and start to broil, until hardened, even charred a little, on top of the pork. 

during broil, try to pour some meat juice on the pork! 

great for tacos.  or anything else! 

Friday, November 14, 2014

fish soup

i made a fish soup today.  it tasted pretty good.  here's the recipe:

chicken stock, already prepared by my mom. 
tomatoes, cooked already a week or two ago, by my mom.  just cooked a bunch in oil with medium heat, until most of the juice came out. 
Hot pepper sauce, prepared by my mom.

Yellow onion, sauted in low heat.  I'd prefer to cook longer, but it turned out good. 
Garlic, crushed, chopped, added to sauted onion. 
Celery, a stalk chopped fine, added with one wedged carrot into onion and garlic. 
added, 龍利魚.
added tomatoes, stock, chinese cooking rice wine, miso, hot pepper sauce.
then, added 豆腐, 或著油豆腐. 

simmer for 20 minutes. 

no salt or pepper required. 

Saturday, November 01, 2014

a series of thought

4 months ago, the company i worked for hired a guy to overlook the logistic and warehouse, his name was jake.  he was let go after 4 months.  he's 8 years my junior, but he did have a demeanor of professionalism that i lack.  lacked very much.  after four months, i felt he could relax with the warehouse crew a bit more than the office people, plus the engineers.  But about 1 month ago, he came in and said that it's a pleasure working with us...  then put his hand out trying to shake vic's hand.  vic thought he was joking at first, put the hand out and pulled back immediately.  But instantly realized jake was not joking!  jake shook both vic and my hands, and left.  his excuse for being let go was, "it's not a good fit."  to me, it's a very professional response, it did not demean the company, nor himself.  I wrote about him, because he really know how to handle situation professionally.  But at the end of 3 months, he knew he could came in warehouse, do a bit of skateboarding on the rolling board for moving heavy objects, he came in and heard me play reggae music, and he would talked about that genre was his favorite in his younger day...etc.  it's also funny that when he found out the range of music i hear, he said to me, "most people often say they listen to all kinds of music, but i know you really do..." :D 

the whole let go thing was shocking.  the company let 2 people go that day.  then, a week or two, they let one of the newly hired sales person go as well.  when jake was here, i felt that warehouse had somebody that could fight for us, but now jake left, the head of the engineer took over warehouse management.  it's an instant feeling that we were alone, belong to nothing.  Warehouse is such a integral part of the the company, it's not good to be left hanging. 

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i watched a series of movies recently,

taxi driver, i saw it once before, could not understand why it's so big.  i think i liked it better, maybe if i saw it again, it'd be better.

captain america winter soldier: it's good.  it's a fun flick for mindless enjoyment. 

abraham lincoln: vampire hunter, it's also pretty good, also a mindless enjoyment.  interesting enough that it used so many of lincoln's original writings. 

let me in, i saw the original swedish version.  i like that one better.  this one was really close to the original version.  but the tone is very different.  the swedish version is clean and calm.  this one was a bit more muddy and brawn. 

chef, it's a fun movie to watch.  it's food on the surface, but it's just needle and thread connecting people and their relationships.  

sabotage, it's an action movie from arnold.  it's actually pretty good.  with a mystery in the center.

hara kiri, it's a remake of an old movie.  I did not watch the old one.  but this one was really interesting.  because the protagonist condemning the bushido code, at the same time, of all the other samurais surrounding him, i felt he was the only samurai in the movie!  That is ironic at it's best.


the dark crystal, vic introduced me to it.  it's a puppeet movie in the early 1980s.  it's pretty neat.  i felt it still had star war's shadow, but it's really unique.

the taste of others, it was a french movie.  it's a little quaint movie.  i think it's not bad.

nebraska, another quaint movie.  the relationship between father and son was like reading a short story.  almost felt like a literary, interesting.



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my mom is going to taiwan on monday.  she reviewed her situation for the past few weeks now, her lament was the sword and arrows.  i could not bare, only trying to escape.  but such act of cowardness was poison to myself.  it made my pride hungry.  only by making myself miserable, i can feel a bit relaxed.  god only know how much i wish this is not the truth, but only know how much effort i put into this life to lift us away from this situation.  i really wish...

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clowns, where?

"Send In The Clowns"

written by Stephen Sondheim,
for a musical, A little Night of Music,
an adaptation of Ingmar Bergman's film Smiles of a Summer Night.

Isn't it rich? Are we a pair?
Me here at last on the ground and you in mid-air
Send in the clowns

Isn't it bliss? Don't you approve?
One who keeps tearing around and one who can't move
But where are the clowns? Send in the clowns

Just when I stopped opening doors
Finally finding the one that I wanted was yours
Making my entrance again with my usual flair

Sure of my lines
No one is there

Don't you love farce? My fault, I fear
I thought that you'd want what I want, sorry my dear
But where are the clowns? Send in the clowns
Don't bother they're here

Isn't it rich? Isn't it queer?
Losing my timing this late in my career
But where are the clowns? There ought to be clowns
Well, maybe next year

Friday, October 10, 2014

你幾點回來的?

這個星期二, 舅舅晚上到我家.  他需要我用電腦打點中文.  星期二晚上,媽媽通常都會去聚會所, 比較晚回來. 所以家裡就只有我和舅舅.  那我就問問他啥時要回稅局做事.  他說大概兩個星期左右.  因為中央政府在縮減預算, 連稅局都逃不了.  聊了一下, 媽媽回來了.  媽媽一進門,我就往裡面走,想要去開電腦.  結果突然聽到舅舅在問媽媽, "你幾點回來的?"  我心裡一時還沒反應過來.  但是, 整個人都因為這句話而感覺奇怪. 馬上, 我又聽到舅舅再問了一次,"你幾點回來的?"  我的心裡就在那邊苦笑.  這兩人的關係, 實在很有趣...  舅舅掏空了心思,找不到一句話可以說... 硬擠出來了一句莫名其妙的問題...  

Monday, September 08, 2014

很短篇

地獄

橫田順彌氏著
王 旋  改寫

"什麼?  判我到人間卻過一百年? 不, 我不服, 我一定要上訴到最高法院, 這行罰未免太重了吧!?  我犯罪, 該下地獄, 我都承認, 可是我的罪也不致重到就罰我到人間去一百年, 這, 這未免太過份了, 我..."

"住嘴!  本案既已判決, 再無更改之理, 你上訴也是白花錢而已, 我勸你還是好好地去服刑好些!" 

"可是...可是人刑一百年畢竟是太長了, 我還是要上訴, 也許他們把我的案子重審之後, 能夠改判我貓刑狗刑之類的."


"早知有今日, 又何必當初?  誰叫你不像其他的人一樣, 吃飽了以後讀讀日本聖訓, 打打麻將?  誰叫你偏偏有寫甚麼文章?  甚麼?  你再說一遍...  哼, 哼!  你說你是在盡一個日本文人的責任是不是?  哈哈!  笑死人了, 天塌下來自然有我們承擔, 你操個什麼心?  你也不想想, 你也不想想, 要是天下的責任都讓你們知識份子盡光了, 我們還有什麼好混的?  嗯!  我勸你還是乖乖地接受法律的判決, 老老實實地到人間去服你的百年徒刑, 也許能遇到什麼特赦的機會減個十年八年也說不定, 你知道, 法律是寬大的, 是勸人忘記過去改過自新重新做人的良藥, 雖然你現在很痛苦, 但我們保證祇要你一旦到人間開始服刑, 你馬上會忘了現在的一切..."

"可是一百年的有期徒刑....."

"當然, 貓刑狗刑都比人間刑要短些,  像蟑螂刑, 蒼蠅刑, 蚊子刑更短, 可是人間刑也並不是完全沒有長處, 比如說我們也為人間預備了許多交通事故, 戰爭, 情殺或自殺之類的可能性, 如果你幸運地遇上了也可以縮短你的刑期, 這種可能性其他貓刑狗刑事幾乎很少發生的, 好了, 你可以去了!  祝你早日刑滿, 歸來重新做人!  現在全體起立, 聽本法官宣判......"

法官用他特有的錄音帶一樣的聲音宣佈了犯人犯罪的內容, 根據法律的第幾條第幾項第幾款第幾號以後, 突然提高了聲音說 "第一九八零號犯人, 處人間有期徒刑百年". 

四個警察上來, 把一九八零號犯人推倒, 兩個警察提他的兩手, 兩個警察提他的兩腳, 像五馬分屍似地提著他上了二樓, 推開一個鐵窗子, 把他丟進窗外一片無垠無盡的黑暗之中去.....


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一個緊閉著嘴巴, 滿臉佈滿了憤怒的皺紋的嬰兒, 在一個叫做 "新生婦幼中心" 的醫院誕生了, 醫生, 護士和婦人的家人們都笑瞇瞇地圍著這個嬰兒....

"恭喜啊!  是個健康活潑的男孩子呀!"

"恭喜啊!  你看他紅嘟嘟的小臉, 好可愛呦!"

"啊呀!  這下我可也放心了, 老頭呀!  你快來看你的孩子!  你看他眉清目秀的斯斯文文的樣子, 將來一定是個秀才, 說不定寫的文章比你都要好呢?  你看他天庭保滿, 將來一定長命富貴....你說呢?  .........你別看傻了眼啊!  說呀!" 

"嗯.....別吵, 我在看孩子身上的這塊痣, 額角的左上方有痣, 相書上說主長命, 這孩子一定能活一百歲, 錯不了, 一百......."

醫生手裡嬰兒, 突然 "哇----"  地一聲, 大哭起來. 

(改寫自一月廿七日朝日新聞 [地獄])

民國六十九年六月十二日 


(聯合報, 極短篇)

Sunday, September 07, 2014

隨便亂聊

1.  昨天媽媽翻開世界周刊, 看到一個題目, 要把謝謝和感恩時常放在心上.  他立即反應, 舅舅就應該這樣做.  今天走路時, 媽媽說, 我還不敢說舅舅把我當仇人, 可是他卻是把我當陌生人看待.  我非常痛心聽到這些言論.  幾週前, 舅舅到我們家來, 因為我可以幫他打電郵給台灣的律師.  南昌街的事, 媽媽一定在場的.  他們兩之間的互動, 讓我這個打字員很不好受.  真的, 在衝突的面前, 我是倒塌的房子.  我完全無力面對這樣的情況.  如果是我面對衝突, 我選擇完全避免, 如果無法逃避, 那唯一的解決之道就是消滅衝突的對象.  但是, 衝突的兩造, 是我的親友, 我實在是痛苦極了.  我感覺母親就是會戳舅舅的缺點, 而舅舅應對的辦法就是逃避.  逃避就造成距離, 鴻溝逐漸形成, 在外公來的日子裡, "溝" 更進化成峽谷...  母親大概並不覺得自己在攻擊舅舅, 母親總是說自己說的都是事實.  舅舅, 那更不用說了, 因為他自己很會講道理.  道理者, 可以是理由也, 可以是藉口也, 都是表面的事實.  用這些事實, 理由, 藉口, 是填不滿峽谷的. 

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2.  flying scotts man, is a good movie.  I just finished it.  It is ridiculous to see the cycling bureaucratic rules.  unbelievable.  the flying scotts man's struggle is also very genuinely preserved.  I like it. 

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3.  昨天看了養鴨人家.  李行拍的.  實在很好.  劇情和人物都很飽滿.  劇情的鋪陳稍微舊一些.  但是, 鏡頭的拍攝我覺得滿好.  我覺得無論是龍門客棧, 俠女, 還是這部, 都有很實在的味道. 

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

無題



黑色的土壤淹蓋了女兒白色的臉龐,
我鮮紅的心陪著他躺下,
土一粒一粒往下灑,
那薄薄的黑色隨著心跳動,
直到我的淚水滴下壟起的墳墓. 
悲傷, 與我同行. 
心臟,停止振動. 

這裡有藍天綠樹,
我卻走在黑色柏油路;

我有安靜的外表,
眼神卻是狂暴風雨的神態.  

或許有一天,你也將走散.
可是,眼前, 只有淚水.
和你, 和我, 一起做伴. 

Sunday, August 31, 2014

郊外的晚上

莫斯科郊外的晚上

 

"Moscow Nights" (rus. Подмосковные вечера (podmoskovnie vechera))

 

by composer Vasily Solovyov-Sedoi and poet Mikhail Matusovsky in 1955; 薛范譯成中文

 

Original singer, 弗拉基米爾·特羅申Влади́мир Константи́нович Тр́ошин (Vladimir Troshin)

 

 

俄語歌詞 中文歌詞
Не слышны в саду даже шорохи,
Всё здесь замерло до утра,
Если б знали вы, как мне дороги
Подмосковные вечера.

Речка движется и не движется,
Вся из лунного серебра,
Песня слышится и не слышится
В эти тихие вечера.

Что ж ты милая, смотришь искоса,
Низко голову наклоня?
Трудно высказать и не высказать
Всё, что на сердце у меня.

А рассвет уже всё заметнее,
Так, пожалуйста, будь добра,
Не забудь и ты эти летние
Подмосковные вечера.

深夜花園裡,四處靜悄悄
樹葉兒也不再沙沙響
夜色多麼好,令我心神往
在這迷人的晚上
小河靜靜流,微微泛波浪
明月照水面閃銀光
依稀聽得到,有人輕聲唱
多麼幽靜的晚上
我的心上人,坐在我身旁
偷偷兒看著我,不聲響
我想開口講,不知怎樣講
多少話兒留在心上
長夜快過去,天色蒙蒙亮
衷心祝福你,好姑娘
但願從今後,你我永不忘
莫斯科郊外的晚上

random blabbering

I can't even say things to myself.  I think about it.  I told myself to write it down, but I refuse.  Oh, look, this guy is without words.   I am tired of watching myself, hearing myself. 

i just watched liam neeson's new movie, non stop.  it's pretty good. it really made a pickled situation for the protagonist.  and it is very interesting that film maker manipulated audiences intentionally.  It made me keep guessing who was the real villain towards the end.  My mom watched it with me.  it's funny that she even had a dream about it that night. 

I could not sleep well.  i am super charged sexually in the morning.  It is not pleasant at all, in fact it's hell.  it felt almost getting out of hand.  I so wish for intimate relationship, and I also kept trying very hard to get away from it.  Not that I had any chance...  lol 

When charlene asked me to go to movie last  week, I almost turned it down.  But i did not.  It felt very strange to go to movie besides myself, or my accompanied by my Mom.  woburn showcase cinema was awesome though.  After  the movie, and we went our separate ways, it's excruciatingly lonely, even now. 

xiaobao called me today again.  i thought he was joking last friday.  but it is not.  of course, his mom really wish to talk to my mom.  it's the reason why.  I was very tired today, so my voice must sound sleepy.  xiaobao hung the phone very shortly.  i did not know what to say then, but right now, i'd like to talk.  but he ain't calling. 

i had a thoughts today.  i haven't talked to wendy for a long time, i felt.  it's really sad.  with her, i felt i was mentally, academically challenged.  it stimulate my spirit quite a lot.  although it usually went into a stalemate.  but it was still exciting.  it's a shame really. 

charlene wanted to watch another this past friday night.  I said no.  i forgot that i had to go to aldi with my mom that night at first.  so the reason of turning down was simply because, i felt uncomfortable to go.  I was afraid. 

i watched the hobbit2.  it was much better than the first one.  maybe it was because the characters were more flashed out than the first one.  but most importantly, it's less of a drag. 


Friday, August 15, 2014

隆隆舅舅的來訪

星期天的晚上, 我去舅舅家吃飯.  毛請的客.  人數很少, 只有我, Michelle 和 Piper.  飯後, 和毛他們玩 3D puzzle.  舅舅走過來說隆隆舅公明天要來吃飯.  隆隆舅公之前就要來了, 但是, 身體一直出狀況, 都不能來.  年初到現在從頭到腳檢查出各種病狀.  如今他奈不住了.  所以星期一, 他一定要來.  舅舅叫我跟媽媽說.  沒過多久, 媽媽也到舅舅家來.  我跟媽媽說了隆隆舅公的事, 媽媽就進去問問舅舅. 

星期一一大早, 我下樓後, 媽媽說他四點就醒了, 因為他突然想到, 沒有給隆隆舅公準備回頭禮.  所以他一大早六點就給舅舅打了一個電話, 提醒他要買回頭禮.  舅媽接的電話, 似乎也沒多說啥.  媽媽以為他們一定會去買了.  我那時心裡在想, 未必吧...  舅媽鐵定不在乎啥回頭禮, 舅舅我是不確定, 但是, 七早八早的, 哪去買回頭禮? 

我下班回家後, 媽媽就跟我說了早上的情況.  媽媽說他自己還晚一點去, 隆隆舅公卻早到了半個小時.  媽媽去的時候, 看到外公竟然穿著睡衣見客, 大吃一驚.  之後, 聽說舅舅壓根兒沒跟外公提隆隆舅公來的事情.  隆舅公提早半個小時到, 每個人都手忙腳亂, 外公甚至不記得隆舅公是誰.  問了好半天, 才好像有點印象.  隆舅公帶了好些禮物來.  媽媽說, 他們啥都沒有準備.  回頭禮早就拋到腦後去了.  哦, 還有今天五點四十分要到舅家吃東西. 


我院子澆完水後, 就和媽媽去舅家.  原來今天是舅媽生日, 毛昨天託了 Michelle 的媽媽去中國城買的.  我們先吃蛋糕.  一邊吃, 外公講話沒完沒了.  話題離不開一個 "禮" 字.  愈講愈激動.   這之後, 他講話也愈還愈針對舅舅.  之後連舅舅也受不了,跑到外公耳邊大聲解釋某某事情.  外公到最後還是把溫加保請出來, 常識也說出來.  我就逃走了. 

不知怎的, 我感覺外公是在生氣.  不過這頓飯的收穫是老王的打滷.  他把豬肉, 胡蘿蔔, 茄子等等切成細絲, 先炒肉, 撈出來後, 接著炒茄絲.  後來再蔥薑, 胡蘿蔔, 肉絲, 茄絲, 等等炒在一起, 加高湯,  快好的時候, 勾芡, 灑蔥花.  非常好吃, 我們配著麵吃.  媽媽昨天就做了一回, 非常成功!