I had 2 incidents with my mom recently. I constantly having a feeling of her looking down upon me. I told myself, if those words were spoken by other people, I won't feel as strongly.
I was wrong. Remember when I was at Charm? I remember vividly. There were instances in other people's words, a glance, or a gesture, I felt threatened or belittled. And I was restless.
So I know, it is I who look down upon myself. Like old Chinese saying: "人必自侮, 而後人侮之." I must've disrespect myself in ways that's beyond my realization.
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