Saturday, January 23, 2016

電影關後趕

When Marnie was there(思い出のマーニー)

I did not expect too much of the movie.  The first I noticed the movie was through its theme song.  It's haunting, even now.  I loved the movie very much!  There were two mysteries in the story.  The protagonist was one, and her experience throughout the story arc was the second one. To me personally, I felt I could identify with the protagonist's feeling.  The guilt, the self pitying, and the revulsion of realizing some of the thoughts inside, and all of the above created a emotionless surface.   She however, met a girl about her age.  They became fast friends.  Both girls radiant mystery.  

The drawing and music was amazing.  Let me just get these two out.  Absolutely gorgeous!  The sound effect was such that it pounded my heart even when I don't really have a surround sound.  The two girls were such different characters.  The other characters like the couple were endearing as well.  

But what should I say about the movie.  What was I feeling?  It made me tossing and turning last night.  I had a hard time getting into sleep.  I felt kind awkward about the two girls kept hugging each other.  Don't know why I felt it's  a bit lesbian tendency.  Even now when I thought back, I still felt awkward.  I guess that complete openness between two characters are kind weird.  Until the end when the secret was out that Marnie was the girl's grandmother, I seemed to relieve.  I was surprised to find myself writing the above thoughts.  The surprise was not that I felt weird about two girls hugging, but the surprise that I wrote it down.  lol  

It did made me tossing and turning for at least 2 hours last night.  I felt sad.  Maybe I am jealous.  That closeness to a person so completely, no matter how happy, how sad, or how guilty I felt, nothing could separate between the two.  But it came with an effort, no?  The girl has to forgive first?  Yes.  

I loved the couple Anna(the protagonist) moved in with.  They provide a sense of stability, loyalty, and openness.  

At the end of the movie, Anna gained her family back, Marnie stayed, her mother stayed, and most importantly, even when Anna is alone,  I felt that there were people living in that heart of hers, and it's love.  

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Mr. Holmes.  

I saw this one about 12 at noon today.  It was a really good movie.  The characters were all filled with complexity.  The movie was about Mr. Holmes at age of 93 trying to figure out why he quit the detective practice 30 years ago.  The way to do this was trying to recall the last case he took.  However, his memory was failing him.  I saw a movie critique called this movie "still Sherlocke".  What a clever remark!  But to me it's a lot better than Still Alice, way better.  

 Let me say this first, the cinematography was fantastic.  I just saw 思い出のマーニー, and I could not stop comparing the two.  It may be weird to compare a real life movie to an anime.  But it was a compliment, I think.  The actors here really brought the characters to life!  

Now, what was my feeling on the movie?  When the ending was rolling, a phrase, "practice being kind, rather than being right." showed up in my head.  It's a line from the movie, "the silver lining play book".  

Ian Mckellen was an amazing Sherlocke Holmes.  His performance switched between a 70 years old man and 90 years old man was astounding.  Such contrast was amazing to me, it's so endearing to me since my 90 year grandpa moved back in the state.  It was endearing performance, also a reminder as well.  The mother and the kid were acted out perfectly.  They provide great dimension to the story.  

It's weird.  I thought I would have more to say.  But right now I searched nothing.  The only thing I still want to say is that it's a very good movie.  lol  




Saturday, January 16, 2016

results

媽媽今早打電話來提到他寄給我和我妹看的健康 2.0 影片.  這一集裡提到油漱口.  她說不確定有無寄給我妹, 所以她叫我再寄一次.  我昨晚才到我妹家, 她提到了媽媽最近寄了一些影片.  她的口氣裡好像不太想看. 但是在電話裡,我沒有和媽媽說. 我心裡是覺的這不用做了. 

我剛剛又突然想想, 媽媽會否知道小瑋其實不大看她寄的影片?  如果她知道但是還是會想到要寄, 似乎很奇怪.  因為以結果來說, 是沒有啥好預期的.  但是, 會否像 歌林多前書十三章裡提到的:  凡 事 包 容 , 凡 事 相 信 , 凡 事 盼 望 , 凡 事 忍 耐 。

我通常視結果成敗來決定我的行動.  雖說有時候, 在逆境時, 我會好像有種接受並迎接挑戰的心態.  可是大部分時候, 成敗的想法又決定了我的猶豫不前最重要因素.  我以為我看到了結果. 做了結果或許仍沒有, 但是不做是不能有結果的.  

這是老生常談.  可是我在想, 為啥媽媽還是這樣做呢?  或許是因為愛吧.  很多因素加在裡面, 才能顯出來.  愛卻是一切的源頭.  老生常談只是理性上的理解, 在我身心上還不能發揮.  

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Tomorrowland impression

I watched Tomorrowland.  It was  really good movie, although the ending was not good.  From the beginning, it really grabbed my attention with many twists and mystery.  There were two girls in the movie, one is mystery, the other is the guide for audience.  The guide was really good.  I was awed and twisted with guide.  The mystery girl was incredible.  The composer she displayed on screen really went beyond her age.  The pace of the movie was excellent until the end.  GC of course, was not bad either. 

The ending was sad though.  It created a mysterious world throughout the film, but could not bring it to life in the end.  The theme of the movie reminded me of another one.  But I can't remember the movie. 

The reason I watched this movie was purely because of its trailer.  The first trailer was really awesome!  :) 

Sunday, January 10, 2016

two movies impression

I rewatched rocky last night.  I really liked it!  I think the theme was simple, the focus was very monotonous.   But it flashed out with substance and emotion.  Compare to Creed, I felt I can empathize with Rocky than Creed.  I felt I can understand Rocky and his people around him better. 

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Stardust

I remembered I watched it once.  But somehow, it was not impressive at the time.  I remembered that I had other things in my mind.  Or, I was doing something at the same time.  So I was not impressed. 

But man, oh, man, it's such a good fantasy movie.  Very classic story line, awesome chemistry between characters, and most importantly, there's humor, which did not take you out of the movies!  I felt I was taken out the movie by some of the humor in the Princess bride. 

I like Stardust!  The story was a boy trying to charm his first love by getting a falling meteorite.  But by crossing a wall by his village, he entered a magical realm, thus his adventure began.   The image captured here, landscape, daily life, I can feel the weight and wear, grandeur and color in almost every shot.  The characters are likable as well!  The magic in the movie felt realistic and fun. 

A truly great movie! 

Friday, January 08, 2016

Still alice's endings.

I don't know why, but I thought the movie's ending was bad.   I liked the book's ending better.  But I could be wrong, no? 

One ended with families still together, the other ended with one left for its career. 

Really don't like the career pursuing one.  But again, would it be regretted if not pursuing career? 


somet thoughts

I kept wondering about one thing.  How come I work so hard at work place, but when I come home, I changed to something else?  Whatever I worked on at work place was not mine.  When it came to what is really mine, I slack off!  Outrageous!! 

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I told Vic that I was going to watch ant-man at the end of work, 2 days ago.  He said he hasn't watched it yet.  Like usual, I expressed my surprise.  He must have thought it funny.  So he said he will watch it that night after work and we will have something to talk about.  I thought it was a funny idea. 

He did not mention the movie yesterday.  I thought it must've been a joke.  I said something in the end of day.  Yeah, he must've been joking.  And yet, I carried for two days. 

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Still Alice Impression

I read Still Alice a couple months ago.  It was a good book to read, really.  The author has an easy and crisp style.   I felt like whatever author wanted to convey, I could easily grasp them.  The characters are well defined, they all have a distinct feels.

There are many things impressed me in that book.  But there's one thing I kept going back.  The distance the husband showed when he found out that it's true and irreversible fact.  He seemed to want to try to stay as before, like nothing had happened.  He even want to change the environment and career with his wife!  It seemed so inconsiderate to the sick.

I felt like I've seen it somewhere.  Getting distance does not necessarily mean to be far away.  My silence could also meant that.  My ignorance of life could mean the same thing as well.  This drives me nuts.  I wish  I could be more passionate, more filled with joy.  Above all,  I wish I could feel compassionate towards my mother.  I felt I must be aloof and distance towards her.  For, I am silent around her, and ignoring life at the same time.  It must make her felt insecure deeply.

Uncle once said something, it seems to me that he meant there are a lot of stuff, he wanted to accomplish, but could not.  It could be due to time, or slacking off, or something else.  I felt that too.  I always have some ideas popped into my mind, but after a while, I'd forget what it was.  Then there would be times when I felt I got nothing to do and lonely, I would be scratching my head, pulling my hair, heart and belly all boiling, without knowing what to do!  I need to make a to do list.  So when those times come, I  could held my list and at least, knowing that I had options!

By doing the above thing, what I wished to accomplish was, by doing those things, I could felt a bit useful, strengthening my psychological fortitude, by not forgetting what I meant to do.  Not the things, the company requires of me, not the things my family requires me, or friends, for that matter.  But something I wish to do!  I hope I could find out it, are them worth it, or not.  If it's worth it, keep it; if it's not, kick it.

The passion for life, must be deep within.  Through action, by completing them, I hope a visualization would keep the inner fire burning.  

Monday, January 04, 2016

Because of her

漫畫:

Beck 搖滾新樂團
排球少年

電影:

ant man

Sunday, January 03, 2016

Some thoughts

Mr. Wang is my grandfather's helper during the week day.  My mom kept asking him if he want to go to congregation.  He said yes on Friday.  So mom called April to schedule a ride.  However, it turned out that my sis cannot go today.  April wanted to arrange a bother to take Mr. Wang.  But Mom immediately said no.  She said, Jack will do it.  Her exact wording was: "如果我叫小杰去, 小杰就會做..." This bugged me.  And I immediately told her after she ended her call with my sis. 

The result was she could not sleep last night.  I was still bugged and disgusted with myself about revealing this to her.  I do want to please her, and like I told her, I will do it almost no matter what anyway.  Why would I reveal that to her?  This caused 2 things, she can't sleep, I felt disgusted about myself. 

However, that line really bugged me.  I still think that I am constantly looking for comfort.  Anything that could comfort me.  Just about anything.  This low self esteem thing really needs to go!  I kept trying to find out what I want.  I am still trying!  Because I thought if I know that, I would make myself a better person.  I could stand tall with other people, psychologically. 

I felt really short when compared to whoever!  I tried to comfort myself with stories I created.  But it failed again and again.  Because a dream is a dream, I am still here, could not go and do anything!  I dreamed of having a girl like CJ or Nono.  But when I see myself. that disgust would not go away.  I am not a complicated guy.  I am not that deep.  I thought if I could figure what I want to do, and go for it.  Dedicated myself to it.  I would be more complete.  I'd be happy, my mom would happy.  And I could maybe try to find a girl like CJ or Nono.  I don't know what I want to do!  16 years ago, I sat on the mud room's step, back to my mom, and said to her, I don't know what I want to do.  Today, I still am.  If anything, I'd wish for a hug and a kiss from CJ right now. But by golly, that thoughts was horrible!  I keep shaken my head sometimes, trying to shake it off.  The more I look at her, the more I am more obsessed.  That cannot be the only thing I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I feel I could do more.  But maybe I can't.  I record some thoughts here, and yet, when I reflected back, those thoughts are shallow at best, utterly not understandable at worst! 
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Anyway, I gotta learn to filter what to say!  Before I even said it!  That report said that I used a lot of energy to suppress feelings.  But how to let those feeling out, without hurting anybody?!  I know I did try hard not to touch sadness and anger, but it seems the more I tried, the more I failed!  The emotion for withholding sadness and anger must be fear.  So the only thing I could display is smile, or utter reclusive. 

JediAcademy impression

I just finished the game first time since I bought it long ago.  I think the game was really well designed.  In terms of combat, I did not like it though.  I had a hard time controlling the movements.  I cannot see which swing I used to kill my opponents!  But different kind of forces was fun to play. 

The platforming part of the game was alright.  It had some kind of design, but not whole lot.  The game designers used this mechanic for finding secret areas.  But there's no design for flow or rhythm in them.  I don't really like the jumping mechanics either.  It has a flowing through air feel to it.  But it was much better designed than Oni.  Oni has only flipping, but here, in Jedi Academy, you could do vertical wall run, in theory...  Because I still cannot control it, not sure if it's text sensitive.  JA have better level design, so you could really use force jump sometimes, unlike Oni...  All that sliding and flipping, were wasted. 

Overall, it's a more complete package, compared to Oni.  But the combat really bugs me.  It's too fast and flashy for my taste.  If I do more practice, maybe I could get a feel for it.  But  I don't really have incentive to do so though.  


Saturday, January 02, 2016

Yesterday we karaoke

My sis and her husband came for karaoke yesterday.  we first used ps2, it was really fun.  Then we used youtube and roku combo for chinese song.  It was really good too.  I've been wanting to do that for sometimes now.  It was great. 


南掌

Review for Southpaw

自從看了 trailer  後, 我就想看這部電影.  但是, 當光碟出來時, 我又猶豫了.  因為我滿確定這多半很老套.  幾個月前, Vic 早上的時候突然問我, 有無看過 Southpaw?  我說還沒有, 他說你應該會喜歡喔.  於是, 我去圖書館預定了.

在這期間, 我也去看了 Creed.  所以在看這部電影時, 我似乎有意無意的在比較這兩部電影給我的感覺.

我很喜歡 Southpaw.  非常喜歡.  我覺得這部電影給我的感覺比 Creed 更實在.  Southpaw 在講一個拳擊冠軍的故事.  他從冠軍因為一個意外事件, 再加上他個性上的問題, 他失去了他所珍重的一切.  在最谷底的時候, 他得到了一個人幫住,  他再次站上拳壇.

這是多麼俗套的劇情?!  可是, 從電影開始到結束, 我幾乎沒有離開螢幕. 演員的努力是不可不提的.   Jake 的演技真是一流.  他上一部電影是 Nightcrawler.  他在電影裡把整個人改變形象.  他所改變得不是化妝, 而是行為態度.  這一改變實在令我大吃一驚.   在部電影裡, 他在一次的嘗試改變行為方式.  我覺得仍是很成功的.  也很令我佩服.  Jake 和 Forest 的搭配, 我覺得更是令人激賞的地方.  Forest 始終都是很棒的演員.  他有他的味道.  在幾個過場裡, 他和 Jake 的對話, 是整部電影裡點睛之處!  要讓電影重俗套中活化, 就得有配得上的對白.

不斷提到俗套劇情是因為, 這種電影幾乎在開始時就是已經知道結果了.  甚至幾番的波折之處, 在影迷的腦海裡也早就釐出了套路.  電影一開始的成功, 主角開始墮落, 主角在谷底得到精神上的激發, 又從此成功.  還要加上愛情的套路等等.  這部電影裡都出現了.  但是我並不被這些俗套影響, 這關鍵就在對白上, 道出了某種與我內心所有的共鳴.  譬如說, 主角在意外發生後, 因為自己個性上的缺失, 造成了失去一切生活上的種種, 甚至造成父女分離.  Forest 的角色在關鍵的過場裡, 提出了我也有的想法.  在那個蒼老疲累的聲音裡, 這問題不斷痛刺主角的內心, 從而激活他的自我意識! 另外, 就父女分離的劇情部分, 無論是那位演女兒的女角, 還是 Jake, 還是 Forest, 每個過場都有其目的. 在我眼裡, 我似乎也都可以感受到每一個鏡頭的重量.  俗套與否, 已經被真實有物的對話內容充淡.

我也上 youtube 看看相關的訊息.  才知道 Southpaw 的主角一開始是 Eminem!  我也才了解為啥 Jake 在詮釋這個角色上和 Nightcrawler 相比有點拘束.  但是這是很有趣的訊息.

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和 Creed 相比, 我更喜歡 Southpaw.  Creed 的故事是不錯的題材.  可是我總覺得好像少了甚麼.  我無法在感情上得到立足點吧.  我並不覺得主角讓我感動.  史特龍在我認為更是這部戲的亮點.

搞錯了一輩子了...

芥末與山葵

一般人在吃生魚片時,免不了要沾一下醬油及芥末。這種一般台灣人稱之為「芥末」的綠色泥狀的調味料日文叫作「わさび」(wasabi),日文漢字表記為「山葵」。
在吃納豆的時候,納豆的盒子中經常會附有一包類似醬油的「つゆ」的液體調味料以及一包黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的日文叫作「わがらし」(wagarashi) ,日文漢字表記為「和辛子」或「和芥子」。
又,吃熱狗的時候,除了蕃茄醬以外,經常還有一種黃色的調味醬。這種黃色的調味醬的英文是「mustard」,日文叫作「マスタード」,也有人稱為「ようがらし」(yougarashi),日文漢字表記為「洋辛子」或「洋芥子」。
不論是「わがらし」或是「ようがらし」,都是由芥菜的種子磨成粉後所製成的調味料。國語辭典中對「芥末」的解釋就是「用芥菜子研細的粉末,味辛辣, 常用作調味料」。因此,嚴格地來說,吃生魚片時所沾的綠色的調味料並不是「芥末」,而是一種用「山葵」這種植物的根磨成泥的調味料 (感覺起來就像是把蘿蔔磨成泥的樣子)。真正的「芥末」應該是吃納豆、吃熱狗時所附的黃色調味料。
至於「わがらし」和「ようがらし」的差別只是一個是日本的調味料,一個是歐美的調味料。只是正好兩種調味料都是用同芥菜的種子製成的。同一種植物在 不同的地方的生長狀態多少會有所不同,而每個人在製作調味料時的手法也可能會有一點不一樣,所以「わがらし」和「ようがらし」多少會有一些微妙的不同。但 是兩種調味料幾乎可以說是同一種東西。

(錄自:  http://umesakura.jp/20050524183105.html)