Saturday, September 29, 2012

東海若

"""東海若
作者:  柳宗元

東海若陸遊,登孟諸之阿,得二瓠焉,刳而振其犀以嬉,取海水雜糞壤蟯蚘而實之,臭不可當也。窒以密石,舉而投之海。逾時焉而過之,曰:「是故棄糞 耶?」其一徹聲而呼曰:「我大海也。」東海若呀然而笑曰:「怪矣,今夫大海,其東無東,其西無西,其北無北,其南無南,旦則浴日而出之,夜則滔列星,涵太 陰,揚陰火珠寶之光以為明,其塵霾之雜不處也,必泊之西澨。故其大也深也潔也光明也,無我若者。今汝海之棄滴也,而與糞壤同體,臭朽之與曹,蟯蚘之與居, 其狹咫也,又冥暗若是,而同之海,不亦羞而可憐哉!子欲之乎?吾將為汝抉石破瓠,蕩群穢於大荒之島,而同子於向之所陳者可乎?」糞水泊然不悅曰:「我固同 矣,吾又何求於若?吾之性也,亦若是而已矣。穢者自穢,不足以害吾潔;狹者自狹,不足以害吾廣;幽者自幽,不足以害吾明。而穢亦海也,狹、幽亦海也,突然 而往,於然而來,孰非海者?子去矣,無亂我!」其一聞若之言,號而祈曰:「吾毒是久矣!吾以為是固然不可異也。今子告我以海之大,又目我以故海之棄糞也, 吾愈急焉。湧吾沫不足以發其窒,旋吾波不足以穴瓠之腹也,就能之,窮歲月耳,願若幸而哀我哉!」東海若乃抉石破瓠。投之孟諸之陸,蕩其穢於大荒之島,而水 複於海,盡得向之所陳者焉。而向之一者,終與臭腐處而不變也。
今有為佛者二人,同出於毗盧遮那之海,而汩於五濁之糞,而幽於三有之瓠,而窒於無明之石,而雜於十二類之蟯蚘。人有問焉,其一人曰:「我佛也,毗盧 遮那、五濁、三有、無明、十二類,皆空也,一也,無善無惡,無因無果,無修無證,無佛無眾生,皆無焉,吾何求也!」問者曰:「子之所言,性也,有事焉。夫 性與事,一而二,二而一者也,子守而一定,則大患者至矣。」其人曰:「子去矣,無亂我!」其一人曰:「嘻,吾毒之久矣!吾盡吾力而不足以去無明,窮吾智而 不足以超三有、離五濁,而異夫十二類也。就能之,其大小劫之多不可知也,若之何?」問者乃為陳西方之事,使修念佛三昧一空有之說。於是聖人憐之,接而致之 極樂之境,而得以去群惡,集萬行,居聖者之地,同佛知見矣。向之一入者,終與十二類同而不變也。夫二人之相違也,不若二瓠之水哉!今不知去一而取一,甚 矣!


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我第一次看到這個故事是在 Andover 圖書館裡.  那裡有一套介紹古代學問詩文的書, 是舅媽藉著他母親的名字捐的.  這篇文章是其中一本介紹古代小說的輯子.  文章的後面有解說.  我看了之後覺得很好玩.  因為, 解說的最後一段認為柳宗元是站在那個糞水一邊.  我看了之後不禁啞然失笑.  我覺得這怎麼可能?  可是事後想想, 會不會真是如此呢?  我雖然相信柳宗元是站在那回歸大海的那一邊.  但是總不能十足的確定.  後來, 我陸陸續續的問了一些人, 沒有一個會選擇當臭糞的...  笑死我了...  

如今我又在維基文庫裡看到這一篇文章,  但一看就是比較完整的文章, 因為故事後, 柳宗元自己又做了一番解說.  更容易明白柳宗元君的意向.  不了解爲啥那本書的解說是那樣?  只能說那解說的作者自己沒搞清楚...  不過我相信這位作者也一定是會選擇到大海去的, 因為他雖然認為柳是站在糞水的那一邊, 但是在文章裡, 他似乎也覺得柳宗元的選擇很不通人情.

我在查找這篇文章的時候看到另一個對這篇文章的解釋.  這是一個清朝的和尚寫的.  我覺得也蠻有趣的.  如今我一併抄錄:

東海若解 

唐 柳 子厚 著
清 釋 實賢 解


[題釋]   東海若者。昔有唐名儒柳子厚。愍學佛者知見不同。於淨土法門。信毀不一。其間利害。不啻天淵。欲令知所去取。以造乎心性之極致。故作此文也。第習儒者。既 以佛理而置之弗究。學佛者。又以文字而漫不經心。間有聰明之士。多闕信根。設具信根。復無智慧。致使深文奧義。韜晦于殘編斷簡中。莫之通達。豈不惜哉。因 申明其義。以為解釋。庶幾為初機勸發之一助云。

[正文]   東海若陸遊登孟諸之阿。得二瓠焉。刳而振其犀以嬉。取海水。雜糞壤蟯蚘而實之。臭不可當也。窒以密石。舉而投之海。逾時焉而過之曰。是故棄糞邪。

[解]   東海若。海神名喻宏法大士。蓋海神主海。猶大士主法。故以此喻之也。陸遊者。謂離淨土海。到娑婆岸。猶海神離海而遊陸也。孟諸。地名。曲阜曰阿。高下不平 之處。以喻三界險道。謂自既出生死。復入三界度苦眾生。故曰登孟諸之阿也。二瓠。喻信毀二機。眾生五陰。名之為瓠。因緣會遇。故言得。刳而振其犀以嬉。謂 大士遊戲神通。不取眾生相也。刳。空也。振。去也。犀。子也。言空去其子。以瓠[*]為 嬉。正喻離眾生相。以度生為遊戲也。取海水者。為說法也。雜糞壤者。眾生聞法。智慧與無明雜也。糞壤。喻煩惱。蟯蚘。喻生死。煩惱因果。不出五濁。生死種 類。不離十二。臭。猶苦也。生死煩惱。其苦難忍。故言臭不可當。密石。喻根本無明。一念不了。故曰窒。投海。喻入生死。眾生過去。雖曾聞法。種少善根。但 以無明所覆。長在生死。不得解脫。縱遇知識勸導。其根生熟不同。亦有發不發者。發則順教修行。不發則違教執理。故取二瓠為喻也。然大士度生。如父母教子。 不以孝子而偏教。不以逆子而置之。故雖不信。亦為說法。又常伺察其機而開發之。逾時焉而過之者。此伺機也。久經輪轉。故曰逾時。夙緣相植。故名曰過。曰是 故棄糞邪。此開發之辭也。謂汝于過去曾種善根。今猶遺棄生死邪。意欲令其發心念佛。故問之也。

[正文]   其一徹聲而呼曰。我大海也。

[解]   此喻違教執理之人。徹聲而呼。即驚疑不信之狀。我大海也。即執理廢事之言。


[正文]   東海若呀然笑曰。怪矣。今夫大海。其東無東。其西無西。其北無北。其南無南。旦則浴日而出之。夜則滔列星。[-+(-)]太 陽揚陰火珠寶之光以為明。其塵霾之雜不處也。必汩之西澨。故其大也。深也。潔也。光明也。無我若者。

[解]   此喻大士為說佛真性海以顯真諦也。呀然。張口貌。怪矣。是責之也。今夫下。具示正理。夫性海無涯。故無東西南北。性海光明。故外[-+(-)]日 月星辰。內具眾寶。外[-+(-)]是 神通。內具是智慧。所謂萬德悉圓也。又日喻應身。星月喻隨類化身。應身出世名旦。涅槃名夜。應跡雖有生滅。法體常自湛然。眾生機熟。則現佛身而度脫之。緣 盡入滅。則又現隨類化身而引導之。雖種種示現。總皆不出性海之外。是外[-+(-)]也。 陰火。喻神通。珠寶。喻定慧。三皆全性發生。是內具也。性海清淨。故塵霾不處。塵霾。指五住煩惱。所謂諸惡都盡也。太陰是月。大海之中。火光常起。名為陰 火。澨。水涯也。謂大海不與塵霾同處。必漂之涯岸。猶佛智慧海。不與煩惱同住。必斷之令盡而後已耳。深大光潔四字。總結上文。無四方是深天。外[-+(-)]內具是光。無塵是潔。無我若者。是讚辭。謂除佛已還。皆未得此深大光潔之用者。即有之。是少分而已。非 究竟也。


[正文]   今汝海之棄滴也。而與糞壤同體。臭朽之與曹。蟯蚘之與居。其狹。咫也。又冥暗若是。而同之海。不亦羞而可憐哉。子欲之乎。吾將為汝抉石破瓠盪羣穢于大荒之 島。而同子於向之所陳者可乎。
 
[解]   此喻斥其偏見。而示以正修行路也。夫眾生與佛。雖同一心。但眾生迷倒。棄海認漚。指漚為海。聞說真海。反以為非。是則名為可憐愍者。今夫執空之人計五陰。 身中方寸妄心。謂是本來面目。與佛無二。如瓠中糞水。計為大海。與海無別。不知心體廣大。含裹十方虗空世界。眾生諸佛。一念徧收。不局在方寸內。如大海不 局瓠[*]內。聞說西方淨土。彌陀性海。計為心外。反生疑謗。如聞真海反以為非。彌陀雖不捨眾生。眾生自棄耳。如 大海不拒一滴。一滴自棄大海。故曰海之棄滴。眾生五陰。煩惱為體。故云糞壤同體。臭即是苦。朽即無常。曹。伍也。言此身者。無常眾若之為伴侶。非真實也。 蟯[*]。 身中蟲也。喻十二類。言此身者。十二類之所同住。非解脫也。蕞爾六尺。故言咫。蒙然無智。故言暗。執此方寸妄心。六尺妄身。謂同佛妙用。非顛倒耶。故斥之 曰羞而可憐。問。經云。諸佛解脫。當於眾生心行中求。又云。觀身實相。觀佛亦然。豈非眾生身心。與佛無別。而子乃欲分迷分悟論聖論凡。得無眼見空華耶。 答。如經所云。葢是即妄觀真。不執妄以為真。如將一滴觀海。不執一滴是海。且如一滴之水。與大海水。濕性何別。然既離大海。又與糞壤交雜。豈得謂之即是海 耶。即妄觀真而不執。意亦如是。故知水性無別。而求歸海之計。則可也。若守定一滴謂為大海。則不可也。請試思之。子欲之乎以下。略示修行利益以勸之。言吾 將為汝者。非是為彼修行。蓋謂化功歸己。利及他人也。抉石。喻斷根本無明。破瓠。喻出三界。盪穢。喻離五濁。大荒。喻寂光真境。恢廓無際。島。喻同居極 樂。高出十方。向之所陳。即諸佛深大光潔之用。知其不信。而復強為說法者。蓋大士悲心太切。現雖無益。亦為未來。得度因緣也。


[正文]   糞水泊然不說曰。我固同矣。吾又何求于若。吾之性也。亦若是而已矣。穢者自穢。不足以害吾潔。狹者自狹。不足以害吾廣。幽者自幽。不足以害吾明。而穢亦海 也。狹幽亦海也。突然而往。于然而來。孰非海者。子去矣。無亂我。

[解]   此喻聞教不信。執辭以拒也。博地凡夫。雖有小慧不斷煩惱。故名糞水。聞教不信。故云不說。我固同矣。此執理之言。尅論理體。生佛不二。故曰固同。吾又何求 于若。此自足之語。前文所陳。乃諸佛境界。蓋是以修德而顯性德。今執理者謬解。單言性德而廢修德。故曰。吾之性也亦若是而已矣。謂我心亦具深大光潔之用。 曾無欠少。不知說食畫餅。無益飢腸。徒勞身口。下文具出偏空之見。穢不害潔。言性體清淨。不為生死所污也。狹不害廣。言性體廣大。不為形器所局也。幽不害 明。謂性體光明。不為煩惱所覆也。穢狹幽暗。即具海之全體。無二無別。故云亦也。突然于然。往來貌。以喻出沒生死。皆本性妙理。故云孰非海者。問曰。如上 所陳。未嘗不是。何子過之深也。答曰。誠如所問。其言雖是。其意則非。祗如三不害。大乘經論中。亦有此語。然諸佛菩薩未嘗撥棄修行。單言理性。今謬人守定 穢狹幽暗。自謂光潔廣大。不知煩惱現前。潔斯害矣。量不容物。廣斯害矣。顛倒是非。明斯害矣。現前一念。尚不能保其無害。況未來生死。安能自知。雖曰不 害。乃所以為大害也。如諸佛菩薩有時化度眾生。示現煩惱。而心無分別。斯真穢不害潔矣。刀割香塗。等無憎愛。羅云調達。並濟均慈。斯真狹不害廣矣。行於非 道。通達佛道。斯真幽不害明矣。而今乃以凡夫小智。濫同佛智。自取愆尤。豈非謬之甚者邪。子去矣無亂我。是拒絕之辭。蓋宗門執理之士。乍聞教理。輒大拂其 心。故云然也。


[正文]   其一聞若之言。號而祈曰。吾毒是久矣。吾以為是固然不可異也。今于告我海之大。又目我以故海之棄糞也。吾愈急焉。涌吾洙。不足以發其窒。旋吾波。不足以穴 瓠之腹也。就能之。窮歲月耳。願若幸而哀我哉。

[解]   此喻順教修行之士。初聞佛法。生大悔悟。心期解脫。故號泣而祈求焉。吾毒是久矣。毒。害也。生死煩惱。喪我法身。亡我慧命。名之曰毒。沈淪多劫。故曰久 矣。又言久者。謂常有厭苦之心。未得出離之路。所謂善根將熟機欲發動也。固然。真實貌。未聞教前。意謂生死煩惱。真實不可變異。徒厭無益。今聞佛功德海。 廣大難量。則知生可作佛。故曰告我以海之大。又知夙曾下種。與佛結緣。我自迷背于佛。遺棄生死。故曰目我以故海棄糞。是則出離有路。解脫有方。求之厭之。 當復彌切。故云愈急。下皆自知分量之辭。涌洙。喻小慧分別。發窒。喻破無明。旋波。喻微功轉動。穴腹。喻出三界。就能之。是假借之辭。窮歲月。是遷延曠 劫。幸而哀我。是求佛攝受。


[正文]   東海若乃抉石破瓠。投之孟諸之陸。盪其穢于大荒之島而水復於海。盡得向之所陳者焉。

[解]   此喻順教修行之利。無明頓破。如抉石生死永亡。如破瓠。三界長揖。故曰投之孟諸。九蓮親到。故曰大荒之島。即凡心而見佛心。故云水復于海。


[正文]   而向之一者終與臭腐處而不變也。

[解]   此喻違教執空之害。向執葫蘆之水。與大海無別。不知石未去而穢未除。水未歸于海。水雖無二。寬狹淨穢乃殊。又執穢狹皆海。不知終于臭腐而不能變化。豈不哀 哉。今夫執理者。謂我心是佛。何須更見彌陀。即心淨土。豈必更生極樂。不知無明生死。業相熾然。雖有妙心。尚未親證未得佛之大用。又執生死煩惱。皆是菩提 涅槃。誰非佛法。不知生死現前。依舊茫然無據。何處當有涅槃。無明瞥起。仍復顛倒是非。誰是菩提覺者。一期浪語長劫沈淪。能不為之痛心哉。


[正文]   今有為佛者二人。同出于毗盧遮那之海。而泪于五濁之糞。而幽于三有之瓠。而窒于無明之石。雜于十二類之蟯蚘。人有問焉。其一人曰我佛也。毗盧遮那。五濁三 有。無明十二類。皆空也。一切無善無惡。無因無果。無修無證。無佛無眾生。皆無焉。吾何求也。

[解]   此合上文之譬也。同是學佛。知見不同。故皆言為佛者。二人即信毀二機。毗盧遮那。此云徧一切處。是佛法身。亦名真如性海。此之法身。生佛同體。故言同出。 五濁者。一劫濁。乃至五命濁。此五皆以染污為義。故喻之如糞。三有。即三界。謂欲色無色隔歷不同。故名界。因果不無。故稱有。三有區局眾生。故喻如瓠。四 大區局六識。義亦如是。並得名焉。無明窒礙法性。故喻如石。十二類不離三界。如蟯蚘不離人腹。人有問焉。人即四依大士。一人即違教執空之人。我佛也。合上 我大海也。一切皆空。正是所執。五濁空。合上穢不足以害潔。三有空。合上狹不足以害廣。無明十二類空。合上幽不足以害明。善是人天。惡是三途。因果修證。 通乎四聖。此執空之人。乃有兩種。一者心自開解。二者從他聞說。心自解者。病則難治。從他聞者。後或可醫。


[正文]   問者曰。子之所言。性也。有事焉。夫性與事。一而二。二而一者也。若守一而定。則大患者至矣。其人曰。子去矣。無亂我。

[解]   此示以正解。而使知過患也。言性有三義。謂空義。假義。中義。如向所陳。但得空義。不知中假。又空有三種謂偏空。斷空。真空。向論祇是偏空及以斷空。尚未 得真空之理。豈知性者哉。若悟真空。自不撥無萬法。是故知其未解也。有事焉以下。正是對病發藥之語。性即理也。謂理與事。一而常二。二而常一。圓融則大功 斯立。守一則大患乃生。得失在人。非關佛法。問。何謂一而二。二而一。答。如祖師云。修證即不無。染污即不得。斯言是也。夫修證即不無。事也。染污即不 得。理也。二句義理。互具互融。不可偏廢。上句具下義故。無修證而論修證。下句具上義故。非染淨而說染淨。此事理不二之旨也。若單執有修證。即同二乘權 教。單執無染污。即同自然外道。又同權教。則唯尚功勛。此過則淺。同外道則撥無因果。此害乃深。故曰大患者至矣。現在則失進修之利。未來則招墮落之殃。可 不懼哉。又祖師言句。有言偏意圓者。往往小慧之流。隨語生解。致使醍醐反成毒藥。良可悲痛。問。云何名為言偏意圓。答。如誌公云。五欲貪嗔是佛。地獄即是 天堂。智者知心是佛。愚人樂往西方。是則名為言偏意圓也。今當釋之。謂若人能觀五欲境界。及貪嗔癡。如虗空華。不生分別。當知此人。即名為佛。故云五欲貪 嗔是佛。又觀地獄天堂苦樂之相。如夢中事。不於天堂而生愛著。不於地獄而生驚怖。二俱平等。故云地獄即是天堂。智者知心是佛。愚人樂往西方。此二句重在知 心二字。謂若知心是佛。此人念佛。即是智者。不知。則雖樂往西方。亦是愚人。智者指上上品。愚人謂下下品。此二語與淨土之旨。初無悖戾。而謬人執此。乃謂 念佛是愚人所為。豈西方只有下下品。而無上上品邪。又下品者其在此土。雖是愚人。若生淨土。則入不退地。便不可謂之愚矣。不知己愚。反謂他愚。謂之何哉。 故貴在得意。忌在執文。舉一例諸。思之可見。


[正文]   其一人曰。嘻。吾毒之久矣。吾盡我力。而不足以去無明。窮吾智。而不足以超三有離五濁。而異夫十二類也。就能之其大小劫之多。不可知也。若之何。

[解]   此明順教修行之士。知力不足。自審之辭也。時丁末法。人根轉鈍。心膽轉粗。大概而論。有二種人。謂一愚。二狂。愚者茫然無解。固不待論矣。狂者妄意高遠。 常欲躐等。視此念佛法門。不啻草芥。尚生鄙恥。況肯修行。此無他。不自知也。古人云。知人則智。自知則明。蓋當今之世。自知者亦已鮮矣。文中合譬。一一可 知。言大小劫者。人壽一增一減為一小劫。積此小劫。至八十番。名一大劫。又積此大小劫。至不可數。名一阿僧祇劫。言不可知。即是不可數。藏教菩薩。要經三 無數劫修行。方得成佛。然退轉者多。增進者少。此明自力之難能也。蓋一切法門。皆自力出生死。故難。唯念佛一門。兼仗他力。故易。易故一生可辦。難故曠劫 未成。利害得失。其機在此。是故知難易。則知利害。知利害。則知去取。否則前途失足。錯路者多矣。正像之世。容有自力出生死者。末法之世。罕聞此人。今既 自力不能。欲求他力。故問若何。


[正文]   問者乃為陳西方之事。使修念佛三昧。一空有之說。於是聖人憐之。接而致之。極樂之境而得以去羣惡。集萬行。居聖者之地。同佛知見矣。

[解]   此明念佛之利也。梵語三昧。此云正受。謂正念現前不受諸受故。得此三昧者。現前當來決定見佛。一空有者。謂無念而念。無生而生也。問。空則一法不立。有則 萬法紛然。二者乖角。云何名一。答昔天衣懷禪師開示淨土。其言曰。生則決定生。去則實不去。此一空有之旨也。夫生則決定生。有也。去則實不去。空也。言雖 有二。意未嘗二也。師又曰。譬如鴈過長空。影沈寒水。鴈絕遺踪之意。水無留影之心。此自釋上文之辭也。請以此喻分解之意自明矣。夫行人五陰。名之為鴈。現 前念佛之心。本自豎窮橫徧。故喻之以長空。一期之身。不久即滅。故稱為過。幻質雖有生滅。念性元無生滅。故名鴈過長空也。清涼國土。離諸熱惱。故名寒水。 此方念佛。彼土華開。勤惰纔分。榮枯頓異。故曰影沈也。又此土陰滅名鴈過。彼土陰生名影沈。此滅彼生。曾無前後。故得以喻之。此二句。釋上生則決定生也。 鴈絕遺踪之意。此明眾生不往。水無留影之心。此明諸佛不來。何以故。若有去者。即有程途。有程途。即有時分。云何此滅。彼生。間不容髮。若有來者。即有足 跡。有足跡。則此有彼無。不能周徧。云何十方應現。接引同時。當知法性如是。非有非無。豈容思議於其間哉。此二句。釋上云則實不去也。但法中單明不去。喻 中兼顯不來。是帶說耳。問。既云眾生不往。又云諸佛不來。則生西方者。為復即在此處。為復本無方所。得非如夢所見。非真實邪。答。不觀上影沈寒水之句乎。 言影沈寒水。則顯西方實有化生之身。但以求其往來之相本不可得。故言不去不來。子何迷悶之甚邪。去羣惡是斷德。集萬行。是智德居聖地。是四十一位真因。同 佛知見。是開示悟入之理。


[正文]   向之一人者。終與十二類同而不變也。

[解]   此明不念佛之害。言十二類者。謂卵胎濕化。有色。無色。乃至非有想。非無想。如楞嚴所明。此之十二皆眾生數攝。若證四果。出三界。則非十二類所能攝矣。 問。參禪念佛。均之為了生死。吾人祗患心性未明。心性苟明。則孰非淨土。三界本空。何出之有。十二類非實。何同之有。佛尚不可得。何況眾生。答。如汝所言 皆有名無義。但取一時快論。並不知利害也。吾試問子。汝證四果邪。曰。未也。曰。既未證四果。則是凡夫。盡此一生。必受後有。若受後有。不在人天。則在三 途。終不出十二類。汝尚不能超欲界。何況能出色無色界。尚不能超三途。況能超佛問。聲聞證四果。此身尚在。豈非十二類攝。答。聲聞證四果。身雖未滅。不久 即滅。滅則受法性身。居方便土。出三界外。譬如旅舍寄客。不久出門。其家眷屬不得以家人目之。聲聞暫寄三界。亦復如是。問諸佛菩薩有時化度眾生。示現世 間。必假胞胎父母。豈非亦是胎生。當何所攝。答。諸佛度生。示理胞胎父母。既云示現。則雖有非實。豈得實判眾生。收歸十二類邪。其寂光實報二土。是佛菩薩 本所住處。此乃暫現耳。間若爾。何故經論中。十法界。總名眾生。答此乃通論。葢三乘人出三界。尚有變易生死。佛亦有常住五陰。故得名焉。今乃捨通從別。祇 論分投主死。不論變易及以常住。故不可以彼難此問。西方淨土亦有化生。豈非十二類攝。答。淨土雖有化生。然身非分段。純一化生。故無十二類。(分是分 限段是形段以彼土壽命無量故無分限形體無方變化不一若有若無故非形段)況 生彼土。便入聖流。直至成佛更不受身。豈得名為十二類邪。問禪宗悟達之士。見性已徹。其于三界。不出不入。于十二類。不捨不受。隨緣寄寓方便度生。有何不 可。答。悟達之士。雖有見地。不斷惑業。若生三界。一入胞胎。便成隔陰。從前所悟尋復忘失。畢世工夫。一朝唐喪。可不惜哉。更有業焉。牽入異類。汝又安能 自主。而不被惡報之所障邪。若生彼土。親近導師。一入聖階。便登佛地。較之浮沈三界。出入胞胎。孰得孰失。宜自思之。故知不悟則已。悟則求生西方。當愈急 焉。如人得寶。須覔善地藏之。方得受用。否則終致散失。悟達往生。亦復如是。當知欲超生死。無過淨土一門。若在此土而能出離。斷無是處。願無爭口舌。幸平 氣而思之。


[正文]   夫二人之相違也。不若二瓠之水哉。今不知去一而取一。甚矣(按下文 當有其惑也三字)

[解]   此總結前文以明去取也。夫像季之世。豈唯宗教之士宗趣相違。如二瓠之水。即同一法門。同一師學。知見不同。其類非一。葢正見之難遇。邪徒之易親。亦已久 矣。今論去取。宜知利害。如上所陳。信毀得失。利害皎然。何有智者。而不知去取。嗚呼。今人莫不求利。而常失利。亦莫不避害。而常遇害。何哉。大抵心不虗。行不實。知見不正故也。是故。修心之士。務虗其心。實其行。端其知見。以聖教為明鏡。以師友為鞭策。自始至終。戰兢惕勵。庶幾無大害矣。否則終身受害。恬然不知。及其將死。尚不自悟。以至空過一生。遺恨千古者多矣。是皆不知去取也。甚矣。是責辭。言智不如歸海葫蘆之水也。可勝歎哉。


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此文來自淨土宗的書籍吧...  我不是很確定, 也有點懶的去察證...  

雖說這是釋教的解釋.  但是, 並不因此掩蓋他的價值.  甚至可以說, 古代的解釋更勝現代.  他用了一大堆的佛教詞語, 但是, 對於不同的人和他們在學習時的所遭遇的過程, 難題, 和不同的人對於如何探索外界和如何認識自身的現象, 都有描述和闡釋.  我覺得很有意思. 

Friday, September 28, 2012

some thoughts

i got a game informer magazine, a special issue celebrating 25 years of zelda games.  I kept thinking what makes zelda games so popular. 

Compared to the latest zelda game with contemporary titles, I could not really find much.  But by looking back at ocarina of time and compare it to the titles at the time.  A huge difference shows.  Ocarina was the first great 3D action adventure RPG.  At the time, there's none in the market that can compare it to it.  The open world design and the fluidity of the control, plus variety of gameplay, it is the skyrim of its time. 

Fast forward to the present day.  I read many reviews actually think the latest zelda game is not as open as the ocarina.  The game design is just as tight as before.  And the market now has skyrim, batman Arkham City, assassin's creed series...etc.  The advantage seemed dwindling.  The most innovation of zelda of this generation is the motion control.  However, from what I gathered, this innovation doesn't really sell the game as well as its game design as a whole.  Nintendo will need to find another way to boost its super series. 

I feel that ocarina pushed the boundary of the video game industry.  But since then, other people stepped on the way nintendo paved and goes beyond, far beyond the scope, nintendo envisioned.  Elder Scroll was 77.58% in 1998 and rightly so.  But it is 95.22% in 2011, the same time, zelda got a score of 93.11%.  Elder Scroll in 2011 is one of very few largest open world.  Zelda is not one of them. 

I've always thought that the boundary zelda needs to push this time around would be combat.  Because I've thought that if they could create a zelda game with Soul Calibur 2-esque fighting style, that would be awesome.  But that's not true.  Because Skyward sword plays like Mount and blade is an awesome experience!  However, it is not the main reason it scored 93.11%.  I now think it's the game design as a whole is the main reason. 

It is a very interesting problem.  Because compared to the Assassin's creed series, Zelda is designed in a different direction, in my opinion right now.  Assassin's creed 1 was a disappointment to some, because as a whole, the game felt more like a tech demo.  This game rode into the market with one single appeal, climb anywhere players wanted.  And it delivered just that.  Other parts of the game was boring or at most a lukewarm effort.  It is not until AC2, the game finally blossomed into a great game.  The designers crafted a game with a much tighter design as a whole.  Compared to the zelda, Zelda always have very tight design as a whole.  It's combat simple, yet addictive and not much fault in itself.  There's no platforming in 3D zelda, since there's no jump.  But everything else, is fantastic.  What I would like to find out is that "everything else".  And once we could identify that, we can then add stuff to push the boundary. 

It is amazing that throughout 25 years, Nintendo did not lose the feel of zelda game.  I wondered if designers made zelda more like elder scroll, what would happen amount the fans.  And would that draw crowds?  Or the series would lose its uniqueness among the similar titles?  To me, the feel of zelda game is incredibly important.  It makes the game stand out.  However, they do need a breakthrough.  I cannot stop thinking beyond game mechanics.  So I will utter my thoughts according to this line of thought.  I'd say that Nintendo try to avoid one of the most difficult gameplay mechanics in 3D gaming which is jumping by designing an auto jump.  I'd say if they want to break new boundary, they need to solve the jump issue now.  Because, frankly, none of the games nowadays could claim they solved that issue.  The most common method for platforming is climbing, which was popularized by Prince of Persia series by the same studio that makes assassin's creed.  But I cannot believe that a company, which created Mario in 2D and 3D, cannot solve this issue for Zelda?!  I like the climbing, parkouring, and all that, but I also wish to see a Mario like jumping integrated into Zelda or any other similar games.  Climbing and parkouring are fun for a while, until repetitiveness sets in.  Jumping is empowering to me personally.  :p 

Thursday, September 27, 2012

from laughs

我最近常在 youtube 看一個節目, 叫做 just for laughs.  是一個惡作劇的節目.  大部分的惡作劇, 其實都還滿有趣的.  但是, 他們的手法讓我有點害怕.  因為他們作弄人的主要手段都是請沒有機心的過路人來幫他們的忙, 然後從中惡搞. 

我現在在看倩女幽魂三, 女鬼第一次和小和尚接觸, 他的手法也是一樣, 向小和尚求救.  大凡真正修行的人都不會對財色動心.  所以女鬼要鬆動小和尚, 或著是找機會接近他,就得要用求救的方式.  這和 just for laughs 的手法很相像!  

 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

輕笑


《輕笑》






黃友棣曲      徐訏詞

你灑了滿室衣香,撒了一地輕笑
於是你匆匆外出,留下門簾飄搖
我乃遍拾遺笑,編成美麗歌謠
還把你半怒全嗔,算作裡面曲調
等到晨曦升時,我將它掛到桃梢
他日桃花再香,鄰人都稱花嬌
但往來唯有黃鶯,學習花頂歌謠
引來遠近來客,齊說鶯歌美妙
可是此中幽情,到底無人知曉
唯我痴心長記,歌中是你輕笑
如你他日歸來,已失當年愛嬌
記取黃鶯聲中,是你嗔怒輕笑


gone crazy

no matter the wind blowing,
or the snow falling,
a pair of wings grow out my back.

the sky is high above.
look with my eyes and pray.
pray the wings will fly.
fly me high into that blue sky.

gone crazy

but snow is falling
the wind is blowing
there will be dole hiding in the woods
there will be not sun in the darkness.
there, no more buds.
with the wings, impossible flying

 gone crazy


you look, you watch, the sky is falling.
the cloud is dropping.
and the ground is parting.
 you watch,
my wings will bring me,
soar under the sun.
it will break the cloud,
making it a hole,
with debris behind.
it will leave snow,
plot a circle swirl amount the flakes.

gone crazy

am I? 

梁襄王

孟子見梁襄王。出,語人曰:「望之不似人君,就之而不見所畏焉。卒然問曰:『天下惡乎定?』吾對曰:『定于一。』『孰能一之?』對曰:『不嗜殺人者能一之。』『孰能與之?』對曰:『天下莫不與也。王知夫苗乎?七、八月之間旱,則苗槁矣。天油然作云,沛然下雨,則苗槁然興之矣。其如是,孰能御之?今夫天下之人牧,未有不嗜殺人者也;如有不嗜殺人者,則天下之民皆引領而望之矣。誠如是也,民歸之,由水之就下,沛然誰能御之?』」

爲什麼孟子會說梁襄王望之不似人君?  

另外, 孟子說他自己, 就 '梁襄王' 而不見所畏焉, 我不大懂這句話的意思.  這句的意思是說, 孟子在梁襄王身邊時, 他希望看到梁襄王身上有令他害怕敬畏的特質嗎?  如果是這樣, 孟子又怎能 "說大人而邈之" 呢?  


這又突然讓我想到這一句:  


孟子自范之齊,望見齊王之子。喟然歎曰:「居移氣,養移體,大哉居乎!夫非盡人之子與?」
 
孟子曰:「王子宮室、車馬、衣服多與人同,而王子若彼者,其居使之然也;況居天下之廣居者乎?魯君之宋,呼於垤澤之門。守者曰:『此非吾君也,何其聲之似我君也?』此無他,居相似也。」


第一句話讓我去比較了一下孟子和其他諸侯的交流.  我感到其他諸侯在講話的時候都會提到自身的感覺, 思想, 目標, 態度...等等.  例如:

孟子見梁惠王。王曰:「叟不遠千里而來,亦將有以利吾國乎?」   (梁惠王上一)

孟子見梁惠王,王立於沼上,顧鴻鴈麋鹿,曰:「賢者亦樂此乎?」  (梁惠王上二
)
梁惠王曰:「寡人之於國也,盡心焉耳矣。河內凶,則移其民於河東,移其粟於河內。河東凶亦然。察鄰國之政,無如寡人之用心者。鄰國之民不加少,寡人之民不加多,何也?」  (梁惠王上三)

梁惠王曰:「晉國,天下莫強焉,叟之所知也。及寡人之身,東敗於齊,長子死焉;西喪地於秦七百里;南辱於楚。寡人恥之,願比死者一洒之,如之何則可?」  (梁惠王上五)

王曰:「然。誠有百姓者。齊國雖褊小,吾何愛一牛?即不忍其觳觫,若無罪而就死地,故以羊易之也。」..............王笑曰:「是誠何心哉?我非愛其財。而易之以羊也,宜乎百姓之謂我愛也。」(梁惠王上七)

王曰:「大哉言矣!寡人有疾,寡人好勇。」  (梁惠王下一)

滕文公問曰:「滕,小國也,間於齊楚。事齊乎?事楚乎?」  (梁惠王下廿二)

 
 
 梁襄王和孟子的對話則不是如此.  

至於第二句和第一句的的關係是啥, 我還得想想...  

 

Monday, September 24, 2012

i cannot read

I cannot read.  I haven't been able to have a peace of mind and sit down to read.  It's been a while now.  Probably more than a year.  It's not like I haven't read anything.  But the joy of reading without being criticizing is gone.  Instead of the joy, I constantly feel like I have something I want to throw up.  Yes, throw up.  But nothing comes out.  Nothing.  Either that, or I am disgusted by what I want to vomit. 

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

downdowndown

in a bad mood...  trying to get myself out... 

如果有人提到民主,多半指的是投票. 

天聽自我民聽, 天視自我民視.  現在要問的是, 老百姓聽到了看到了之後, 他們要如何表現出來?  全國性每人一票似乎是個好方法. 


will penny was not a bad movie.  the dialogue at the end was really touching.  It kept the movie in a realistic direction.  But it was not exciting either. 


jo4al fm4xk7
  . 

Thursday, September 13, 2012

memorable notes from open court

memorable notes from open court of NBA TV.

Kenny Smith(most embarrassing):  When he was a kid, he played a close game.  Close to the end of game, Kenny's team was up for a point or two.  Coach called a timeout, and said to his players, "now, now, we are just going to sit on the ball."  Young Kenny never heard of this phrase before, but Coach gave no time for question.  Right after Young Kenny got the ball on the court, he immediately put the ball on the ground and sat on it!  The whole court was laughing, including the coach!  After the game, coach said to Young Kenny, "well, one thing for sure, kid, you are coachable!"

Reggie Miller(storyteller):  After Michael Jordan retired from the second repeat triple Championships, Pacers was visiting Chicago the first time.  Very close to the end, Reggie made a three pointers right in front of Steve Kerr with one second left. Reggie came to the center court and thought, "I'm like Michael Jordan is not around, I am the new face of shooting guards in the league.  So I bowed at half court to the audience in Chicago stadium...and everyone is booing..."   Phil Jackson took a timeout, then the Scottie Pippen brought the ball up and gave the ball to Tony Kukoc.  Tony immediately shot a three pointer as Reggie Miller was guarding him.  Reggie saw the ball went above him and through the net.  Right after the buzzer sounded, look who's running after Reggie, and bowed right at him?  It's little Steve Kerr! 

 Shaquille O'Neal(Hakeem or Patrick): Hakeem has evreything....most other players have at best one or two moves, but Hakeem was very unpredictable on the block.   ...And mentally he is a guy you couldn't break, like all the other guys, if I said anything on the paper, especially the Georgetown boys....you know, if you say something to Hakeem, or throw Hakeem an elbow, and he just looked at you and said(Shaq with an imitation of Hakeem's smile), "nice move, big fellow."  /////  Patrick was mean, you know, all the Georgetown guys were mean. 

Vanished big man:  first stats is that Shaq was the only big man to be in the 5 top scorers in the last 15 years.  So where's all the big man? 

1.  European big men have different style.  When they came into NBA, the big men has to evolve as well.  European big men was taught to face the basket, like a forward, when they were young.  Steve Smith said that nowadays coaches teach big men to play facing the basket, not many people still teaching back to the basket, or post moves. 

2.  The game has evolved to become so fast.  Most big men cannot survive, or at least unable to dominate both ends. 

3.  Historically, there are not many big man anyway.  As Charles Buckley and Steve Kerr pointed out, really big man are rare. 

4.  Yao was a great player, if he's injured free, he will be come one of the best players in NBA history. 

5.  Shaq could stay healthy through his career is really amazing. 


英文片語

rue the day:  bitterly regret what they have done.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

戰國時代

你難道不知道, 現在就是戰國時代? 

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

simple blood

I watched blood simple because I saw a chinese remake from 張藝謀.  It was pretty good.  One of the things that surprised me was the the last line from the female protagonist.  I thought the movie played into the difference of what it was showing to the audience, and what the characters of the movie saw. 

I did not finished the Chinese remake, for I didn't like the dialogue, and one of the actor.  :p 

a quote I saw

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference. 

-------Reinhold Niebuhr, the serenity prayer

I saw it on a plaque hung on Louis' wall.  

Monday, September 10, 2012

Afterthought on CP

I watched Nuovo Cinema Paradiso the second time last night.  I did not like it the first time.  I love it this time though.  I wonder why. 

It is a coming of age movie.  A boy from small town, grew to become successful, and came back visiting the town.  It has nostalgia feeling with the old cinema memory.  I've watched a few movie with the same theme, for example:  Hugo(most recently). 

It is most curious that when I first watched this, I did not like the romantic part.  I wonder why that is.  I felt it was fake, or not possible.  But the seoncd time, I felt I accept the possibility of such romance.  Then everything came together. 

How come I felt it was fake then?  I must had felt that if you cannot take care of the girl you love, there's no way you should take a girl as a girlfriend.  This time, while I was watching, puppy love went up in my brain all the time.  Yes, the thought of puppy love made me accept the storyline. 

Friday, September 07, 2012

太白粉

最近媽媽做了一次大福(麻糬).  我們還特地在中國城依照食譜上為了防黏手而買了黃豆粉.  沒想到的是錯就錯在這黃豆粉上...  黃豆粉加在麻糬上, 很不好吃! 

今天, 媽媽和妹妹說起這件事.  妹妹也在兩天前吃到黃豆粉的麻糬, 結果難吃地快要吐了.   妹妹今天就趕快建議不要用黃豆粉, 可以改用綠茶粉.  因為他上次自己再做的時候, 也是用綠茶粉. 

現在晚上了, 媽媽突然叫我在網上找找看, 有無其他的粉可以代替黃豆粉.  我想畢竟綠茶粉不容易買到. 如果有其他的代替品會更好.   所以我馬上就上網找了一下.  我本來輸入麻糬外面是什麼, 結果 google 的結果都很差.  後來我再嘗試輸入 "麻糬外面白白的是什麼?"  結果也不佳.  最後我到台灣雅虎奇魔, 回來的條目比較好.  而且, 說一句實在話, 雅虎知識真的是一個很棒的蒐尋工具.  至少搜尋中文來看, 要比 google 好! 

很多人都提到可以用太白粉.  但是也有人提到熟粉這個名詞.  我就糊塗了... 繼續深入查詢後, 浮現一些有趣的資料. 

首先, 太白粉, 台灣來說, 是用樹薯粉做的.  日本的話是用馬鈴薯粉做的.  也有人說, 日本的是葛粉.  另外還有人提到粟粉, 大部分人說, 這一名詞是香港來的.  另外還有其他名詞...  其實就是玉米粉.  

每個地方的生粉似乎都不大一樣...  可能是玉米粉(香港), 可能是樹薯粉(台灣).  再來, 太白粉也可能是馬鈴薯粉或者是番薯粉...  :p  我愈搞愈糊塗!  

一直以來, 我以為這幾種粉是可以互換的.  但是, 實際上, 他們在運作上是有差異的.  只是, 都可以拿來做勾欠用.  但, 即使是這樣, 反應的程度還是有所不同.  我抄錄一段文字:  

"
首先我們要先了解哪些粉適合做勾芡用,妳才能正確的用在烹調上.

生粉是港式食譜中常出現的名辭,多是用來勾芡用的,在香港使用的生粉太白粉生粉在中式烹調上除了勾芡使食物產生滑潤的口感之外,亦常用來做為軟化肉質的醃肉料之一。 上一頁
說到勾芡,用得最多的當屬太白粉了。太白粉又分成以下二個種類(其實此二種都是台灣製的),差別如下表:

種類 : 台灣太白粉 , 日本太白粉
色澤 : 較暗 ,  較白
黏性 : 弱 , 強
價格 : 低 ,  高
稀釋比率:水 1:1 1:2

沾裹食物入鍋炸酥,亦是常見的太白粉用途,此外,凡是炸好後需要淋上調味汁,或需回鍋與調味料快速拌勻盛出的菜也都是太白粉的傑作,例:糖醋魚、糖醋排骨、糖醋里肌、咕嚕肉等。

2.太白粉有分:(日本太白粉:是由馬鈴薯制成)黏性和(台灣太白粉:是由樹薯粉所制成的)黏性溫和~故用日本太白粉勾芡的話量要比台灣的要(調合水和粉的比例而定)摸起來較為滑膩~細緻~從外觀就很好分辨ㄌ


二.用法不同:

1.通常蕃薯粉是用於炸東西(如炸豬排).和醃東西(如肉羹用ㄉ肉條).做點心.甜點(如粉圓)但是蕃薯粉也可用於勾芡~不過穩定性效果較太白粉差~倒入湯汁中攪拌太慢容易結塊

2.太白粉通常用於勾芡(如羹湯~或炒菜)和醃東西(如過油的東西).調麵糊時也可加

3.也可將兩種粉在混合麵粉成為三合粉效果不錯唷~你可以試試~

4.蕃薯粉用來炸的效果比太白粉好(比較酥脆)~但有些東西用太白粉炸比較漂亮

5.不同ㄉ食用粉加在一起會有不同的變化和差異~但要依不同的食材特性而定~只要多學多聽多看~多做就會ㄌ~

三溶解速度.濃稠度.價格不同

加熱時容解速度以太白粉最快.蕃薯粉較慢(日本和台灣ㄉ差別是在於加熱後所產生ㄉ稠度末加熱前都是一樣的~只是生粉ㄉ外觀有些許的不同~滑

膩度:日本ㄉ較滑~台灣的差不多)

濃稠度:日本太白粉>台灣太白粉>蕃薯粉

價格:日本太白粉>台灣太白粉和蕃薯粉價格差不多(依品質而異)

粟粉就是玉米粉(Corn Starch), 跟太白粉一樣有勾芡黏稠的作用
太白粉不是玉米粉 太白粉是樹薯粉

玉米粉玉白色玉米粉,是一種玉米澱粉,英文叫做 Corn Starch,它與太白粉類似,具有凝膠作用。

一 般在西點製作時,食譜上的玉米粉多半指的就是玉米澱粉,如做派餡、蛋糕等等。一般在做蛋糕時也加入少量的玉米粉,可以降低麵粉筋度,增加蛋糕鬆軟口感,但 是用量最好在麵粉用量的 20% 之內,如果用量過多,反而影響蛋糕架構,不但膨脹度受到限制,而且會使蛋糕組織粗糙而且口感乾粉。

玉米粉在港式食譜中又稱『生粉』、『粟粉』、『鷹粟粉』、『豆粉』。生粉的作用和台式食譜中的太白粉類似,用來幫助肉質柔軟以及湯汁勾芡之用。但是,太白粉勾芡的湯汁在放涼後會變得較稀,稱為『還水』,玉米粉勾芡的湯汁『還水』現象較不明顯,因此,雖然在中式料理中,玉米粉與太白粉經常是可以互替的,但在西點製作上,仍以玉米粉為主,尤其是派餡塔餡等。
一般食譜如果沒有特別指明,玉米粉指的就是白色的玉米澱粉。

其實妳可以考慮用日本太白粉,雖然價格貴一點,但它的黏稠度會比台灣太白粉來的好,或者用玉米粉勾芡看看,玉米粉勾芡放涼後的湯汁『還水』現象較不明顯."


(http://tw.knowledge.yahoo.com/question/question?qid=1608042405021&q=1511021707906&p=%E5%A4%AA%E7%99%BD%E7%B2%89)

再就熟粉而言, 似乎有人認為生粉吃下肚子裡不好, (雖說我也不知道有啥不好), 所以又出現熟粉這一名詞.  所謂熟粉就是把生粉炒一炒, 只要沒有焦氣, 就可以拿來做麻糬.   

另外, 有人說綠豆粉也可以生粉, 而且他是最好的生粉...  理由, 我也不確定...  :p  

題外話, 有一大陸網站說, 以前台灣的太白粉其實也是馬鈴薯粉, 只是近幾年來, 東南亞進口的太白粉都是樹薯做的.   蠻有趣的, 不知道到底是怎樣...  

總結:  所以為了製作方便, 防止黏手, 以上的粉都可以用...  ;D  

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

favorite food

I was in a dream last night.  I sat at a table directly across a kid, who's sitting at another table with a lot of food in on it.  I smiled at the kid and said, "wow, you have a lot to eat!  You must be hungry!" 

The kid looked at him with a frown between his brows.  He said, "yeah, but i am wondering which dish should I start..."

I looked at his table and thought it was kind funny.  Some people have too much food, some don't.  The problems from the two groups cannot be equal.  And yet, I could see the kid really was troubled.

I suggested, "you don't mind me giving you some advice?"

The kid looked up from all the food and his thought, said, "no, not all, I will need all the Help I get."

"This is an old habit of mine," said I, "I usually started with the food I don't like, then I will eat my way up to my favorite dish."

"I thought of that."  the kid replied, "but the problem is that I have too many food.  If I did what you described, I think I will have a bellyful of food that I don't like, before I could have my favorite dish.  And plus, even if I still had space for my favorite food, they were cold and not as good as before."

I said, "oh, clever guy, that was what happened to me!"  I smiled.  "Then what about the other way around?"

"You mean, my favorite food first?"

"Yeah,, that way you could enjoy your favorite food fresh and hot.  After your favorite food, you can then decide whether or not you will eat the less ones."

The kid now had a valley between his brows.  He shook his head, "no, I can't do that...  I have to finish my food!  Or it would be a big waste!" 

"Wow, you have to?"  I asked.

"Yeah, that's the deal with my dad...  he's the chef here."

Wow, I thought o myself, poor kid...

"Hope you don't have to eat like this everyday..."

The kid suddenly lightened up, "hahaha, no, no, my dad did not force me to eat his food."

"Oh, then what happened?"

 "It is I who did not know what I really want and ordered everything from the menu...  Then my dad found out, and got mad at me..."

"Hahaha!"

"And the worst thing is not even that, because I don't even know which dish is my favorite dish...  I feel like I have a big appetite and could eat everything.  But I know it's a illusion now..."

I said good luck to the kid,

Then I woke up. 

Monday, September 03, 2012

教中文

幾天前, 我給一個美國小孩上中文課.  我心中想到的的主題是, 你要什麼, 我要這個.  假想的情節的是買東西時, 和店員的對話.

過程還好.  但是, 我認為我可以更好一點.

你要什麼和我要這個, 這兩種句型, 一旦可以聽懂, 說清楚後. 可以有很多很多的變化.  也就是說, 可以在, 你要__什麼和我要__這個中間, 加各式各樣的動詞. 什麼後面也可以其他名詞.  這個的個字也可以換成其他單位名詞.   這兩種句型說是比較靈活的語法.  也非常實用.

這位小朋友對中文的象形字似乎是看過書上描述過.  所以我也就順水推舟的把造字的六義稍微說了一遍.

認字的方法也因為六義講過後, 我就把一個部首邊旁給他,叫他去找找他看過的中文裡有無這個部首.  這個部首是人.  我跟他說, 在他武功道場裡, 有一個字有這個邊旁.  不知道他會不會去找.

我也無和他再約下一次上課的時間, 不知道會不會有下一次...  :p 

煎上色

有皮的雞肉要煎上色前, 一定要擦乾, 這要煎, 才能夠上色! 

Saturday, September 01, 2012

I played basketball today.

I played basketball today.  I went to the court for about 40 minutes, then my neighbor, Nick brought his son and 3 other people to the court.  There were 2 people playing other than me, all of us decided to play 4 vs. 4, half court.  It was a good opportunity for me, I haven't had many chances to play team games.  We played two games, I performed poorly.  It's like I wasn't putting too much into games.  I played in a reserved mode, and for that, one of my team mates was not very happy.  :p 

In the mid of the second game, two other players came to the court.  One of them is Sean, I've played a few pickup games with him and few players, who were probably from Lawrence, this summer.  We decided to play a 5 on 5 full court.  I was pathetic.  I was out of breath quickly.  And once out of breath, I pretty much lost control of every other functions as well...  I could not catch balls, and I could not help out at either ends.  I resorted to defense at last.  The team mate, who was not happy with me, tried hard to pass ball to other people.  But I might judge it wrong, because, other people might present a better options.  :p  And the few times he passed the ball to me, I squandered those opportunities.  Le sigh... 

We lose the first full court game, then got them back in the second.  All because of the player who was not happy with me.   The second game was extremely close, he scored the last 2 key points.  Nick sealed the deal with a 3 pointer.  My mom appeared in the the end of the game, for she'd been waiting for me to go to dinner...  :p  When I saw her, I said, :p. oh, oh, I should had called... 

When we finally went to dinner at McDonald's, I kept telling my mom how bad I was...  I must be frustrated with myself...  I must also be excited about a team game.  I must also feel uncomfortable when people not passing the ball to me.  I kept myself smile and try to present a light-hearted atmosphere.  It's not all fake, when I see a great play, it always gives me a great joy.  However, I did feel frustrated and uncomfortable in the games.  Because, I had a feeling of great disconnect.  There were a few times, I got ball in my hand and had to make decision when and who to pass.  The ball would get stolen because of my sloppiness.  It also came from a indecisiveness.  The window of opportunity in sports is always slim and short lived.  When players' eyes meet, the window opened.  But once the other guy made a move, and I chickened, or thought too much, the window then closed instantly.  When the window opened, the connection of two players was already established.  The window closed, the connection lost.  That's when I felt disconnected, and the other guys frustrated. 

I am also very tired from running.  And it is very true that I lost breath quickly, and once that happened, I lost control and drive to step up the play.  There was even once that I cramped my left lower leg.  It always so happen that I lost breath quickly, and my liver hurts.   I would feel sore muscle after a prolonged event.  But  I somehow would regain control then, and breathing becomes more stable.  My pain in the liver area would ceased too.  Muscle would be really tire though, cramp would happen for example.  I felt that Yoga helped in the perspective that My lower back was not hurt.  But in terms of cardio, it did not help much.