Tuesday, January 26, 2021

Review on my exercise

 I started to plan and record exercise I did in December.  But the effort frizzled out around 4th week.  I was just checking my desk and fount it out.  I had a bit injury at the end of that period.  So I took it easy for a while, hoping I  could get back on track.  But I never did.  I kept reminding myself that when I was younger, it was my mom who pushed us to swim almost everyday.  I hope that by reminding myself this, I would push myself hard.  It did not pan out that way.  


I am going to try it out again.  Let's be clear, I want to plan with easy exercise that I could count in easy terms like repetition, duration, and sets.  But it has to be easy.  The activity designated cannot be vague.  The plan should be easy to follow, complicated ones always fail.  Ambition is good, put it to work for persistence, preservation, rather than difficult and hard activities.  


When I first started I only planned 100 pushups a day, doesn't matter it's done in one sitting or it's done is 100 sittings.  Right at this moment, I'd say the same thing. 

Either 10 downdogs a day, or 100 pushups a day.  If I could not get 100 push ups, I do 10 downdogs.   If I want extra, of course, but for this week utnil Friday, this is the only plan I want to follow.  


Thanks,

Jack

Sunday, January 24, 2021

黑暗神聖的夜讀後感

 Dark Sacred Night Afterthought

Plot:

Renee Ballard and Harry Bosch teamed up to solve a cold case.  Along the way, they solved other crimes as well.  


Thought:

Just finished reading last night,  hardly put it down.  I've already borrowed it once, but I was tired of Bosch series at that point.  So I skipped it after 32% of reading.  This time I blew through the beginning portion fairly quickly.  I guess I started to flip through some other parts as well, knowing what I want to read, what I don't want o read helps to speed things up.  

I like Renee, like Bosch said she's 1 in 100, the real detective material.  Not only she cares about the case but also has a knack on what's important to the case; and she has the grit to follow through the case as well.  The problem with these kind of story really is that everybody here has a dark background, no real family or other relationships except working colleagues.  The world is very bleak and narrow here.  But I have to say Renee and Bosch works well.  They shared something in common.  Bosch is a lot older, Renee has her own experience as well.  They both are detective material and leadership type of people.  They communicate on the same level.  

There are quite a number of cases here.  And yet the central theme of the novel is always on point, never spin out of control.  That speaks of the author's ability to tell a multi threads story.  And Renee is an interesting representative of the female in a male dominated field.  The view of a female was consistent and persistent but never overwhelming.   I also liked the ending.  I felt it's a clever way to put Bosch's internal struggle into a real world action.  Like it said at the end, bend the rules but not break them.  

The ending reminds me of the serial killer in Devil in the White City.  And I think it's a convenient ending.  Author writes a pretty intense scene so I do like the ending.  But how it find this person is quite abrupt.  But I guess it could be real as well...  

Sunday, January 17, 2021

致命的恩典讀後感

A Fatal Grace Afterthought

I'd waited this book for a long time, maybe 20 weeks+.  I am reserving the next book in the series, and my wait time is 22 weeks!  And I can totally see why.  

I feel this one is more fast paced compared the first one.  The characters are even more flashed out.  I find their quirkiness delightful.  I was bugged down by the last book a little bit because of the Agent Nicole storyline.  But this time, I felt there's less tension on the surface.  And whatever conspiracy there was, it created enough intrigue rather than bugging down the flow.  I was reading another review about the book, and I agreed that the author created a really good cast of people, who are likeable and yet depth as well.  

It's kind funny that I already guessed who the murderer was, but towards the end, I was happy to be led to believe otherwise.  Then I found I was right in the beginning.  Sometimes I just lost myself in the stories.  It is a great escapist book!  

There're some poems quoted in the book, I found them quite interesting.  And I read somewhere the author did not write her own poems but quoted from other sources, here're some that  I found interesting(Bold meant author used this portion in the book):


Who hurt you, once,

so far beyond repair

that you would meet each overture

with curling lip?

While we, who knew you well,

your friends, (the focus of your scorn)

could see your courage in the face of fear,

your wit, and thoughtfulness,

and will remember you

with something close to love.”

(This is a poem by Marylyn Plessner titled, "Lady Mink: A Sort of Requiem" and is from her book, Vapour Trails. Marylyn Plessner was a Canadian who lived in England for much of her life.)



You're sad because you're sad.
It's psychic. It's the age. It's chemical.
Go see a shrink or take a pill,
or hug your sadness like an eyeless doll

you need to sleep.


Well, all children are sad
but some get over it.
Count your blessings. Better than that,
buy a hat. Buy a coat or pet.
Take up dancing to forget.

Forget what?
Your sadness, your shadow,
whatever it was that was done to you
the day of the lawn party
when you came inside flushed with the sun,
your mouth sulky with sugar,
in your new dress with the ribbon
and the ice-cream smear,
and said to yourself in the bathroom,
I am not the favorite child.


My darling, when it comes
right down to it
and the light fails and the fog rolls in
and you're trapped in your overturned body
under a blanket or burning car,

and the red flame is seeping out of you
and igniting the tarmac beside your head
or else the floor, or else the pillow,
none of us is;
or else we all are.


(By Margaret Atwood, Sad Child)


Long dead, and buried in 

another town, 

my mother hasn't finished with me yet

When my death us do apart

Then shall forgiven and 

forgiving meet again,

Or will it be, as always was,

too late?

(cannot find author, maybe it is by Louise?  I find it haunting, especially the first 3 lines.)



The third day comes a frost, a killing frost,

And,—when he thinks, good easy man, full surely

His greatness is a-ripening,—nips his root,

And then he falls, as I do. 

(Shakepeare, Wolsey's Farewell, King Henry VIII)



The birds they sang
At the break of day
Start again
I heard them say
Don't dwell on what
Has passed away
Or what is yet to be.
Ah the wars they will
Be fought again
The holy dove
She will be caught again
Bought and sold
And bought again
The dove is never free.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.


We asked for signs
The signs were sent:
The birth betrayed
The marriage spent
Yeah the widowhood
Of every government
Signs for all to see.

I can run no more
With that lawless crowd
While the killers in high places
Say their prayers out loud.
But they've summoned, they've summoned up
A thundercloud
They're gonna hear from me.

Ring ring ring ring ring

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in

You can add up the parts
But you won't have the sum
You can strike up the march,
There is no drum
Every heart, every heart
To love will come
But like a refugee.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
That's how the light gets in.
That's how the light gets in.


(Song by Leonard Cohen, Anthem; I listened him singing, I also find it haunting and eerie.  Kind pessimistic, or maybe realistic?)  



Wednesday, January 06, 2021

翻譯練習2

 All  excerpts are from tamed anduntamed.  It's a collection of articles written by 2 columnists about animals.  This one is from ElizabethMarshallThomas.



Different information

-Liz-

It's difficult to summarize how any individual animal perceive the world, but it's extra difficult to do this for dogs in general.  No other species, not even our own, can approach the dog in physical variety -- a big Great Dane can be over three feet tall at the shoulder and weigh about two hundred pounds, yet it belongs to the same species as the Chihuahua, and weighing maybe nine pounds.  

第二稿

描述某一物種如何體驗這個世界是件困難的事,要描述狗的話那就更加困難了。  因為狗在體型上的多樣性不是其他生物所能望其項背的,即使人類也不行。  拿一隻巨型的大丹犬來說,他最高的肩高可以達到三英尺,體重可達兩百英鎊;可是跟他同一種的吉娃娃,也許只有九英鎊!


第一稿

要描述任何單一物種如何體驗這個世界是一件困難的事情,但是用一段文字來描寫所有的狗是如何體驗這個世界那就更困難了。 因為沒有其他物種能夠比得上狗在體型上的多樣性,即使人類也不行。  拿一隻巨型的大丹犬來說,他最高的肩高可以達到三英尺,體重可達兩百英鎊;可是跟他同一種的吉娃娃,也許只有九英鎊!


So to start with vision, your height makes a difference.  Just as you can see father when up on a ladder than when standing on the ground, so can a Great Dane see farther than a Chihuahua, a fact I notice every day when outdoors with my Chihuahua, whose visual world doesn't go beyond the lawn, or even much beyond his little nostrils when we're in long grass.  If you lie on your side with your head on the ground, you'll get an idea of his range.  He therefore isn't informed by vision as much as are those who are taller.  

我們先說說視覺吧,你的身高會造成視覺範圍的差異。 站在梯子上會比在地上看得遠,所以大丹狗會比吉娃娃看得更遠。 我每次溜我的吉娃娃時都會觀察到這個現象,他的視線無法超過草坪,如果草長一點,那他的視線只能停在自己的鼻尖。  如果你側躺著,頭放在地上,你約略可以感受他的視覺範圍。 因為這高度的問題,吉娃娃從視覺上得到的訊息遠比其他高個兒來的少。  


How about hearing?  Here he does better.  When he hears a meaningful sound, he turns to face it just as we would, as if to see what made it, and he's sensitive to sound even when he's sleeping.  At night he sleeps in my bed under the covers, and if he hears a suspicious noise he leaps up barking.  

那聽覺呢? 這個他就比較在行了。 當他聽到一個有意思的聲音,他會跟我們一樣轉身回頭去看看,聲音是哪兒來的;甚至睡覺時他對聲音也很敏感。  他晚上睡在我的被窩裡, 如果他聽到可疑的聲音,他會立刻跳出來汪汪大叫。


Of course, dogs are best informed by scent, and as we all know their sense of smell is vastly better than ours.  What's interesting about this little dog, therefore, is his realism about scent information.  When he's in my office and hears something, he jumps up to look out the window, sniffing as he does.  Thus he opens his eyes, his ears, and his nose to any evidence he can collect about what he's just heard.  

當然,狗最好的感官是嗅覺,大家都知道狗狗嗅覺的靈敏是遠遠超過人類的。 我這吉娃娃最有趣的地方就在於他自己是多重視嗅覺所帶來的訊息! 當他在我的書房聽到窗外的聲音,他不僅僅是跳起來試著望出窗外,甚至看可以看到他用力的抽動著鼻子。  在同一時間裡,他睜大了眼睛,豎起了耳朵和鼻孔來收集所有的資訊,試圖知道聲音來源到底是啥。


This changes when we go outside.  There the world of odors is readily available, and he run here and there with his nose to the ground, or, because he grew up in a city and is a city dog by heart, he also goes to my car and sniffs the tires.  

但是當他到戶外的時候,一切都不一樣了。 在戶外,這個世界的氣味是隨手可得,無論走到哪兒,他的鼻子總是貼著地面; 又因為他在城市裡長大,總是帶點城裡的習慣,他總會走向我的車去聞聞車子的輪胎。 


It makes sense if you think about it.  A sight or sound can vanish in an instant, but a scent will cling.  A sigh or sound may be experienced quickly and tends to transmit just a tiny, very specific amount of information -- often more than enough to tell you what you need to know.  But it doesn't compare to a scent, as a scent remains available for a long time, and just one sniff can load you with all kinds of information.  

仔細想想,這是有道理的。 聲色往往一過即逝,氣味卻會纏繞不走。 我們可以很快速地體驗聲音和影像,他們傳遞的訊息很獨特份量卻只有一點點 -- 大部分時候這一點點就足夠我們的所需。 但是這些是不能和氣味相比,氣味常常可以纏留很長一段時間, 而且只要鼻子一吸就會帶給你一堆的訊息。  


Let's say you look out the window and think you glimpse a mountain lion in your field.  You gasp and run out the door and around the house to see it better.  The dog run with you.  But then then nothing is there.  You, the human, see and hear nothing, the ground is dry and hard, and if in fact there was a mountain lion, it left no tracks.  

打個比方,假設你看出窗外好像發現了一隻美洲獅在你的院子裡。 你哇的一聲趕快跑出門到後院去看個仔細。 你的狗也跟了過來。 但是當你走到後院時,什麼也沒發現。 你,這個人類,無論用看的還是用聽的,什麼也沒有,地是又乾又硬,如果真有美洲獅,他也不可能留下任何足跡。 


For all you know, the whole thing was an illusion.  But while you stand there, looking around and wondering, the dog learns that a very large cat has just passed by, a female about four years old with kittens for whom she was lactating; that she had eaten recently, not from a fresh meat but carrion from a carcass, probably a small animal; and she moved her bowel not long before you saw her, so there's a scat in the woods, maybe fiver hundred feet from where you're standing.  

對你來說,美洲獅不過是一個幻覺。 但就在你呆呆站在院子裡,傻傻的不知道往哪裡看時,你的狗已經知道剛剛有一隻很大個兒的貓經過這裡,這隻貓是一個母的,大概四歲左右,剛生了幾隻小貓並且在給他們餵奶; 她最近吃才吃了一餐,不是特別好的一餐,因為不是新鮮的肉類,而是吃點死去的屍體,多半屬於小型動物;另外這隻貓就在你看到她不久前才大過便,可能就在不遠處的林子裡,離你站的地方五百英呎左右。 


You are (in this case) a mature human being with a college degree, and your dog is just a little nobody, utterly dependent on your care.  But in the end, who knows more about your surroundings?  You or him?  

(在這個例子裡)你是一個大學畢業的成人,你的狗完全要依靠你才能過活,什麼也不行。 但是說到最後,你認為誰才真正了解你所居住的環境,是你還是你的狗?


My favorite story about the power of the scent involves our marvelous veterinarian, Chuck DeVinne.  He's also our neighbor, and once when he was away on a trip, his dog went missing.  Now and then his dogs escape, and usually they come by my house, but since I hadn't seen them I was afraid that Chuck's dog was lost.  The entire neighborhood was on high alert, but our vision and hearing gave us nothing.  

我最喜歡的一個有關嗅覺的故事來自我們那個總是令人驚奇的獸醫,恰克。德維尼。 他同時也是我們的鄰居。 有一次他去旅行時,他的狗失蹤了。 以前,他養過不少狗,他們也都會自己去附近逛逛,通常都會到我家來走走。 但是,這一次我一個影子都沒瞧見,於是心中有了不祥的預感。 左鄰右舍也都提高了警覺,不過,我們的視覺和聽覺一點幫不上忙。 


But Chuck knew what to do.  As soon as he got home, he collected the clothes from his trip that were to be laundered and bundled them into his car.  He ran the motor with the heat on until the car was hot and the contents were warmed, then he opened the windows and rove slowly through the area where the dog was last seen.  His scent poured from the car for the wind to carry.  It clung to the bushes along the road that led to his house, and his dog found her way home quickly.  

只有恰克知道要做什麼。 他一回到家,就把他帶去旅行準備要洗的衣服都全部丟到車裡。 然後他發動引擎,開足了暖氣,等到車子裡面發熱,衣服都暖起來了,他打開車窗然後慢慢開著車子到他的狗最後一次出現的地方。 他的氣味從車子裡散發出去,透過窗子被風散播。 沿著這條回家的路,這味道纏繞在每一棵樹上。 他的狗很快的就自己找到路回家了。


Friday, January 01, 2021

WW民國七三 afterthought

 I watched the wonderwoman1984 last night.  It was a fun 2 and half hours.  It filled with technical difficulty, funny commentary, and another disappointment movie.  I had a good time though.  People getting together watching disappointing movies and making funny remarks, I felt it's becoming a trend.  LOL!!  Also want to mention, I put this movie on the same level as Mulan2.  

The first thing we encountered was the sound.  Somehow the sound was not clear, we kept turning the volume up.  And then we constantly trying different sound modes this TV set offered.  Movie sound, music sound, etc...  On top of that, we had to turn the volume down in some parts of the movie because it was too loud, and the location was an apartment.  It was not ideal.  But the setting felt more liberated to make comments, that's a plus.  And you were surrounded with friends, so they were more tolerating.  LOL.  The commentary was hilarious.  From beginning mall scene, we just cannot leave the intentional cheesy 80's vibe go.  And the "wholesome" family experience it provided.  The whole time I was trying to make a funny comment, I only succeeded  at the end, when the the Kristen showed up as an "Apex predator".  I had to yell out thunder cat, she literally looked like one!  

This movie was so convoluted.  The movie wanted to create a hero so personal, that audience can feel for her.  The movie want to create a villain or villains that audience can sympathize with.  Those are not bad ideas.  But during execution, the appearance of Christ's character was really weird.  And his impact was minimal in solving the second strand of plot.  Yet his screen time was at least 1/2 of the movie.  Way too long, but I could hardly call it un-necessary.  Because the severance was quite impactful.  You can't be without it, and yet it dragged the movie rhythm down.   

The second strand of the plot was the normal hero/villain line.  And does it serve the purpose?  I think so.  And the only reason I said it worked was only because the amazing performance of the the Mandalorian actor.  He's simply the best part of the movie.  GG was awesome in the movie.  But like I said the director/screenwriter did not really mesh the two strands of the plot smoothly.  I felt her connection with the villains was weakened significantly.  But Pedro really shone here.  Using a chinese phrase, 「收放自如".  The cheetah was important, but I felt it's a lost opportunity.  


I wish it could cut the screen time of Chris but find way to increase his impact, and please don't use this weird using other person's body method...  It's not all disappointment though.  The last speech from the hero was not a bad one, I quite liked it.  It was calm and filled with self realization.  It was a surprise and a good one.  I feel the effort in making the movie.  But it's not quite there to director's expectation, and neither to mine as well.  

欣賞就是快樂

 欣賞就是快樂

--羅蘭


        一個人,能夠安於手邊所有,眼前所見,在雜亂無章、晦暗無望的現實中,保有自己心中的天光雲彩,在生活的縫隙間去抓住翩然自足的快樂,自己的價值,就是在這樣的時時刻刻裡得到肯定,而不是懸個未來的目標去肯定。


        「樂享」 的心情不是來自外在的如意,而是來自內在的無私和對周圍小小事物的欣賞。 只要你有這份欣賞之情, 在繁忙雜亂的生活中也可以隨時發現愉悅和清新。 如果你會在做家事時,忽然發現一根蔥也有它的青翠之美,或偶抬頭,看見窗外一隻對你諦視的貓感到由衷的喜悅,你就是懂得樂享人生了。


        誰不期盼 「發揮自己的志趣」呢? 但期盼是一回事,現實又是一回事。 如何把這兩者合而為一,所靠的是對現實的認可,然後從既有的條件中找尋可用的素材來為自己鋪路。 其實, 連這 「鋪路」 的念頭都不必要有。


        對日抗戰初期,我在淪陷區鄉 下小學裡教書,既沒薪水可拿,又離我那 「升學」 之夢、音樂之夢無限遙遠。 但我欣賞鄉下的田園美景,愛那由娘娘廟改成的校園中的靜寂, 安享那自然界穩定從容的四季。  紙窗竹戶,煤油燈下,外面是如銀的雪夜,我寫毛筆字,抄古唐詩,把辭源當小說看,豈不真個是 「覓得桃園好避秦」? 而那段時間所帶給我的充實、寧靜,以及與自然共享優游歲月的踏實感,使我至今受惠無窮。 是那段日子,使我了解到道家思想之至美;也使我從古唐詩與辭源中領略在學校所不易學到的國文的真正內涵。 對我日後的思想與運用文字的能力大有助益。 這些, 就是我所能就地取材的磚石。 而當時,我也並未意識到自己是在 「鋪路」,只覺得那是在 「娛樂自己」。 寫毛筆字、讀古唐詩、瀏覽辭源,都是在娛樂自己;到田園去散步遊賞,採菓子來吃,途中欣賞河水的浩渺煙波及河上的帆檣,更是娛樂自己。 


        人生是一件值得歡呼樂享的事。 造物者給我們機會,送我們 「下凡」 來遊覽觀光,而我們為什麼偏偏要把它當成是一項痛苦難纏的任務,在那兒緊張不已呢? 讓我們的每一分秒都是一次愉快的完成,不是更可貴、更聰明、更快樂、更值得嗎?

--錄自 「八百字小語」