1. Japanese. I need to write and do it pretty much everyday. I don't need to sit down for a long time for it at each session. But a daily alotted time is important. I need to write it, but even more importantly, just to have contact with it. I will use cell phone apps daily.
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2. Excel, I will try Lynda. There are lessons in them, and I will follow them. But the other thing is I need to figure it out a way to use them in real life! My goal is to learn so I could use Macro. That's a lofty goal. Let's see what Lynda will take me.
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3. Cooking. 切肉絲, 肉片. 切洋蔥. 基本上就是基本的食材準備. 包括廚房的清潔! 整齊清潔是每天的事.
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4. House. Holes. Holes, Holes, and clean, organized. That includes my room. First of all my room! I will need to list, why I need to re-organize my room. And how should I change it. Holes on the wall! I can fix them. And I will start fix them! From today, until next Saturday(2/9/2018), I meant finish it next Saturday. I have three main projects, 1, near side porch entrance; 2, in my room; 3, the walls above first floor bathroom door frame!
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5. Drawing and Painting. First gather my tool! my sketchbook and some pens and pencils!
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6. Coding, I will try Lynda as well. But I do want to search online for free resources as well!
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7. Martial arts. My plan is to do it daily. Don't matter how many times, or don't need to be serious... Just do it!
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8. Yoga. Keep a journal. I need to jot down one today...
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9. Medical vocabulary. use quiz it to make vocabulary cards!
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10. Reading plays, I will get a William Tennessee's play, if MHL has it.
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11. Play with my money. My first step is to see how much I have right now... le sigh...
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12. Planting. Yes, Start to put the seeds in the water now, especially the cilantro seeds...
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There, that's my plan!!! I wonder how much I would remember this... I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, no, gotta be rational... I will. (sullenly)
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Monday, January 29, 2018
Notes on Reading.
Are we smart enough to know how smart animals are? (Frans De Waal)
"what we observe is not nature in itself, but nature exposed to our method of questioning."
(Werner Heisenberg)
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human can try to imagine the umwelt of other organisms.
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he wanted to understand how a bat feels like a bat. This is indeed beyond our comprehension...
"if a lion could talk, we could not understand them."
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the challenge is to find tests that fit an animal's temperament, interest, anatomy, and sensory capacities.
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chimps face recognition experiment. chimps can identify chimps faces, but not human.
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a creationist's view:
a purposeful creation of uniquely suited for intelligent life, meaning us.....anthropic philosophers sounded as if they thought the word was made for us rather than the other around. Planet earth is at exactly the right distance from the sun, to create right temperature for human life, and its atmosphere level has the ideal level of oxygen level....however, any biologist will turn the causal connection around and note that our species is finely adapted to the planet's circumstances, which explains they they are perfect for us.
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the closer another species is to us, the more anthropomorphism will assist our understanding of this species and the greater the danger will be the danger of anthropodenial.
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Cognition is the mental transformation of sensory input into knowledge about the environment and the flexible application of this knowledge. while the term, cognition refers to the process of doing this, intelligence refers more to the ability to do it successfully. (page 10~11)
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if learning talents are a product of natural history an mating strategies, the whole notion of universality begins to fall apart.
evidence of inborn learning specializations has been steadily mounting.
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Can we tease apart the roles of attention, motivation, and cognition? Those three are involved in everything animals do; hence poor performance can be explained by any one of them.
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"what we observe is not nature in itself, but nature exposed to our method of questioning."
(Werner Heisenberg)
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human can try to imagine the umwelt of other organisms.
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he wanted to understand how a bat feels like a bat. This is indeed beyond our comprehension...
"if a lion could talk, we could not understand them."
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the challenge is to find tests that fit an animal's temperament, interest, anatomy, and sensory capacities.
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chimps face recognition experiment. chimps can identify chimps faces, but not human.
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a creationist's view:
a purposeful creation of uniquely suited for intelligent life, meaning us.....anthropic philosophers sounded as if they thought the word was made for us rather than the other around. Planet earth is at exactly the right distance from the sun, to create right temperature for human life, and its atmosphere level has the ideal level of oxygen level....however, any biologist will turn the causal connection around and note that our species is finely adapted to the planet's circumstances, which explains they they are perfect for us.
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the closer another species is to us, the more anthropomorphism will assist our understanding of this species and the greater the danger will be the danger of anthropodenial.
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Cognition is the mental transformation of sensory input into knowledge about the environment and the flexible application of this knowledge. while the term, cognition refers to the process of doing this, intelligence refers more to the ability to do it successfully. (page 10~11)
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if learning talents are a product of natural history an mating strategies, the whole notion of universality begins to fall apart.
evidence of inborn learning specializations has been steadily mounting.
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Can we tease apart the roles of attention, motivation, and cognition? Those three are involved in everything animals do; hence poor performance can be explained by any one of them.
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What's next?
What's next?
It's been 2 weeks now, I've been sulking. But with family and many friends' support, I want to do something. What's next? I know I want to do something. I will list something that I've been wanting to do but could not finish due to emotion, my inconsistency, and some other bad things I will recall later. The list is a source where I want to do it personally. And if possible, a career goal.
It's been 2 weeks now, I've been sulking. But with family and many friends' support, I want to do something. What's next? I know I want to do something. I will list something that I've been wanting to do but could not finish due to emotion, my inconsistency, and some other bad things I will recall later. The list is a source where I want to do it personally. And if possible, a career goal.
- Japanese, I'd tried to study it while I was working in warehouse. I even brought and practiced during the down time in warehouse.
- Excel, I'd a lot of fun designing the inventory sheet and packing sheet. This was something unexpected. I want to further my knowledge into Macro!
- Cooking. My mom is fanatic about cooking. I am interested in it too. I want to really learn to make dumplings, baozi, and Mr. Wang's Bing better!
- Cars, I watched Vic, doing all kinds of job around his car. I am very interested in it as well. But as far as the car goes, I might need quite a sum to really do what he does. I am just hoping to put the most basic things into action, cleaning the cars, fix painting...etc.
- House, my living space. To be able to work on house is wonderful. But there are projects that I want to do which my mom called unnecessary, I will try to forget about it. For house, there are two things, one is learn to be a handy man, small fixings; the other is learning to call professional!
- Drawing and Painting. I used to carry a sketch book around, but lately, I ditched the idea. I want it back! Along with a bag of pen, pencil and colors.
- Coding, especially, Java Script, which was suggested by Dwight!
- Martial Arts, started by doing Lien Bu Chuan and Tai chi everyday.
- Yoga, started by doing two things. One is writing notes after each class; the other is started to work out with my Mom!
- Medical vocabulary, I do not want to forget what I learned. Although I already know that I did not want to be an interpreter, I still want to retain all the knowledge though. Vocabulary!
- Reading plays, this is for my own practice on how to speak. I want stage plays, what I have in mind is William Tennessee.
- Play with your money!! CD, aunt told me; Sign up a brokerage account!
- Planting! some house plant is no good, and don't forget about seeding for the coming year!
It seemed a lot, but how to spread it out, how to pursue them consistently. That needs further planning! Do not be afraid of planning! Remember Plan are meant to be broken!
I finished the list for now. I will come back tonight to plan it out. The purpose of this wait, is not out of laziness. But to ensure that I will keep this planning in mind, so when I do plan it, do it out of ration than impulse.
Friday, January 26, 2018
I quit, 2
On 1/17/2018, I quit my job at Mascon. I am, and so are the people around me, still experiencing heavy fallout after a week. The sub-sequence and after thought of that day will be described as follows:
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The day I went back, my mom was surprised to see me. I told her what happened. She immediately showed a lot of support. Her only gripe was that I exploded. Because of my action in rage, even if I had any right by my side, it was all lost during the process. Many people from office left messages asking what happened. My uncle and aunt took me to ninety nine for dinner. The most bummed, was probably Mae. She was in the process of leaving. And I worked with her from the beginning when we were both temps. Grace called a day later, she told Mae on Wednesday, "need to wait for Jack to calm down." Then Sofiya said, we should meet. I met her that Friday at 330pm. Sofiya is Sofiya, her spirit did raise me to a better place. All these supports really helped me out a lot! Even CJ texted me from Taiwan, (she is on a Company business trip).
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But to me, this is a very heavy loss. I can see the heavy toll on my mom as well. And I am debating what to do next, school, job, or a necessary trip to Taiwan? And although I anticipated that I cannot get back to the company, but when I went and pick my stuff up on Wednesday(1/25/2018, a week later), the treatment was not easy to endure. And the fact that Vic and Anne doesn't seem to want to meet really let me down as well. I talked to Jo on Wednesday(1/25/2018), Vic on Thursday(1/29/2018, giving me my computer on Target's parking lot). Every time I talked to them, I felt very heavy. I kept guessing what's that mean? Is that friendly or they were just saying things so I wont bother them no more? Mae was the only one that kept talking to me, through line or text.
It's kind surreal when I went back on Wednesday. I know I was not supposed to be there. I thought I just need to get 2 more things and also need to talk to Jo about my computer, then I will leave. Besides warehouse and Jo, nobody would know I came. I parked my car at back entrance. But when I stepped in warehouse, Vic was not there. Jose was there, in front of the computer, head bent down to look at his phone. He was surprised to see me. But he tactfully asked if John knew I was here. Then he said he would not tell on me. I found two toys of mine and stepped out to put them in my car. When I came back, Jose disappeared. I immediately guessed he went to get some people. But to me, it's alright, I went to find Jo. But in mid way, I turned back, I was afraid other people would see me. When I get back to the 1st bay door, I heard Jose, Lawrence, and George talking among themselves. They could not find me, George did peeked out the door and said my car was still there. The whole process was so surreal. I almost giggled. Jose is a survivor. Lawrence is Lawrence. But George?! Really? Although I understand his position, still could not contain a slight disappointment. At first I was thinking to play hide and seek with them but decided not to. I showed up and told them my purpose. Then I told them I still want to meet Vic, so I will wait in the car. After I stepped in the car,I saw Jo came out of the back and told me that John specifically announced me unwelcomed in the premises of the Company. So I left.
All these times, people asked what happened. Even when Jo saw me, she asked too. What's the reason I would go off like that. On the day I quit, on the way home, the only thing happened in my mind was the rage. My mother was one of the earliest victim of this rage. So was my sister. I kept going over and over in the scenario. I kept telling people, it's because of Jose's poor workmanship sparked this rage. I also kept telling people, Lawrence was the one who fueled my rage to the point to quitting. I even told Jo, I was disappointed in Vic's supervising, because Vic should already corrected Jose about some slacking off. But as I was showering at YMCA today(1/26/2018), something lighted up. For all these three years in the warehouse, I kept telling myself, how much tolerance Anne and Vic showed me. They are examples of tolerance throughout the years. Even with three years of experience, I still made a ridiculous shipping mistake at the end of last year. Only to be covered by Anne. Maybe Jose was slacking off, maybe Lawrence wasn't supposed to say those words. But upon seeing the boxes on the ground on that day, what was reason for such a rage? I am really tired of the job, it's true. But to put these whole thing on other people's shoulder would be a bigger mistake. I am the spark of the whole scenario. I have to bear the responsibility for the fallout. And I need to deal with this rage!
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The day I went back, my mom was surprised to see me. I told her what happened. She immediately showed a lot of support. Her only gripe was that I exploded. Because of my action in rage, even if I had any right by my side, it was all lost during the process. Many people from office left messages asking what happened. My uncle and aunt took me to ninety nine for dinner. The most bummed, was probably Mae. She was in the process of leaving. And I worked with her from the beginning when we were both temps. Grace called a day later, she told Mae on Wednesday, "need to wait for Jack to calm down." Then Sofiya said, we should meet. I met her that Friday at 330pm. Sofiya is Sofiya, her spirit did raise me to a better place. All these supports really helped me out a lot! Even CJ texted me from Taiwan, (she is on a Company business trip).
A
But to me, this is a very heavy loss. I can see the heavy toll on my mom as well. And I am debating what to do next, school, job, or a necessary trip to Taiwan? And although I anticipated that I cannot get back to the company, but when I went and pick my stuff up on Wednesday(1/25/2018, a week later), the treatment was not easy to endure. And the fact that Vic and Anne doesn't seem to want to meet really let me down as well. I talked to Jo on Wednesday(1/25/2018), Vic on Thursday(1/29/2018, giving me my computer on Target's parking lot). Every time I talked to them, I felt very heavy. I kept guessing what's that mean? Is that friendly or they were just saying things so I wont bother them no more? Mae was the only one that kept talking to me, through line or text.
It's kind surreal when I went back on Wednesday. I know I was not supposed to be there. I thought I just need to get 2 more things and also need to talk to Jo about my computer, then I will leave. Besides warehouse and Jo, nobody would know I came. I parked my car at back entrance. But when I stepped in warehouse, Vic was not there. Jose was there, in front of the computer, head bent down to look at his phone. He was surprised to see me. But he tactfully asked if John knew I was here. Then he said he would not tell on me. I found two toys of mine and stepped out to put them in my car. When I came back, Jose disappeared. I immediately guessed he went to get some people. But to me, it's alright, I went to find Jo. But in mid way, I turned back, I was afraid other people would see me. When I get back to the 1st bay door, I heard Jose, Lawrence, and George talking among themselves. They could not find me, George did peeked out the door and said my car was still there. The whole process was so surreal. I almost giggled. Jose is a survivor. Lawrence is Lawrence. But George?! Really? Although I understand his position, still could not contain a slight disappointment. At first I was thinking to play hide and seek with them but decided not to. I showed up and told them my purpose. Then I told them I still want to meet Vic, so I will wait in the car. After I stepped in the car,I saw Jo came out of the back and told me that John specifically announced me unwelcomed in the premises of the Company. So I left.
All these times, people asked what happened. Even when Jo saw me, she asked too. What's the reason I would go off like that. On the day I quit, on the way home, the only thing happened in my mind was the rage. My mother was one of the earliest victim of this rage. So was my sister. I kept going over and over in the scenario. I kept telling people, it's because of Jose's poor workmanship sparked this rage. I also kept telling people, Lawrence was the one who fueled my rage to the point to quitting. I even told Jo, I was disappointed in Vic's supervising, because Vic should already corrected Jose about some slacking off. But as I was showering at YMCA today(1/26/2018), something lighted up. For all these three years in the warehouse, I kept telling myself, how much tolerance Anne and Vic showed me. They are examples of tolerance throughout the years. Even with three years of experience, I still made a ridiculous shipping mistake at the end of last year. Only to be covered by Anne. Maybe Jose was slacking off, maybe Lawrence wasn't supposed to say those words. But upon seeing the boxes on the ground on that day, what was reason for such a rage? I am really tired of the job, it's true. But to put these whole thing on other people's shoulder would be a bigger mistake. I am the spark of the whole scenario. I have to bear the responsibility for the fallout. And I need to deal with this rage!
Thursday, January 25, 2018
I quit, 1
On 1/17/2018, I quit my job at Mascon. I am, and so are the people around me, still experiencing heavy fallout after a week. The scenario of that day will be described as follows:
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It was a Wednesday. The workload was supposed to be light. Vic did not come, I was told by Anne, due to health issue. Jose called at around 7am, asking if I could handle it, because he had dentist appointment and had to leave before 11am. I said okay.
In the previous day, we had a shipment came in. There contained many hot parts, need to be shipped right out. So I pulled the necessary amount out to satisfy the orders. Because of this, our first priority on Wednesday should be receiving the shipment, so Logistic could finish receiving, and Mae can invoice the sales. We had 30 warranty scopes to ship as well. This would be 2rd priority, should be enough to fulfill a day's work without exhaustion. That's how I started with my day, I planned out before I stepped in the Warehouse.
I vaguely remembered we started to work on receiving shipment at around 830am. By 930am, the receiving was more than half way done, 2 more pallets to separate and repalletize. Looking at the situation, Jose said to me, "Jack, you can go and do something else. Let me finish it, I will take my time with it." I looked at the clock and what's left, I agreed. By 10, I went to my usual break, ping pong with Harry and Ian. Walking pass by IQC, where Jose was working, he was not there. I assumed he was taking a break as well. After ping pong, I started another task, doing the second inventory count for last week. This should be a quick process if the equipment was working properly. But the computer broke down, even when fully charged. At that time, 1030, Jose came over and told me that he needed to leave for the dentist appointment. I asked him if the receiving was done. He said, "Yes, but there are still 1 or 2 parts that need to do. But that's it, if anything, we could just receive it on the computer now." Then he left.
Since my computer was restarting, I went and checked the receiving. By golly, it was not done at all! The last two pallets were spreadout on the floor! What did he do? Mae already came in twice to ask about the receive. I estimated that with 2 more helps, this could be done in 10 minutes though. So I went and asked 2 managers, Lawrence and Daniel to help out. They said alright, just wait 10 minutes. Okay. I went back and saw the things spread out on the floor. There was something inside of me exploded, I really went into berserk mode, started kicking and throwing boxes. Jo's cubic was right besides IQC, she must have heard the commotion and came to take a look. She immediately tried to calm me down, but I answered back in rude and explicit language. She tried to tell me to walk it off, but I responded with kicking boxes. So she left, after she left, however, I thought to myself, I needed to walk it off. I went out in the back and walked around the building once. Then I saw Lawrence peeking out the back door.
Lawrence and Daniel were both there. I stepped in Warehouse and proceed to IQC, with them following me. I told them what happened while I started working. Lawrence kept saying, "let's talk, Jack.", but I kept refusing. I wanted to finish the work, I said, with 3 of us, we could finished this in 10 minutes. Daniel concurred with me and asked what should he do here? (Daniel is new to the company). But with Lawrence's insist, he and I went to computer desk in Warehouse at Bay 1. He asked what happened, as I described what happened, he jotted down a few lines on his notepad. Then he raised his head and said, "Jack, you know I will fight for you, but John might fire you." He said with such air like this is trivial. There was second explosion in my chest, I immediately went blind. I said, "that's okay, if John wanted to fire me, I quit." I took my stuff, said goodbye to Harry, Ian, and Tom, and stormed out of there. Alex was playing with Kevin, our new operation director, just came in the day before. Alex followed me all the way to the parking lot, but I was already too mad, I threw my lunch on the ground. He picked up my hat and said, "Jack, your hat fell." I took it and left.
However, I turned back half way. There were more stuff I need to take home. When I went back, Lawrence and George came in the warehouse to watch me. I somehow still want to finish the work. I went back and put everything on the pallet. Before I could complete though, John came in. And asked me to his office. I went, and Alex was there. He said he had 2 options for me. I immediately told him, no, you don't. I want my paycheck for the workday. And I quit. He said let's remain in a friendly term...blah, blah, blah. Then I went back to IQC trying to complete whatever was left, but John followed me and said this is non of your business now. So I collected everything I could think of and left.
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It was a Wednesday. The workload was supposed to be light. Vic did not come, I was told by Anne, due to health issue. Jose called at around 7am, asking if I could handle it, because he had dentist appointment and had to leave before 11am. I said okay.
In the previous day, we had a shipment came in. There contained many hot parts, need to be shipped right out. So I pulled the necessary amount out to satisfy the orders. Because of this, our first priority on Wednesday should be receiving the shipment, so Logistic could finish receiving, and Mae can invoice the sales. We had 30 warranty scopes to ship as well. This would be 2rd priority, should be enough to fulfill a day's work without exhaustion. That's how I started with my day, I planned out before I stepped in the Warehouse.
I vaguely remembered we started to work on receiving shipment at around 830am. By 930am, the receiving was more than half way done, 2 more pallets to separate and repalletize. Looking at the situation, Jose said to me, "Jack, you can go and do something else. Let me finish it, I will take my time with it." I looked at the clock and what's left, I agreed. By 10, I went to my usual break, ping pong with Harry and Ian. Walking pass by IQC, where Jose was working, he was not there. I assumed he was taking a break as well. After ping pong, I started another task, doing the second inventory count for last week. This should be a quick process if the equipment was working properly. But the computer broke down, even when fully charged. At that time, 1030, Jose came over and told me that he needed to leave for the dentist appointment. I asked him if the receiving was done. He said, "Yes, but there are still 1 or 2 parts that need to do. But that's it, if anything, we could just receive it on the computer now." Then he left.
Since my computer was restarting, I went and checked the receiving. By golly, it was not done at all! The last two pallets were spreadout on the floor! What did he do? Mae already came in twice to ask about the receive. I estimated that with 2 more helps, this could be done in 10 minutes though. So I went and asked 2 managers, Lawrence and Daniel to help out. They said alright, just wait 10 minutes. Okay. I went back and saw the things spread out on the floor. There was something inside of me exploded, I really went into berserk mode, started kicking and throwing boxes. Jo's cubic was right besides IQC, she must have heard the commotion and came to take a look. She immediately tried to calm me down, but I answered back in rude and explicit language. She tried to tell me to walk it off, but I responded with kicking boxes. So she left, after she left, however, I thought to myself, I needed to walk it off. I went out in the back and walked around the building once. Then I saw Lawrence peeking out the back door.
Lawrence and Daniel were both there. I stepped in Warehouse and proceed to IQC, with them following me. I told them what happened while I started working. Lawrence kept saying, "let's talk, Jack.", but I kept refusing. I wanted to finish the work, I said, with 3 of us, we could finished this in 10 minutes. Daniel concurred with me and asked what should he do here? (Daniel is new to the company). But with Lawrence's insist, he and I went to computer desk in Warehouse at Bay 1. He asked what happened, as I described what happened, he jotted down a few lines on his notepad. Then he raised his head and said, "Jack, you know I will fight for you, but John might fire you." He said with such air like this is trivial. There was second explosion in my chest, I immediately went blind. I said, "that's okay, if John wanted to fire me, I quit." I took my stuff, said goodbye to Harry, Ian, and Tom, and stormed out of there. Alex was playing with Kevin, our new operation director, just came in the day before. Alex followed me all the way to the parking lot, but I was already too mad, I threw my lunch on the ground. He picked up my hat and said, "Jack, your hat fell." I took it and left.
However, I turned back half way. There were more stuff I need to take home. When I went back, Lawrence and George came in the warehouse to watch me. I somehow still want to finish the work. I went back and put everything on the pallet. Before I could complete though, John came in. And asked me to his office. I went, and Alex was there. He said he had 2 options for me. I immediately told him, no, you don't. I want my paycheck for the workday. And I quit. He said let's remain in a friendly term...blah, blah, blah. Then I went back to IQC trying to complete whatever was left, but John followed me and said this is non of your business now. So I collected everything I could think of and left.
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