Hacksaw Ridge:
I had high hope before watching Hacksaw Ridge. But it underwhelmed a little. I probably was hoping for something like Passion of Christ. HR gave me a feeling more similar to Apocalypto. It was a well made movie, there were some very good moving scene, but at the end, I could not feel the impact.
The battle scenes were quite big. But the impact was different from Saving Private Ryan, since the advertisement kept comparing HR to Saving Private Ryan. Since HR was really more about one individual's struggle. That struggle is very unique.
I don't feel the movie is a great religious movie. It's more of personal conviction thing. I am quite moved by the father's effort to help his son. I find it impressive that this conscience objector would choose to go to the war without weapon. Maybe it's showed uniqueness of USA.
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Jason Bourne
I did not think this would be too great. But it turned out alright. I guess, expectation does make the viewing a bit different.
The action sequence of car chases were simply amazing. I watched the feature, in which I agree that by putting a lot of computer technology in the movie, it made the movie more relevant to today's world, comparing to the last installment 10 years ago. I liked the plot quite a bit. The female antagonist was very adequate, her ambivalence was hard to grasp. Tom Lee Jones' role however, was compromised. I felt it's role here is repetitive. His death is meaningless, the evilness he represented here is shallow at the best. Whenever Jason and CIA director interacted, I felt I was watching soap opera... repetitive and monotonous.
The movie was pretty good though. The ending to me was quite satisfying. It actually made me looking forward to the next one... if there is any...
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Sunday, May 28, 2017
伊於胡底
這是有一回, 媽媽從舅舅家回來之後, 媽媽說的.
仔細情況怎樣, 我有點忘了. 好像是, 那一天外公的情況不是很好. 顯得有點糊塗. 媽媽起床和舅舅講述前晚的情形. 講著講著, 媽媽感覺真是的莫可奈何. 於是就說了一句, "伊於胡底". 舅舅聽不懂.
媽媽回來問我. 我也沒聽過. 媽媽雖然知道意思和來源, 卻有點忘記典故了. 於是我們就一起上網查.
來源是詩經的一段:
詩經小雅谷風小旻中的一段原文：
潝潝訿訿，
亦孔之哀。
謀之其臧，
則具是違。
謀之不臧，
則具是依。
我視謀猶，
伊于胡底？
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全文
詩經·小雅·小旻之什·小旻
旻天疾威，敷於下土。謀猶回遹，何日斯沮？謀臧不從，不臧覆用。我視謀猶，亦孔之邛。
不敢暴虎，不敢馮河。人知其一，莫知其他。戰戰兢兢，如臨深淵，如履薄冰。
翻譯:
蒼天蒼天太暴虐，災難降臨我國界。朝廷策謀真僻邪，不知何時能止歇。善謀良策難聽從，歪門邪道反不絕。我看朝廷的謀劃，確是弊病太多些。
小人嘰喳攻異己，是非不分我悲淒。若有什麼好謀略，他們全都不肯依。若有什麼壞計策，他們全都會同意。我看朝廷的謀劃，不知弄到何境地。
占蔔靈龜已厭倦，謀劃再不向我談。謀臣策士實在多，就是沒有好意見。議論紛紛滿庭中，指出弊病有誰敢！就像謀劃要遠行，真到路上沒效驗。
如此謀劃我悲痛，古聖先賢不效法，常規大道不遵從。近僻之言王愛聽，膚淺之見紛聚訟。就像宮室建路上，當然不會穫成功。
國家雖然沒法度，人有聰明有糊塗。人民雖然不富足，還有明哲有善謀，有能治國有嚴肅。就像長流那泉水，不讓衰敗與陳腐！
不敢空手打虎去，不敢徒步過河行。人們隻知這危險，不知其他災禍臨。面對政局我戰兢，就像面臨深深淵，就像腳踏薄薄冰。
仔細情況怎樣, 我有點忘了. 好像是, 那一天外公的情況不是很好. 顯得有點糊塗. 媽媽起床和舅舅講述前晚的情形. 講著講著, 媽媽感覺真是的莫可奈何. 於是就說了一句, "伊於胡底". 舅舅聽不懂.
媽媽回來問我. 我也沒聽過. 媽媽雖然知道意思和來源, 卻有點忘記典故了. 於是我們就一起上網查.
來源是詩經的一段:
詩經小雅谷風小旻中的一段原文：
潝潝訿訿，
亦孔之哀。
謀之其臧，
則具是違。
謀之不臧，
則具是依。
我視謀猶，
伊于胡底？
--------------------------------------------
全文
詩經·小雅·小旻之什·小旻
旻天疾威，敷於下土。謀猶回遹，何日斯沮？謀臧不從，不臧覆用。我視謀猶，亦孔之邛。
潝潝訿訿，亦孔之哀。謀之其臧，則具是違。謀之不臧，則具是依。我視謀猶，伊於胡厎？
我龜既厭，不我告猶。謀夫孔多，是用不集。發言盈庭，誰敢執其咎？如匪行邁謀，是用不得於道。
哀哉爲猶！匪先民是程，匪大猶是經。維邇言是聽，維邇言是爭。如彼築室於道謀，是用不潰於成。
國雖靡止，或聖或否。民雖靡膴，或哲或謀，或肅或艾。如彼泉流，無淪胥以敗。
翻譯:
蒼天蒼天太暴虐，災難降臨我國界。朝廷策謀真僻邪，不知何時能止歇。善謀良策難聽從，歪門邪道反不絕。我看朝廷的謀劃，確是弊病太多些。
小人嘰喳攻異己，是非不分我悲淒。若有什麼好謀略，他們全都不肯依。若有什麼壞計策，他們全都會同意。我看朝廷的謀劃，不知弄到何境地。
占蔔靈龜已厭倦，謀劃再不向我談。謀臣策士實在多，就是沒有好意見。議論紛紛滿庭中，指出弊病有誰敢！就像謀劃要遠行，真到路上沒效驗。
如此謀劃我悲痛，古聖先賢不效法，常規大道不遵從。近僻之言王愛聽，膚淺之見紛聚訟。就像宮室建路上，當然不會穫成功。
國家雖然沒法度，人有聰明有糊塗。人民雖然不富足，還有明哲有善謀，有能治國有嚴肅。就像長流那泉水，不讓衰敗與陳腐！
不敢空手打虎去，不敢徒步過河行。人們隻知這危險，不知其他災禍臨。面對政局我戰兢，就像面臨深深淵，就像腳踏薄薄冰。
(錄自: http: // www.zwbk.org/MyLemmaShow.aspx?zh=zh-tw&lid=7865 1
Saturday, May 27, 2017
a quote i saw at a flower shop
When I saw you
I fell in love,
and you smiled
because you knew.
it was credited to Shakespeare, but in reality it should be credited to an Italian play by Arrigo Boito who wrote the play based on "the merry wives of windsor", by Shakespear.
The original phrase in Italian is :
Come ti vidi
M’innamorai,
E tu sorridi
Perchè lo sai.
Just some fun facts.
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Today was really nice. I hope 榕, 如果去工作, 希望有機會可以跟 Harry 他們去玩玩.
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I felt that I worked all day. Cleaning, Gluing refrigerator door shelf, Warehouse labels by connecting excel with word. But just by listing them, I only worked half day really. And they were mostly chores, which is necessary, nothing extra... But the feeling of working all day seemed to make chores important and heavy load. they are illusion though... le sigh.
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I fell in love,
and you smiled
because you knew.
it was credited to Shakespeare, but in reality it should be credited to an Italian play by Arrigo Boito who wrote the play based on "the merry wives of windsor", by Shakespear.
The original phrase in Italian is :
Come ti vidi
M’innamorai,
E tu sorridi
Perchè lo sai.
Just some fun facts.
--------------------------------
Today was really nice. I hope 榕, 如果去工作, 希望有機會可以跟 Harry 他們去玩玩.
--------------------------------
I felt that I worked all day. Cleaning, Gluing refrigerator door shelf, Warehouse labels by connecting excel with word. But just by listing them, I only worked half day really. And they were mostly chores, which is necessary, nothing extra... But the feeling of working all day seemed to make chores important and heavy load. they are illusion though... le sigh.
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Thursday, May 25, 2017
What's going on
What is happening:
1. I just finished medical interpreter certificate program. Passed the exam. Preparing to get my resume done over the weekend. And prepare to find other job as well. Any job will do.
2. Having temps in the warehouse since early this year. It's not easy to find a permanent worker from temps... We have 2 temps, been working close to 3 months now. They are young and unruly sometimes. I felt Vic likes them though. I bet he's lonely and bored these 3 years. lol le sigh...
3. Just had a quick thought, constantly thinking about work and CJ is maybe a blanket, a disguise to cover the real issue, which I do not want to face and challenge myself. Being sad was a good excuse to give up. I am very lonely though... That loneliness maybe caused by my greed... Don't go that way now...
4. I find myself at a constant pickle. I could not find enough time to finish what I wish to finish at work... Kept distracted by small things. Both Jose and Chris, both the temps, mentioned that I would stop communicating at some point, maybe during a conversation, or explaining something... Did I lose concentration? I felt I was doing a lot of self correction internally. How Do I stop that?
5. I always thought I was not bad at communicating. But after these 3 years, I found I am really bad at it. Jumpy is what Harry described me, in terms of reaction. Stop the conversation mid way through a explanation, that's what Jose was telling me today. Chris told me communication was the key, a month ago. Temps might mean half jokingly. But I consider it's a serious concern. Internalizing too much. After the filter, there's not much coming out. Or what came out is broken, unclear, no connection, make no sense. Have to let the river f low. But I want to be proper and accurate.
6. I've seen Vic teaching those temps, very thorough, slow, and detailed. He will state his thought, to the point and repeatedly. But he did not shy away from tongue lashing either.
7. Today, I sinked into sofa at 7, went up stairs and watched porn and masturbated once. The whole time, I was watching myself. It was a really weird process. When I went to sofa, I was meant to rest a little. Although I did not have a clear goal of what's to do next. Then I started to read manga, until 830. Then somehow I felt horny... le sigh. I want to let this feeling subside, watched clips, and release. Right after the action, I regretted. But what is there I could do? My question is why did I not rest as I intended? I consider that a key question. Rest, pal... The more I sat idly without rest, the restless I would become.
8. I want to learn to love. I do not want to be sad. When I think of 榕, I felt sad. When I talked to her, I almost always express my concern of her well being. I do worry. But I want to my presence or my memory to be a happy one, which could bring smile on her face. If there's a memory to start with. I want to love, not sad.
9. From now on, if I was on sofa, I sleep. Or anything with a time limit. Otherwise, like reading, watching youtube, using computer, etc, doing them in front of my desk or dining table.
10. Write a personal work list when I enter Warehouse. Finished them is my priority, not whatever I wrote on the white board.
11. Construct a letter through out the working house in Warehouse, addressed to my mother, or Noz, or whatever. Find topic to talk. Practice. I need to learn to talk.
12.
1. I just finished medical interpreter certificate program. Passed the exam. Preparing to get my resume done over the weekend. And prepare to find other job as well. Any job will do.
2. Having temps in the warehouse since early this year. It's not easy to find a permanent worker from temps... We have 2 temps, been working close to 3 months now. They are young and unruly sometimes. I felt Vic likes them though. I bet he's lonely and bored these 3 years. lol le sigh...
3. Just had a quick thought, constantly thinking about work and CJ is maybe a blanket, a disguise to cover the real issue, which I do not want to face and challenge myself. Being sad was a good excuse to give up. I am very lonely though... That loneliness maybe caused by my greed... Don't go that way now...
4. I find myself at a constant pickle. I could not find enough time to finish what I wish to finish at work... Kept distracted by small things. Both Jose and Chris, both the temps, mentioned that I would stop communicating at some point, maybe during a conversation, or explaining something... Did I lose concentration? I felt I was doing a lot of self correction internally. How Do I stop that?
5. I always thought I was not bad at communicating. But after these 3 years, I found I am really bad at it. Jumpy is what Harry described me, in terms of reaction. Stop the conversation mid way through a explanation, that's what Jose was telling me today. Chris told me communication was the key, a month ago. Temps might mean half jokingly. But I consider it's a serious concern. Internalizing too much. After the filter, there's not much coming out. Or what came out is broken, unclear, no connection, make no sense. Have to let the river f low. But I want to be proper and accurate.
6. I've seen Vic teaching those temps, very thorough, slow, and detailed. He will state his thought, to the point and repeatedly. But he did not shy away from tongue lashing either.
7. Today, I sinked into sofa at 7, went up stairs and watched porn and masturbated once. The whole time, I was watching myself. It was a really weird process. When I went to sofa, I was meant to rest a little. Although I did not have a clear goal of what's to do next. Then I started to read manga, until 830. Then somehow I felt horny... le sigh. I want to let this feeling subside, watched clips, and release. Right after the action, I regretted. But what is there I could do? My question is why did I not rest as I intended? I consider that a key question. Rest, pal... The more I sat idly without rest, the restless I would become.
8. I want to learn to love. I do not want to be sad. When I think of 榕, I felt sad. When I talked to her, I almost always express my concern of her well being. I do worry. But I want to my presence or my memory to be a happy one, which could bring smile on her face. If there's a memory to start with. I want to love, not sad.
9. From now on, if I was on sofa, I sleep. Or anything with a time limit. Otherwise, like reading, watching youtube, using computer, etc, doing them in front of my desk or dining table.
10. Write a personal work list when I enter Warehouse. Finished them is my priority, not whatever I wrote on the white board.
11. Construct a letter through out the working house in Warehouse, addressed to my mother, or Noz, or whatever. Find topic to talk. Practice. I need to learn to talk.
12.
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
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