Some thoughts(7/15/2017)
Came to McDonalds for breakfast. Thinking of it for a long time. Wanted to bring a laptop and do some writing
as well. Somebody was calling me out of
the corner. I turned and saw Uncle and
Aunt with big smile. They went to
swimming early in the morning, came here for breakfast. They were going to NH for mall walk
afterwards. Aunt told me to download
Macdonald’s app, with coupons! :D I will do that!
I’ve been wanting to come to McDonalds’ and writing for sometime. Thoughts need to be materialized to see
clearly. Otherwise, the thoughts are
like my dreams. I don’t dream too much,
or at least I don’t remember most of them, except the girl I loved, but that only
lasts less a second.
Thoughts are so hard to catch. Catch and release, I need to release some
thoughts as well. But with this slow
tongue, only tune could be sung. I need
to express by typing. But even by
typing, the thoughts still can’t flow smooth and non-stop. I need to talk about something concrete at
first.
Last night
You must have no idea how happy I was to receive CJ’s
message. I drove back to Jo in frenzy,
heart racing, and speeding. I love that
girl. And yet, I can’t speak. I can’t act.
I can’t seem to do anything. The
thoughts of her only bring out the thoughts of jealousy, hopeless, and
worthless in me. I love her. The ultimate goal for love is not to own, but
to see her having a life of happiness, satisfaction, adventure, and peace of
mind.
I saw her when Harry left. She has worry all over her face(Harry drank,
I don’t know how much). I was jealous of
Harry. Very much so. I was so glad to see Tina there. I can feel the strength that she brought to
CJ. I was hoping to see Tina as
well. It seemed that CJ invited
Tina. Good girl. Tina is 7 months pregnant, but Tina is still
Tina! And Jake is still Jake! Loved it!
I am sorry, but by writing this, I am filled with all the
feeling I mentioned above.
I had some hard liquors last night. I was among CJ, Peiring, Jean, Tina, and
Jake, the last ones to leave last night.
Jo’s party was fun, especially with the Volleyball. But my goodness, some people’s shoulders were
hurt. It gave me a chill. I still want to play volleyball, but how
should I protect my shoulder?
I went to Jo’s house early, to help out a little. I get to help Jay, Jo’s hubby, to set up
volley net and boundary. I see a very
methodical way to set this up. Very
interesting! It’s almost like I was
running through Jay’s mind! It’s a
beautiful thing though. I like it! Every step was thought though. He and Jo are quite different. They may be called complementary couple? :p
They share something too though, otherwise, how would be they together? They are cute together!
CJ called earlier before I left the party to drive Mr. Wang
home. She was asking if we need cheese
for she’s buying some crackers. We found
some brie, and other cheese in the fridge.
I told her, it’s alright, we just need cracker. After I left Jo’s, I thought that I should
take the cheese out of the fridge. So I
called Jo about it. But she dismissed the
idea, for she thought there are enough snacks.
When I came back to the party, I saw a board of small
crumbling of cheese. I was glee.
Warehouse
I felt Vic was laughing at me. He made a joke about me still staying after I
said I wanted to leave so many times. I
felt both frustrated and comical as well.
Frustrated, because, I want to leave, badly. But the fear of leaving was great as
well. I don’t have a job in place
yet. Although I know I can work, but
there are still many left to be desired.
I also wanted to go back to school.
I will have to choose. To make a
choice.
It’s funny because I am the
least useful person there. Anybody left
would leave a big hole right now, except me.
I am a clerk working in warehouse, where hard labor was needed, and
consistency count. All the computer work
I did there will be replaced by barcode.
Any clerical job I did there would be automated, or filled by a high
school student.
Am I putting myself down?
I think so. But how should I
describe my role in the company? IT is
working invisibly; what he did was a mystery to me. But sitting in that tiny
room is like sitting in a prison to me, and when computer go awry, everybody is
looking at IT like, what the hell… The
engineers working day and night, in a literal sense, including weekends. Logistics is working overtime almost every
day. And I heard something called, drop
shipments, another mystery to me… Customer
service connects the company and customer directly day in and day out. Not to mention how much Anne is an integral organic
part of logistic, accounting, and warehouse as well!! The accounting watch over everything, pouring
through each transaction, not just big cost from factory, or late cash from
customers, small details including shipping cost of 1 package as well! Vic and Jose are working on designing and
executing floor plan, shipping and receiving, general warehouse maintenance. Bosses, well, they are doing major business
decisions that would affect the lives of all above mentioned. How do I fit in the whole scheme?
For three years, I worked with Vic on floor plan as well,
but I could only use my muscle. Did I
mention muscle? I don’t have too
much. I worked with Vic, who mentioned
one day after meeting with Alex that we need to do inventory count every time
when we are picking Enidine. At first I
designed a very simple spreadsheet. We
printed it out on paper and record each transaction. We started doing that around the four quarter of 2015. After Aaron came to warehouse, in March 2016,
we got new toys, 2 Chrome books. I found
out about Google Sheets. It was a
powerful tool for real time collaboration.
I designed a simple spread sheet in Google Sheets. But alas, I drop the ball after I came back
from my vocation after July in terms of keeping with inventory. Everything seemed to speed up, more container
were coming in, more ocean shipments were coming in, and plus new parts and big
QTY at the end of year. On top of that, Polysher
and other 3D parts were ramping up as well, although Aaron tried his best to
accommodate warehouse by implementing bar code system, quick, centralized
shipping labels, and new toys. But between
shipping and receiving, inventory maintenance, and general Warehouse
Maintenance and something extra, the whole thing was blown out of
proportion. I was slow to realize how
frenzy was for the Warehouse, until Jo started to hire the temps, I finally had
to admit, and there were so much we were not able to do before temps. Starting last quarter 2016, Vic was working
on new floor plan, we tried a few things, ATW, Valencia changed locations a few
times. Enidine shelf had new
makeover. So were Polysher and other 3D
things. I tried to streamline all the
paperwork, including inventory sheet, packing list, pallet tags, pallet address
stickers. I was a very slow with excel,
even slower in decision making. Bob, our
IT gave me tremendous help on the sheet, he put real time inventory on the
sheet, which I believe is the quickest way to get accurate WOB and IQC
QTY. From this perspective, I did not
really make the sheet, Bob did! I
designed packing list for Enidine. I am
trying to use packing list on Sigcom as well.
That sheet was helped by CJ in the beginning.
I wish I could do more.
And to tell the truth, I want to feel that I did something. But from the above paragraph, I did design
one sheet, packing list. But by golly,
CJ could do this in less than one sitting…
And right now, a new challenge came up for the packing list which I did
not see a way to defeat it yet. I am
thinking…Bob!!!! When can we standardize
QTY per box???
I just asked Bob to see if he could reduce steps in making
the inventory sheet. Because I was
trying to teach both Vic and Jose to do the sheet, but I just found out, to
make the sheet, it takes at least 12 steps!!
One thing I learned from these 3 years working in warehouse, anything
that could be consistently done has to be easy enough to do, to access, and to
repeat. If the procedure is to remain 12
steps, I am not sure this will continue effectively.
At the end, did I put myself down? I work in warehouse, I do shipping and
receiving; I hope I am a good auxiliary to Vic; I did a lot of transfers, lost
a lot of transfer papers as well; I designed 2 spreadsheets to help warehouse,
inventory sheet, with help of Bob, and packing list, which soon to be
obsolete. Maybe I could pull myself up a
little. I don’t have to feel so
worthless, this is just a job, not enough to make a living, but to structure my
life around it. It is like last night,
Tina kept telling me, I like to hustle in the volleyball. I do like to hustle, I told her that this is
the only thing I could do on volleyball court, I could sense she needs to find
words to answer me. I guess my words are
meant to be humble, but people are scrambling to find words to reply. I will say it again here, like Michele once
said, I was only doing chores around warehouse.
Yes, hustling is all I really did.
I looked like a busybody, running around like crazy. But I do say, working with every department
is a pleasure. I do get something in
doing that!
(But frankly, I don’t give a damn. I just wish I could talk to her, make her
relaxed, and I relaxed by her side as well.
I want to play with her, to caress her, just to be with her in general
and feeling calm about it.)
I wrote the above sentences before I can really put my last assessment
on the (putting down section). To give
an assessment somehow put my uneasy. I
guess I wrote this paragraph to comfort myself.
I still want her though. Very very
much so.