no title

 You are not a  cat

I can't pick you up and kiss you

If I could, I would kiss you on your cheeks

People may gossip, but I don't care

but that's the not issue here

It's really how you would see me 

from now

you might sue me 

or see me as dangerous

but how much 

I just want you to know

I meant no harm

when you speak, I listen

when you smile, I remember

when you walk away I try not to stare

Believe me, I tried.  

I so much want to hold you, 

close to mine, to see the stars in your eyes

the scent of a woman the smooth of your skin

the heat from your body the texture of you hair 

brushing by my ear

the wave of your heart that shake into mine

I leave the office with a heavy heart

I sang songs to forget thee

but how much i wish i could stay

stay with you the whole way

instead only that pearl on your neck

i wish i wish i wish I could move in there

to stay to stay to stay.  

Just something I want to memorize

 I asked gemini how to use extract data, he helped me to write a question for my brother in law, I wan to copy it here, so I will rememeber and use it later.

You now have a much clearer picture of what you want to achieve. Here's how to structure your conversation with your brother-in-law:

"Hey [Brother-in-Law's Name], I was hoping you could give me some advice on a work project. I'm trying to automate how I get product information into my Google Sheets. Right now, I manually update things, and the data is often outdated.

My Goal: I want to be able to enter a product SKU in my Google Sheet, and have it automatically pull in the latest product details (like name, description, price, etc.) from our company's systems. This would make my daily picklists, request lists, and label printing much more efficient and accurate.

What I've learned so far:

• I knowShopify has an APIand QuickBookshas a developer kit, so I think data can be pulled from those.
• The trickier one is our main PM (Product Management) system. I'm not sure if it has an API, or if I'd even be allowed to access it. My support team manually updates things, so I suspect direct access might be difficult.

My Questions for you:

1. How would someone typically go about extracting data like this fromShopify and QuickBooks? (e.g., what kind of programming language is best, what tools are used?)
2. Do you have any initial thoughts on how I might figure out if our internal PM system has anAPI, and if so, how I could get access/permissions?
3. What's a good starting point for learning aboutAPIs and how to use them? (e.g., a specific online course, resource, or even just the fundamental concepts I should grasp first).
4. Do you think this is a realistic project for someone with limited coding experience to learn, or are there major hurdles I'm not seeing?"

This structured approach shows him you've thought about it, know your objective, and are looking for guidance, not just for him to do it for you. He'll appreciate that!

How does this sound as a plan for moving forward? Are there any parts of this you'd like to clarify or adjust?

迷途中的意馬心猿

 迷途中的意馬心猿

這題目是我現在心中的寫照。  我知道我一直有放點東西上來， 但是實際上，並沒有真的思想或者感覺可以實實在在的描述。  心中只是一團的亂。  其實， 這個開場排， 是貫穿所有最近一年半的所有文字。  也許更久以前。  只是這時候更為強烈而且明顯。  

你如果問我，到底每天在想甚麼？  我實在無法告訴你我心中在想的是甚麼。  我對這事情感到是絕對的羞愧。  總結一句話就是，我很希望可以和她徹底的談情說愛。  但是我知道這一定是事情的假象。  我只是用定了這個感覺來逃避現實。  我的腦子裡有好多事， 但是我一定是刻意地放在這感覺的後面， 這實在是一個令人憤怒的事。  這是不可能的， 我又不是一個笨蛋。  人生有許多面向， 愛情是其中的一個， 愛一個人也是一樣。  在我什麼面向都不行的時候， 唯一一件事情決不能做的就是愛情。  那會傷害到另一個人。  我可以自我安慰， 決不會有一個我喜歡的人和我談戀愛， 但是， 這無濟於事。  我又不是一個笨蛋， 我難道不知道！  可是那感覺， 只是想抱在一起的感覺是如此如此的強烈。  我只能一次又一次用很笨的方法解決。  dumberasdumberdoes.  

我心裡又很急，急得如此真切。  我是如此痛苦， 真的不如死去的好。  工作一點都沒有成就感， 但是我又不是笨蛋， 我的工作如果有一點成就感，我也認為這是一件令人作嫁的事情。  以是一件傻事。  我好希望我死了算了。  我也好久沒有看書了， 不是沒有嘗試， 我實際上一直在借書， 但是借了都沒有看。  

我想這可能也和媽媽去年被診斷出有阿茲海默的初期徵兆有關。  他前幾天才又去看了醫生， 小瑋帶去的。  他回來後又睡不著了， 然後一直看油管上的相關影片， 看的很是難過。  想到自己以後可能會如此不堪， 他甚至說老人應該有權利要自殺的。  他是一個耶見證， 還會如此想， 你可以想像他心裏的壓力。  

其實他心裡也有另一個洞，因為他和舅舅是完全處不好。  上個月去接舅舅飛機後，一周還是兩周後， 他跟我說我就是個很好的人， 甚麼忙都肯幫。  我聽了以後感覺他在諷刺我， 我就大發了一場脾氣。  因為我感覺實在很難做人。  我跟他說如果他要和舅舅翻臉， 我們就從此拉倒兩散，舅舅自姓章，我姓莊， 是他的關係。。。。  我腦袋裡浮現的都是爸爸以前給我說的他姊姊嫁出去後， 婆家待他姊姊不怎麼好， 他就從此翻臉。  (也不知道我記的對不對)  可是媽媽說他沒有諷刺我。  他也不想拉倒。  他最近都給我講他對舅舅沒那麼記恨了。  時不時地講。  但是我知道這是他心裏的大大大洞， 補不好了。  他只是不斷說就是自己窮， 所以舅舅看不上他了。  沒有一點兄弟之情。  另如，我們接了舅舅舅媽後， 就再沒聽到他們和我們聯絡了。  直到上次我在文茜那聽說中共打台灣的可能性提高後， 媽媽打了個電話給舅媽。  

他的另一個洞是我，這三個洞可以說是千瘡百孔。  他唯一的安慰是我妹。  

雜

 Chandara 和 Nara 已經離開公司八個月了。  Emily苗 在這裡也已經八個月了。  我是非常感謝有他的。  沒有他， 工作將是不可想像的。  

但是我也知道， 該走的時候將近， 我實在不想做了。  E 要離開三週， 三週之後我打算開始找 Job Agency。  不過我妹妹勸我再忍忍，目前的情勢不容樂觀。  窗普的政策真是不穩定。  到時候看看吧。  

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我已有很久沒看一本書了。  整天在想的實在不知道是甚麼。  我也兩天不能睡了。  不知道要怎麼辦才好？  

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我感覺我的思想枯竭就是從我給自己編織的夢裡面得到的結論。  我睡覺的法寶就是給自己編織一個夢。  這個習慣是大學的時候開始的吧。  通常都是甚麼籃球健將之類的， 再加上武功高手， 反正都是一些青少年的幻夢。  故事也是乏善可陳。  最近的一個依然是一個籃球健將， 帶領一個恩逼ㄟ 球隊奪得十二次冠軍。  當然在他卅歲時在奧運會上 (當然還要參將奧運嘛)，結識了一位荷蘭女排的選手。  一年後兩人在一個 road trip 上相愛了。  他在卅五歲時率隊奪得第九面恩逼ㄟ冠軍， 最後一場比賽更在三場延長賽後， 最後壓哨投出致勝的一球。  他也破了恩逼ㄟ紀錄， 這一場， 他得到七十一分。  那一晚， 他沒有睡， 直接做了飛機到歐洲， 他向正在打排球職業賽的女友求婚。  之後， 他又拿到三個冠軍。  四十歲時他退休了， 他的太太就回到職業排球裡。  五年後， 他太太也退休了。  他們倆竟然跌破眼鏡合開了一家交際舞教室。  他們育有四個子女，最後兩個是一對雙胞胎男女。  

大多數的夢都類似。  之前其實也試著寫過， 可是實在是太丟人了，寫不出來。  現在寫下來是因為知道我已不知道又怎麼夢下去了。  不知道是不是因為年歲已長， 臉皮變厚了。  

這些夢裡的人物，最多的就是女友。  但是裡面的對話幾乎是零。  我唯一能想出最多的描述就是 「她甚麼也沒說。」 我故事的結為通常是 「如果我也可以的話就好了。」  

是的， 如果我真的可以用力地把她緊緊的抱著， 就好了。  

說到這裡， 我心裡只是很空虛， 很悲傷， 眼淚都快掉出來了。  算了， 到這， 不寫了。  

  

我又開始錄音

 我又開始錄些音。  但是我要提醒自己， 不看書就無法錄音。  還是得常常看看， 才會有新東西才是。  

雲 --- (德) 赫曼。赫塞

 雲 --- (德) 赫曼。赫塞

    在我的寢室兼工作室的東邊， 有一個通向陽台的小門。 這個門從五月到九月半， 日夜都敞開著。  門外， 有一個長約一步闊約半步的小小的石造陽臺突出著。  這個陽臺是我的最好的財產，因為有了它，數年前我纔決心在這裡住下來。  因為有了它， 不管有多少次的失望， 我每次都還坐在這裡。  因為有了它， 雖然旅行了多少次， 我每次都懷著感謝的心情而回到這個狄辛(地名)的寓所裡來。  美麗的住所， 窗外特有的美麗而廣大的景色， 這常常是我的驕傲， 我的秘密。  可是， 從來的景色都沒有像現在這樣美麗過。  雖然壁粉脫落了， 而且還有種種的拘束， 但為了這景色， 我還在這裡繼續住下去。  

    在陽臺的外面，有一個古老的朝南的園子在半山腰形成峻峭的斜坡。  這裡面種著有重厚扇形樹梢的椶櫚，山茶花，含羞草和蘇木， 還有一顆完全被豆類纏繞著不知是什麼。 再上去， 是一個小小的薔薇花圃彷彿漂浮在天上一樣。  這個沉睡的舊園子， 和兩三個被栗樹遮蔽著的靜寂山谷，橫亙在我與人世之間， 我便是俯瞰著這些樹梢而度日的。  樹梢晝夜都喧噪著， 夕暮時分可以從其中聽見悲哀的夜梟的叫聲。  公路直通到我們村莊裡， 郵差的汽車每天都駛上來， 把可愛的信運到這裡來。  最可感謝的， 是汽車不斷地把從德國來(的，我加的)美好的新書帶來給我。   

    只要把門關起來， 世間的聲音就不會來到我的耳邊。  午後和傍晚常常都有這樣的時間。  在這樣的時候， 門已經關了，又沒有門鈴， 而下面是有許多石级的園子， 所以一坐在小小的陽臺上， 我就不會被什麼人騷擾了。  在這裡， 越過園子和森林的山谷， 我可以望見沙華特禮的山嶺， 和聳立在它後面的支羅尼梭峰。  我也可以望見坡禮查的耀眼的海灣， 和柯芒湖對面的那些直至仲夏還有雪留在山谷裡的高山。  

    夕暮時分， 我常常這樣坐著眺望， 一望到浮在近處天空上的暮雲， 我便會有一種滿足的情懷。  看見世間躺在下面， 我便想： 我在這世間雖不曾得到幸運，但它也不曾把我殺死， 我依舊生活著， 繼續反抗著。  我雖然不曾成為成功的廠長， 拳術家或電影明星，但我已得到了我十二歲時就神往的東西 -- 成為一個詩人了， 我不再想從世間得到什麼了。  如果我能用自己的眼睛靜靜地去觀察世間， 我便可以學到許多世間提共給我的東西，那是成功和人世間的幸運兒完全不曉得地。  能夠眺望是一種優秀的技術， 而且常常是一種非常快樂的技術。  

    我是從夕暮的雲學到這種技術的。  夕暮時分， 坐在這小小的陽臺上， 我總以雲為友。  佔著高高的位置的鳥巢般的我的露台， 聳入雲中。  天下雨的時候， 或颳這地方特有的的激烈暴風的時候， 雲會衝到我房間裡來， 退去了灰白色， 挨著露台的欄杆， 或一直竄到我的鞋邊。  而在外面， 雲在上下地迴旋著， 每次打閃電的時候， 便驚慌似的明亮起來。  在滴著水的山谷裡， 和寒冷而黑暗的湖上， 你會以為雲已經飛下來了， 但是它又被退色的天空吸回去。  和這相反， 在天氣晴朗的時候， 湖水青青地閃耀， 反映著紫色的夕暮的陰影。  在遠處的村莊上， 窗子的玻璃放射著金光， 山嶺的西端像透明的薔薇色的寶石一樣閃著， 這時雲也塗上了非常美麗的顏色， 精神奕奕， 永遠和顏悅色的漂浮著， 做著天真的小孩子的遊戲。  

    在少年時代， 我對於雲曾經採取虔敬的， 有點嚴肅的態度。  就是踏入老境的今日， 我愛雲也不遜於往昔， 但卻沒有從前那樣純真了。  雲是孩子， 對小孩純真的， 只有他的雙親、 祖父母和老人， 因為自己再次返老還童， 像他們對自己本身已不是很純真一樣， 所以對於小孩子也不會是純真的。  熱情是美麗的， 對於少年人是非常適合的， 但對於上了年紀的人， 卻是詼諧，微笑，機智，把世界當作一幅畫， 把事物當作短促的暮雲的遊戲來眺望，更為適當。  

    可是， 我忘記了我現在執筆的最重要的目的了。  春夕， 是雨後最美麗的晴朗的夕暮， 雲的樣子完全是可笑的。  雲在天空上， 有長長地曳著的， 也有圓圓地低垂著的， 但因為猛烈的風吹來了， 便徐徐地團團地轉著， 像是靜靜地在內面轉動著的長捲筒。 我一分鐘也沒有離開過， 忽然整個天空都明亮起來， 閃閃地放著光， 雲也小起來， 被推到地平線的那邊去了。  但雲的上面又有白色和金色， 腹部青青地長長伸展著， 像是飛船或鯨魚， 形狀都很浮凸和緊縮。  

    就在這一瞬間， 最後的薔薇色和金色也從寶石一樣的山頂消去， 下面漸漸暗起來， 只有天空中還隱隱地流著白日的光亮。  猛烈的風吹著， 但雲的船好像不動似的， 踟躕地停在山的背脊上。  我把鼻子向著風的方向。  它在逐漸淡下去的色調中， 又幽微地交織著紅色和褐色。  但是為了不要在下一個瞬間讓雲溜掉， 我應當好好地看守著。  看起來雲好像是固定而沒有生氣，幾乎是不動一樣， 但它的形狀卻不斷地從內部融解。  雲是奇妙的， 像是散課後的小孩子的惡作劇。  小孩子在學校的圍牆邊向老師脫帽告別。  但老師回頭一看， 小孩子已經不見了， 卻從圍牆後傳來笑聲。  

    這時一塊長長的雲又來到別的雲上面， 初看時像金屬鑄造出來的牢固不動。  在藍碧的天空裡漂浮著一塊薔薇色的雲，它突然猛烈地燃燒起來， 變為鮮艷的紅色， 同時形成為美麗的魚。  不久， 它又變成一條有青色腹鰭的大金魚，一邊微笑著， 一邊向著滅亡游泳過去。  如果夕陽的光亮消失， 我的金魚便一分鐘都不能生存。  現在尾部以變為褐色， 腹部以變為青色， 鮮豔的紅色和金色只在背脊上燃燒著。  後來它突然捲著尾巴， 頭膨脹為圓形。  金魚已經失去最後的金色了， 在它消滅時， 它變為圓塊， 並從裡面吐出兩條灰色薄紗， 像是噴吐自己的靈魂。  它在漸漸薄下去的紗裡融解， 於是便完全失去了它的形狀。  

    金魚消失， 我的快樂也消失了。  雖然有幾本美麗的新書在等待著我， 但如果我能夠再和我的金魚多玩一小時， 將是多麼快樂呵！  

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used iA for 8 hours

 I used IA for a project, which has nothing to do with me.  For this problem belongs to the Support team.  So there is this customer who emailed us hisPO.  I entered the PO into our system, and yet this customer kept emailing me that the SOconfirmation email was wrong.  We went back and forth, no, I went back and forth with him with elaboration, which I pointed out which item he had a wrong pricing.  He basically just repeated his statement again and again, without further reasoning.  I got frustrated, and had Emily checked the SO for me.  She did not want to check it, because one glance, she knew I was correct.  Then I decided to go to David.  After David heard me while searching around.  He confirmed my statement that the customer quoted a product incorrectly.  He then wrote an email to the customer.  

The next morning, while I was picking, he came and asked me if I saw the customer's reply.  I said yea, the customer agreed with our conclusion.  But he said that another person from the customer chimed in, saying that it was our fault through a pricing spreadsheet, which we shared with the customer.  The customer asked us to honor the wrong data this time.  I was kind flabbergasted, and David said that he now agreed with me that the customer knew the problem and set the trap for us.  

Internally, the support team was trying to correct the mistake, but they found it's really hard.  I kept hearing David and Ashley saying it's really hard.  I thought it was a great opportunity to try out the iA.  I started on Sunday for 1.5 hours, downloading the data, rearrange it, engaging the iA a little bit.  Just to understand what we were dealing with.  Then I spend 3+ hours last night trying to get it going using ChatchatGpt.  From the start, iA gave me three ways to go, I forgot the first one, second one was powerQuery, since it was an excel sheet.  The last option was iA could write a VBA for me to automate.  

At first, I used powerQuery to do text to column.  But for some reason, it failed, because some pricing appears like this: 231,356,087.  power Query reconize some of this as 1 number, rather than 3 different numbers, although the delimiter is comma.  I eventually solved this issue with manual operation using excel's build-in function text to columns.  Then I started to use powerQuery to split the weight, this one was very easy.  But for some reason, iA told me to unpivot while highlihgting the SKU column.  Then I got a data range called long format, which is a name I learned today from dipsik. 

" In the context of data analysis and statistics, a "long-range dataset" or "long format" refers to a dataset where each row represents a single observation or measurement, with multiple observations or measurements for the same entity (like a person, place, or thing) stacked in separate rows. "

But I feel it might be helpful down the road, for some reason unknown to me.  Anyway, the rest of the 3+ hours, I got lazy, so I just tell ChachatGpt to give me a VBA code to automate everything, like give me a converted weight column, since spreadsheet does not recognize mg, g, ug, we have to use one unit to really compare the weight.  It was not smooth sailing, iA gave a few VBA codes, but some failed, some work partially, until I thought it worked.  Then I asked if we could make the attributes, like price, price2, and size.1 and size.2 to correspond with heaviest and most pricy and second heaviest, and second pricy.  That was the one task I could not finished last night.  iA kept gave me VBA codes, I kept trying to give it feed back on the codes.  Until 1230 am, I found a huge error.  Previously I thought the converted weight was correct, I am not sure if it's because all those VBA codes for correct re-labeling attributes, or it was just wrong beforehand.  The ug had failed to convert to mg.  That was the last straw of the night.  I gave up and turned in.  

I tried it again this afternoon at work.  I used dipsik at first and was really impressed by the interaction with it, especially when it guided me to debug the problem of converting ug to mg.  Though I tried and tried, and dipsik was extremely patient, I myself lost patience and found a cheating method to bypass the error.  Even now I am still wondering just why can't I convert ug to mg...  

But after the bypass, I could not engage with dipsik again.  I felt the instruction was kind too simple and bland.  I think it must have something to do with my prompt.  Anyway, I jumped back to chachatGpt.  it has the same problem like dipsik.  The instruction seems very unclear and vague, I had a hard time to follow it.  I found last night's chat, it has a lot VBA codes.  I decided to follow that chat.  Also I forego the manual process, I asked iA for VBA code like last night.  This time, he gave me about 3 wrong codes, I told him each time, what's wrong, what the error message was saying, which code did the debug highlight.  Eventually I got a code that worked!!  That's another 3 hours passed.  The finality was to pivot the long form range.  After a tweak of the datatype, change the Value column of mg, ug and pricing to text.  I got the table I wanted.  I was so happy I went and told Emily.  Emily even came over to take a look.  Though I know it's a polite thing to do, I appreciated her effort.  

Anyway, I still need to check the sheet tomorrow to make sure it is correct.  lol  

8 hours working on a sheet is really kind dumb.  But considering that I know very very little about power query, VBA and other stuff.  The amount of things iA did was amazing.  It was not in anyway perfect, in fact, it did a lot of trial and error.  Of course, there's problem with the prompts that I gave.  But if it just me, I know it will not work with 100 hours.  iA really is quite amazing under the right hand.  I think.